Hey,
I just wanted to be honest with you.
You're beautiful.
Maybe that was why I was hooked with your love controller.
Remind me the times we spent together,
Even if those days were short.
Maybe I'll keep hoping for love,
and wait for you to show me the way.
But I'm fine with both ways.
Just stop ignoring me alright?
My heart is bleeding.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Exam results are out! Okay, maybe part 1. Some were satisfying, some were of course (heartening) and some were disappointing. Anyway, results.
A Maths : 98/100
E Maths : 99/100
Chemistry : 65/100
SS : 42/100
HCL : 56.5/100
EL : 51.5/100
Yup, flunked 2 papers so far. There's many more to count! Anyway, SS was a total disappointment to me. I thought I could get higher ( at least a pass ) ?? But anyway, its alright. There were lessons learned anyway, shan't revert back to the same old ways.
EL too! Maybe my choice of writing an argumentative essay isn't wise.. That caused me to drop a lot and esp my comprehension. Gosh, I gotta spend more time on it!
You may ask, HCL was like a C5, but why didn't I highlight it? The answer is, I was quite satisfied with it. Honestly, I thought I would fail this paper. Anyway, I've been studying HCL for about 0.5 year and the ability to get that mark was already a miracle (:. Me and XY were like totally excited and we keep cheering each other up!
You don't need to strive for the best. So as long you did your best, you'll be content.
Choir Meeting tomorrow! I mean all the CCA heads. Wonder what they will talk about. And CHOIR! Haven't really started preparing for it! And I can skip choir next monday (:. BINTAN CAMP :D. Huifang, its with the person on the phone that I wrote those symbols. LOL. Don't think too much.
Now that the exams are like over, I can finally de-stress. And I feel like proposing something to choir, but I think it will be rejected even though it benefits it. Oh well, maybe I should just raise it up?
Gosh, talking about choir. I just realised what happened to me in choir this year. It will be like a cold war between people, and people will just be avoiding one another. And especially that thing happened, I don't know how can I make up to you. And I'm also spreading myself further away from the other two. Guess I don't really have a good life in choir even I'm like the president eh?
Maybe what Felicia said was right.
Anyway, American Idol! Love it :D. I hope a female takes the crown this year! :D. And I like Lauren's version of 'If I Die Young', although Haley's performance was quite disappointing. ):.
I went out with Clare, Louis, Brandon, Yong Lin, Gracia, Cherie, Chermaine, Zong You to nex and watched movies!! Awesome trip! :D. Wished I can go for another one, even though all these monitor and CCA stuff comes crashing down on me. Which reminds me, STOP ASKING ME TO GIVE OUT FORMS DURING EXAM TIMES. ITS IRRITATING WHENEVER YOU CALL US AND WANT SOMETHING TO BE DONE. HELLO? I DONT SEE MY ENTIRE CLASS! AND ITS THE EXAM PERIOD.
Had a little heart-to-heart conversation with Ikhmah!! :D. Talked about studies, then the arcade! :D.
Watched how the boys played Arcade. I don't find the interesting part about them. Honestly, I feel bored. :/
It's late at night now! Bye! And best of luck to me for part 2 tomorrow! ^^
It's nice to see how you and her developed so fast.
Sometimes, I just feel jealous.
And whenever I talk to her, I think of you.
But we'll still be good friends after all,
Even if a tinge of jealousy hits me hard sometimes.
Wish you all the best (:
Sigh, life sucks for me.
Although you finally started to reply me,
After like 3 months?
There's no building up.
I'll just wait quietly at the corner then.
It was nice having the only lesson with you,
Even though I'm not sure whether I will be kicked out from that class!
Same for all the rest in that class EG. Yuan Zhen, Xin Yi, Keandra, Jin Yi, Kah Wai, Elaine and Nicholas! Thanks for all the support you've given me and I'll never forget all the fun and torture we had in the lesson!
When we face misery, we would want it to end immediately
But when we say goodbye, we would want the moment we spent together last forever.
A Maths : 98/100
E Maths : 99/100
Chemistry : 65/100
SS : 42/100
HCL : 56.5/100
EL : 51.5/100
Yup, flunked 2 papers so far. There's many more to count! Anyway, SS was a total disappointment to me. I thought I could get higher ( at least a pass ) ?? But anyway, its alright. There were lessons learned anyway, shan't revert back to the same old ways.
EL too! Maybe my choice of writing an argumentative essay isn't wise.. That caused me to drop a lot and esp my comprehension. Gosh, I gotta spend more time on it!
You may ask, HCL was like a C5, but why didn't I highlight it? The answer is, I was quite satisfied with it. Honestly, I thought I would fail this paper. Anyway, I've been studying HCL for about 0.5 year and the ability to get that mark was already a miracle (:. Me and XY were like totally excited and we keep cheering each other up!
