Its September Holidays.

- If stars don't align, If it doesn't stop time. If you can't see the sign, Wait For It. -

I just like that song :D. Although my blog's playlist had a screwed up version at the end. Oh well :D. Listen to the official one though.

Sigh, I don't really know what to blog about. Nothing seems to matter, or weigh anything since you're gone =]. Oh well, I was totally having a different mood for choir. Looks like my singing style depends on my mood. Sighh. But yeah, tomorrow's canceled off. Oh well.

I've been playing real loads these few days. I should really control myself. People are going to school to study tomorrow. But I'm not sure whether I should or not. Cuz they might be a distraction being the hyperactive type. Or would I stay at home and complete all my assigned homework? Sigh, in a dilemma now. Nah, I think my mind's decided long ago. And I really like my msn font =]. Small but nice :D.

Made real good friends. But I'm afraid that things might turn out to be like me and him. From talking everyday like non-stop until becoming silent the whole time. I didn't even say hi to him anymore. Maybe Its time to let go. Oh well, I have to put my love and friendship problems to one side, as Streaming Exams are coming and I MUST. devote the time I have in this holiday to buck up and to take a good break. My parents said my Science need a little help. So I should focus on that.

Things to study by tomorrow :
- Light
- Act 1 Scene 7
- Electricity
- Agriculture
- Population

That seems decent =]. At least to me. But I'm nearly done with Agriculture, and my notes for population are done :D. So I think tomorrow is just purely physics then :D.

I.Just.Realised.That.Many.Duets.Are.Nice :D. Shall post them in the playlist soon..

* I'm wishing that things would go back to square one between me and you when school re-opens, but I know it would be like wishing on a wishing star, without making it come true. *

Mortal was right, I care too much. Sigh, I shouldn't like have too much concern on people's doing now. Listening to the First song, one of the songs of Carrie Underwood that made me REALLY cry.

- You said you'll come, But I know you.
You said you're coming home, But I know you.
You said you'll call, But I know you won't.
You said you're coming home, But I know you won't. -

The fact that she totally bombarded the song with her amazing vocals, and especially after that live performance at the 35th People's Choice Awards, being the favorite star under 35. That was really brilliant. The people voted for the right person. she could just stand up and hit those notes like nobody's business and DELIVER the emotions inside the song. And to make them last forever. Standing Ovation, I would really give it to her :D.

Anyways, I know that you wouldn't want me to ____ you. So I guess, I have to withdraw. It didn't fit, It just wasn't right. Too bad I didn't feel the Fairy Tale Feeling. I don't know what to do exactly. You're the one, yet come undone. My world would just start spinning. Sighhh. But if you really said yes, I think that it isn't the right time, maybe after the outing, we both need to focus for our exams 100%.

When school reopens, or the next time you see me. You'll see a different me.

Hey, Its been like so long since I last made a playlist. So I decided to make one =].

The songs are in this order :

1) I Know You Won't - Carrie Underwood <33
2) Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry :D
3) Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys :D
4) If No One Will Listen - Kelly Clarkson :DD
5) Stay - Miley Cyrus :D
6) What If - Ashley Tisdale <33
7) Don't Let Me Down - Leona Lewis :D
8) Animal - Ke$ha :D
9) Forever and Always - Taylor Swift
10) When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne :DD

Hope you all like it :D

It's been a week since I last posted. Missed me eh?

Teacher's Day concert was okay bah =]. Since many people said I sang sweetly which I think they were just trying to cheer me up. Oh well. The Teacher's Day concert was appropriate this year :D. Especially 3e5's dance. Really fabulous. Blown away, just blown away :D.

Nothing much to post nowadays. All I know that the school term's over. That's all I know. Was going through a tiring yet fun term. Maybe I'm really depressed. I'm tired. Streaming Exams are like in 4-5 weeks? I have to forget you and focus on them during the holidays. Just hoping that you'll give me a chance. But alright, I love the Way You Lie.
Sorry if I broke my promise to play with you ytd, I fell asleep. Was emotional angry. Angry at myself. For doing such stupid things. For doing things that I shouldn't do.

