There was a side of you that I never knew.

Hello guys! I'm really sorry about the my blog's inactivity for the past few weeks. I did not have any inspiration to post anything, and my mind's been filled with many personal events. In addition, I'm seriously going bonkers with my Sec 4 life. I wonder how can my friends handle their homework load so efficiently? I'm barely keeping up with all my schoolwork. And some may say that I've been using my computer a bit too often recently, but I can't possibly focus on my work after a tiring day at school.

It's almost the end of January now, and I'm disappointed with myself in the ways that I've managed myself in the previous weeks. Sec 4 life, parents' forum and the competitiveness in my class - they're not exactly making me motivated to start studying/ revising for my work.

I've been practically failing all my HCL assignments that Jiang Lao Shi gave to the class. The only exception was my bao zhang, which barely made its grade. Sigh, and I've been spending a lot of time on the subject. I feel like drifting myself away from the subject, but I can't. Maybe that's because I wanna work harder on that subject to at least pass my O levels so that I can get my 2 bonus points! But it's pretty hard for me as my world in HCL is falling apart.

Also, my Chemistry. From my A1 standards dropping to an A2. That's not a joke. I can sense Ms Ong's disappointment in me, and I sat at the first row! Some of my friends got like 39.5/40, but I barely made an A2. That's pathetic right? Sigh, I really wanna work on my weaker subjects, but if I do so, I'll be neglecting my strengths. Guess that it's all about the balance eh?

Good news? My physics finally improved! I'm glad to say that I managed to jump back to my A2! Maybe that's because of my Physics tuition and Mr Tang! And I'm really satisfied with my marks now and will continue to strive for my A1!

AND FINALLY, EVER SINCE SEC 3 SEMESTER 2, I MANAGED TO UNDERSTAND MR LEE'S LESSONS FOR AMATHS! It feels like an achievement.. And I'll try not to owe Stella anymore homework for more than 2 weeks! Glad that I'm starting to cope up well with my Differentiation, even though I'm still relatively weaker in that topic as compared to people like Esmonde, Clarissa and Matthew..

I feel that I don't understand Biology any longer since the year started. I don't know why, but even if I try my best to pay attention to Mr Chong, I can't seem to understand his lessons! And the worst part? I don't even know what I don't understand, and there's a test this Thursday! I gotta work on the Eye and the Nervous System! It really requires some motivation to get the job done eh?

Moving on, my CCA. Life in choir has been pretty good with all the induction workshops etc. But I still feel framed in choir because my conductor has been picking on me recently, and I can't seem to find out what I've been singing wrongly because my mind tells me otherwise. ><. Anyway, it's glad to induct my juniors into choir! They're all so friendly, but some are acting a bit too spoiled for their age. Maybe that's because they aren't used to Secondary School life, but my patience is waning.

Life in Sec 4 is tough, but I'm not giving up, because I know that I'll be able to make it through. I don't know why, but it seems like when I reach out to my friends, the distance between us starts to widen ):. Maybe that's because I haven't been interacting with them since I entered Sec 3, so I plan to pull them back into my life as I endure my Sec 4 life ):. Besides, if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be alive right now. 

So, I'm going to summarize what I had done in January :

- Celebrate Mr Goh's Birthday!

- Appointment of Monitors ( Yes, I'm still going to be defiant and not wear my tie (: )

- Parent's Forum

- Lunch with Friends!

- CNY Celebrations ( with 4e6 taking the crown for CNY decoration compeition )

- Overseas trip to Indonesia (:

- The loss of my E-dictionary and my water bottle ):

- Choir Induction Workshop

- CCA Open House

Btw, Carrie Underwood is gonna come back with a sizzling new single! Can't wait to hear it next month (:.

Well, that's all for today, and I can't really guarantee any more posts for this year! But I'll try to squeeze some time to make a proper post sometimes alright?

Maybe it's a good thing to sit beside girls.

Because they'll offer their opinions to me in whatever that I do (:

你痛了又痛,

我还是错了再错.

难道我是那么笨吗? ):

Got my middle finger up,
but I don't really give a fuck.

That was one of the best quotes made by Rihanna :D. Life can be disappointing at times, so we shouldn't really care too much about the stuff that's occasionally popping up to us. Sigh, I'm really sorry for breaking my promise to all of my readers ):. Really had the urge to blog, but I can't seem to squeeze any time for it..