You don't need to strive for the best. So as long you did your best, you'll be content.
Choir Meeting tomorrow! I mean all the CCA heads. Wonder what they will talk about. And CHOIR! Haven't really started preparing for it! And I can skip choir next monday (:. BINTAN CAMP :D. Huifang, its with the person on the phone that I wrote those symbols. LOL. Don't think too much.
Now that the exams are like over, I can finally de-stress. And I feel like proposing something to choir, but I think it will be rejected even though it benefits it. Oh well, maybe I should just raise it up?
Gosh, talking about choir. I just realised what happened to me in choir this year. It will be like a cold war between people, and people will just be avoiding one another. And especially that thing happened, I don't know how can I make up to you. And I'm also spreading myself further away from the other two. Guess I don't really have a good life in choir even I'm like the president eh?
Maybe what Felicia said was right.
Anyway, American Idol! Love it :D. I hope a female takes the crown this year! :D. And I like Lauren's version of 'If I Die Young', although Haley's performance was quite disappointing. ):.
I went out with Clare, Louis, Brandon, Yong Lin, Gracia, Cherie, Chermaine, Zong You to nex and watched movies!! Awesome trip! :D. Wished I can go for another one, even though all these monitor and CCA stuff comes crashing down on me. Which reminds me, STOP ASKING ME TO GIVE OUT FORMS DURING EXAM TIMES. ITS IRRITATING WHENEVER YOU CALL US AND WANT SOMETHING TO BE DONE. HELLO? I DONT SEE MY ENTIRE CLASS! AND ITS THE EXAM PERIOD.
Had a little heart-to-heart conversation with Ikhmah!! :D. Talked about studies, then the arcade! :D.
Watched how the boys played Arcade. I don't find the interesting part about them. Honestly, I feel bored. :/
It's late at night now! Bye! And best of luck to me for part 2 tomorrow! ^^
It's nice to see how you and her developed so fast.
Sometimes, I just feel jealous.
And whenever I talk to her, I think of you.
But we'll still be good friends after all,
Even if a tinge of jealousy hits me hard sometimes.
Wish you all the best (:
Sigh, life sucks for me.
Although you finally started to reply me,
After like 3 months?
There's no building up.
I'll just wait quietly at the corner then.
It was nice having the only lesson with you,
Even though I'm not sure whether I will be kicked out from that class!
Same for all the rest in that class EG. Yuan Zhen, Xin Yi, Keandra, Jin Yi, Kah Wai, Elaine and Nicholas! Thanks for all the support you've given me and I'll never forget all the fun and torture we had in the lesson!
When we face misery, we would want it to end immediately
But when we say goodbye, we would want the moment we spent together last forever.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Hey guys, Its been like a month since I last posted? OMG. I'm sorry to all my readers ( if you're still out there ).
Anyway, my exams are like screwed.
Chemistry : Killer paper. Guess I'm gonna die for it.
Physics : Very time-consuming. I don't feel as assured for it as before.
Biology : Fairly easy for me. But I'm afraid for my careless mistakes!
HCL : GG.COM.
EL : Quite okay.
E Maths : Some questions were tricky, but I think it can be done (:
A Maths : I think this is like the easiest paper? Quite easy.
Combined Humanities : I RAN OUT OF TIME ):.
So, that's all for my exams. And I hate teachers who keep walking around in the hall, making distracting and unnecessary noises with their shoes ESP. high heels! Gosh, sitting at the front row was distracting for me as the female teachers like to walk around.
There goes my concentration skills!~
Anyway, We shan't talk about the exams now, because the results will be out soon. And I will reflect on them.
Been playing computer all day long, and going out with loads of people tomorrow! Gosh, I still need to prepare stuff for choir since I'm like... and I've not even started with them yet! I'm so gonna embarrass myself in front of them. ):.
Sports Carnival was boring I guess! It was just talk and talk! But there was a KOI outing :D. Quite cool indeed! :D
Anyway, that's all for today! Sorry for short post. Mental Block.
I'll move on just like you,
Where the desert floods and the cloud turns blue.
Where the sailing ship don't meet her moon.
It will break my heart but I'll get through.
Someday when I stop ....
It's been a tough week eh?
I can tell that your using her to like communicate with me.
But at least your listening now (:.
And holy crap, I can totally anticipate the troubles I will face in choir when it starts again. AND YOU. Stop talking behind my back! I know you kinda hate me now, I'm fine with it. I tried to mend, but you just ignored my attempts. Oh well.
Anyway, my exams are like screwed.
Chemistry : Killer paper. Guess I'm gonna die for it.
Physics : Very time-consuming. I don't feel as assured for it as before.