And Last Night, For the many times I thought, Once again, I felt like dying >.<. Lying on my bed, it was already like 1am. I flashbacked about the things that happened between June and now. Many sad memories. Many bitter Memories. And I had a bit of a seizure last night. I was shaking vigorously for the first time in my life. IDK what had happened. And I sensed something behind me. I only whispered, 'Je t'aime'. I had survived through the night. The tides of temporary Darkness. But I doubt I would again. Something's out there is trying to get me. I think I'm possessed temporarily.

I'm still Sober.

I feel depressed. Our friendship would never come back again like what we had in June. Maybe its because of what I've done. I should be contented that you wanted to befriend me again. But nothing's the same anymore. We've nothing much to talk about nowadays. Maybe because we are more hesitant and that I'm trying to avoid you? In msn , I would spam your convo until it's the max. And now we only exchange Hi and don't even talk.. I guess it's really over then.

Yesterday's Streaming Talk was fun i guess. With many interesting Qns etc.

Bye.

Sometimes you get, Sometimes they take.

Sigh. Guess I really know what you think about me. I thought wrong then. A person who can be trusted, a person who I can confide into. It was all a lie. Just a temporary illusion. So be it. Don't expect me to talk to you then. I'll just finish what I'm supposed to do and that's it.

Talked to Mortal until 3am last night? It was very interesting. Talked about loads of stuff. But it was quite saddening. So glad that my mortal stood by me unlike him. Sigh, why mention him in the first place? If only time could rewind before the June Holidays. Maybe I wouldn't know you existed at all. I wouldn't even bother saying hi to you every time you on msn.

- Looking through different perspectives, that's what I was taught by him. But why I couldn't apply it to my daily life? -

Gah. My results are going down. I really needa buck up. I still can make it! I remember Miss Teresa Lin tell the class : " Two weeks before mid year, still can make it de. "

Ah, all those inspirational words.

REALLY had total fun with Joyce and Randy ;D. We went singing for the auditions. Pretty cool I guess ;D.
- Because God Blessed the Broken Road, that Led Me Straight To You. -

And now I made real good friends like today ^^. This is gonna be so memorable, even if I make it to sing for Teacher's Day.

Okay, so planned out my Study Table. To recap what to study. And that I plan to start by today, but I'm celebrating my Aunt's Bday at Central ^^.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D.

Then went to buy ______ for you. Sigh, sorry if I really cant do that for you. Real busy. I'll try my best though ^.^. Only like 5 people know who I ____. But still,

- I love the way you lie <3 -

Just received Joyce's sms. That was really sweet ;D.

Gosh, Just read this really HURTING POST in FB.
Firstly, please do not say that "Express" has bad mouth. Sorry to say this, what about your friends? To say this crudely, you're in Normal. And there are reasons for it. I've never trusted any of you. But of course, there are some who go in and out. And my impressions would change. And its obvious that you like him. SO WHAT? Posting on his wall nearly everyday. PLEASE. I check his wall everyday just for fun and FB-hopping.

- Will I be sober? -

Just came back from practice! Hope our hard work really pays us off! JY ;D.

Sigh, things aren't right this time. But at least I got to know people MUCH better than before. And we had fun singing and slacking all the way!

Went to Swensens and enjoyed a clam chowder soup along with a baked rice ;D. Yum. Oh yeah, my this week's all booked to the max. Choir TMR. Urgh. Have the feelings of not wanting to attend it. But yeah, its sort of compulsory though.

This post seems messy. Oh yeah, talked to Mortal for like 3 hours from 12 midnight? It was super tiring yet interesting! I knew MUCH MORE Secrets than before! Hahaha, talked about Cartoons, then people, then teachers. AND STALKERS. OMG. Lots of ghost stories to share! I sound like a gossip girl now. GOSH.

Okay, GTG. It's a school day tomorrow ;D.