Anyway, the first week of being Sec 4 has already emerged past. I guess it was kinda stressful for me? With stacks of homework and revision that're specially prepared for us and I had like 5 hours of sleep a day? Felt like fainting during choir ):. Need to offer my gratitude to Rowena and Joyce for taking care of their dear mother (^^)  and managing the choir.. Actually, I think that the volume of my voice has shrunk over the years in Zhonghua. Is it because I don't really like shouting anymore..? I'm not sure..

Oh yeah, time to introduce the teachers who will be guiding me throughout my entire Sec 4 life! I'm pretty contented about what I have, based on their teaching skills and of course, the other band's teacher.

English : Mr Lim Yong Khern ( was a tad upset that I didn't get Miss Crystal Ling, but I think he teaches the technical areas better than Miss Ling, even though she gives inspiration and massive chunks of vocabulary to the class each day.. )

E Maths : Miss Estee Teo ( WAS REALLY UPSET THAT MRS NG LEFT ):. I LOVED HER SO MUCH ):. Not bad, but I prefer her lessons without the use of the visualizer.. And she ensures that the students grasp the concepts well (: )

Amaths : Mr Lee Moh Choon ( Let bygones be bygones~. I think he's really awesome, as compared to Koh HS, but it's alright! Things will be more strict especially when we're at the senior level.. Will try to complete his homework.. )

Chemistry : Miss Ong Lay Hong ( I LOVE HER! I'm fine with both, actually.. But still, her lessons are really interesting and she never fails to crack a joke in class! I think my Chemistry did surprisingly well because of her.. )

Physics : Mr Lawrence Tang ( YAY! My Sec 1/2 teacher! My impression of him hasn't changed over the years! He's awesome :3. )

Biology : Mr Desmond Chong ( I think that he's fine, but Ms Rozi teaches a lil' better though :X. But he's making us do the Biology Journal ):. Anyway, he's really different in class as compared to the podium! Even though he's not as detailed, he still manages to let the students grasp the concepts well.. )

HCL : Mdm Jiang Ruifang ( I'm really happy that I got her, even though she tends to pile a tremendous load of homework on us :X. Well, she teaches really well and I'll be motivated to do my homework right? xD )

Social Studies : Miss Noraini ( I heard that she wasn't really a good teacher, but based on her first lesson in Sec 4, I feel that she teaches pretty well.. I hope things remain the same throughout this entire year (:. PS. She can teach English too! )

Geography Elective : Mrs Wong Check Siew ( She's awesome! One of the most experienced teachers in the humanities department. Her way of teaching is fantastic! (: )

And guess who's my mentor? Ms Noraini! Well, I wasn't really surprised, knowing that I did terribly for my combined Humanities and English. I really hope that she can save me as she obtained a Humanities degree as well as a degree in English :D.

Hmm, moving on, I think that things are getting a little bit ( more like extremely ) tense in my class. Well, we're just ordinary students, but teachers tend to discriminate us just because we take Triple Science >:(. Anyway, have been seeing lots of classmates studying in class during their free periods and that really bothers me because I barely started my revision.. And I've been seeing many people studying together after school too ):. Argh. I'm getting really stressed up now :X.

Anyway, guess who's sitting beside me? Adeline and Jue Ying! They're awesome people! (:. It's a first time for me sitting beside Adeline even though I've been with her for 2 years.. But she really concentrates in class and does all her homework. WHY DOESN'T ANYBODY NOT DO THEIR HOMEWORK IN TRIPLE SCIENCE? IT'S LIKE I'M THE NAUGHTIEST KID THERE. ):

I think I'm going to end my post now. My apologies for the abrupt ending ):. Bye (:

I cannot cry because I know that that's weakness in your eyes.
I'm forced to fake a laugh, a smile everyday of my life.
My heart can't possibly break,
when it wasn't whole to start with.

This time won't you save me.

It's 15 minutes away from 2012 now. It's been a rocky road for me this year eh? Having met thrills and disappointments throughout my entire journey in my new class. Life in triple science and HCL is tough. But somehow, I managed to survive. I managed to find redemption in various subjects that I took. Maybe some really let me down, but they really showed me my flaws eh?

Resolutions for the New Year? I don't really believe in that. That is because they usually don't come true for me, even though I try my hardest to fulfil them. But this time, I'ma do it just for the tiny glimpse of hope that my heart has, as it attempts to embrace the new year with open arms.

Well, here is a brief summary of what I've experienced this year.

- SYF competition for Choir

- President and Student Conductor Appointment

- OBS Camp (:

- Batam Trip

- Phillipines Trip

- Zhonghua 100th anniversary Concert

- 11/11/11 concert.

- 3e6 Class Chalet

- Lots of Lunch dates with my friends

- Lots of movie dates with my friends

And of course, there have been disappointments too. I shan't list them, lest they might ruin my mood now. Sigh, I bet everyone's having the partying mood whereas for me, I'm trying to complete my Biology worksheet. Maybe that's the consequence for procastinating.. But who cares? I had fun during my December break. This year wasn't really meant for studying, even though I tried to put in some effort to do so.

I managed to bond closer with my friends. I managed to realize who are my true friends. They've been always around me, just that I'm usually oblivious to them. To those that managed to make me smile at least once this year, thanks for making my life slightly more pleasant than before. To those that made me despondant or disappointed this year, thank you for letting me have the chance to overcome the tides that you've given me, so that I would come back stronger than before.

Just before the ball in Times Square, New York drops to commemorate the New Year, I would like to share a speech that's made by Hilary Swank in the movie ' New Year's Eve '.

It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long.

Please remember all the promises that we've made to each other, and even though we may have slipped the chance to fulfil it, do take some time off and make it up for your loved ones. There's only gonna be one year that's known as 2012 in our lives. Regardless of whether the phenomenon of 2012 occurs or not, we should keep our spirits alive, and cherish what we presently have, as well as to move on from the past. Live everyday happily, so that we won't be in regret if the world really comes to an end.

Well, those are just my two-bits worth for the new year. I might post my new year resolutions in my next blog post next year (:. A big thank you to all my readers who have been faithfully reading my blog and tagging! I wish you all a great year ahead for all of us. Oh, and a special note to all graduating students, I wish you all the best for your results in Week 2 (:. No matter what you get on that day, be contented and move on with your lives (:. Don't forget to remember me though!

That's all for now. I promise that I'll be back later. Bye (:. HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE TO ALL OF US! *pops champagne*

Deep down inside we wanna believe we still do.

I still do, and I hope that you do too.

I still like you loads.

Please tell me something I wanna hear.
Hold onto me tight, even if I'm pushing you away .

Just close your eyes.
The sun's going down.
You'll be alright,
no one can hurt you now.
Come morning light,
you and I'll be safe and sound.


Just changed my blog song. I think this has to be one of the few songs which I'm really emotionally attached to. Not only does it shows the mature side of the singer (Taylor Swift), but it really fits the purpose of this song. It's the first single for the film adaptation of 'The Hunger Games' - that's one of the few books that made me tear halfway through reading it. Heard that this would be used on Rue's death.. I don't wanna be a spoiler here, but I still can't believe Rue died ):.

Can't believe it but, once I heard this song, I immediately went to the NLB's website and reserved 'Catching Fire' - the sequel of the trilogy of 'The Hunger Games'.

Sigh, back to this piece of music, if only Taylor Swift writes songs that are of a more mature theme, and I'll love the hell out of her. The other reason why I'm simply intoxicated to this song is because it really describes what I've been feeling for the past few days.. Been going through lots of stuff lately, and the series of events that kept occurring made me utterly confused right now. I really don't know what to say, or what to post anymore. Through the days, I've been thinking about one thing, and that's all. I can't believe that I've already forsaken my humongous workload just because of that thought, but I kinda like it though..

Anyway, I know it's been ages since I've last posted a decent post, but I guess I won't be having any inspiration for a while. I'm really sorry to my readers out there who have been anxiously checking my blog everyday but have been met with extreme disappointment.

But before I leave, I just wanna share a song with you guys. Christmas has just past, and we're soon reaching towards the end of the year. Like what Carrie Underwood says,

 ' Each happy ending's a brand new beginning. '


But for those who did not have their happy ending yet, keep a little bit of faith within yourself, and take everything around you with a pinch of salt (:. So, that's why I'm sharing a Mariah Carey's song once again to all of you, because her lyrics really sends out an important message to all of us. And of course, she had her bitter and sour moments in her career too right?



I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again on my own,
and I know that I'm strong enough to mend.
And every time I'm afraid,
I'll hold tighter to my faith.
And I'll live one more day,
and I'll make it through the rain.

And I won't give my love away.

I'm confused.

I don't know what to say.

No one knew that things would progress this far,

but I won't fall in love this year.

And that's a promise to myself.

I guess it's time to leave love behind this year,

and start preparing for the last lap.

If you read this post,

please just keep it between us.

A crowded room ; 
Friends with tired eyes. 


I'm hiding from you,
and your soul of ice.