Biology : Fairly easy for me. But I'm afraid for my careless mistakes!
HCL : GG.COM.
EL : Quite okay.
E Maths : Some questions were tricky, but I think it can be done (:
A Maths : I think this is like the easiest paper? Quite easy.
Combined Humanities : I RAN OUT OF TIME ):.
So, that's all for my exams. And I hate teachers who keep walking around in the hall, making distracting and unnecessary noises with their shoes ESP. high heels! Gosh, sitting at the front row was distracting for me as the female teachers like to walk around.
There goes my concentration skills!~
Anyway, We shan't talk about the exams now, because the results will be out soon. And I will reflect on them.
Been playing computer all day long, and going out with loads of people tomorrow! Gosh, I still need to prepare stuff for choir since I'm like... and I've not even started with them yet! I'm so gonna embarrass myself in front of them. ):.
Sports Carnival was boring I guess! It was just talk and talk! But there was a KOI outing :D. Quite cool indeed! :D
Anyway, that's all for today! Sorry for short post. Mental Block.
I'll move on just like you,
Where the desert floods and the cloud turns blue.
Where the sailing ship don't meet her moon.
It will break my heart but I'll get through.
Someday when I stop ....
It's been a tough week eh?
I can tell that your using her to like communicate with me.
But at least your listening now (:.
Monday, April 25, 2011
One Word Can Mean Everything.
ADVANCE PAPERS THIS WEEK. I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING SERIOUSLY.
It's been ages since you last did that to me.
It seemed like you're blaming me for everything that goes wrong.
Please don't tell me indirectly or behind my back that I'm not doing my job.
Sometimes I feel like shouting so hard at you,
but it feels so heartbreaking.
Things are turning out worse every single day.
I wished the times that we would talk,
and now we would have this silent war between us.
I knew it,
I shouldn't have done it.
You replied my text today,
but I felt a tinge of anger from you while doing so.
Great,
I lost something today.
Anyway, that thing is still in front of me.
Wrapped.
I feel like clawing it apart and tearing the card apart.
But this just kills me.
ADVANCE PAPERS THIS WEEK. I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING SERIOUSLY.
It's been ages since you last did that to me.
It seemed like you're blaming me for everything that goes wrong.
Please don't tell me indirectly or behind my back that I'm not doing my job.
Sometimes I feel like shouting so hard at you,
but it feels so heartbreaking.
Things are turning out worse every single day.
I wished the times that we would talk,
and now we would have this silent war between us.
I knew it,
I shouldn't have done it.
You replied my text today,
but I felt a tinge of anger from you while doing so.
Great,
I lost something today.
Anyway, that thing is still in front of me.
Wrapped.
I feel like clawing it apart and tearing the card apart.
But this just kills me.
Before the happy times, we were like strangers in the street.
After the happy times, we were close friends.
After the storm, looks like the bridge between us had collapsed.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Whoever said that beauty on the inside is a liar.
Exams are coming this week! Sigh, sorry for not blogging for so long! D:. Anyway, there are like many things to post for me, but I still get this sense of insecurity!
Things may turn out to be a bumpy ride,
But I just want to be a treble and you can be my bass (:
Brought loads of stickies to school nowadays. And gosh, I'm getting a little to complacent. My bio and A Maths results are terrible! Gotta buck up (:.
Now the Sec 4 seniors are gone. Will really miss them loads. D:.
Remember when I cried to you a thousand times,
I told you everything,
You know my feelings,
It never crossed my mind.
I still remember in Sec 1, almost all the Sec 2s then will bully me and spread rumors about me. And even pinch me! And I used to call Caitlin ' Katlyn ' AND SHE SPREADED THAT RUMOR! HOHO!. All the good times, with the Sop 1s mini Sectionals! :D.
And then there is Luo Ting! Who always never failed to make me smile everytime I see her (:. And we used to talk a lot of stuff, including that mini secret *smirks*.
And Wei Ning, who I used to tell her loads of secrets and we always talked about songs. She will usually whack me in choir and we used to talk about *ahem*. We also shared some songs, and supported one another all the way :D.
And there is Diana! My 'Girlfriend' XD. We usually talk about loads of stuff, and I even helped her in the conducting of warmups! :D. Anyway, we also had loads of fun together, and we kept talking like crazy~.
These feelings I can't shake no more,
These feelings are running out the door.
Now that things have changed,
And that I have to take this position.
It's really hard.
And one day I might just breakdown.
Exams are coming this week! Sigh, sorry for not blogging for so long! D:. Anyway, there are like many things to post for me, but I still get this sense of insecurity!
Things may turn out to be a bumpy ride,
But I just want to be a treble and you can be my bass (:
Brought loads of stickies to school nowadays. And gosh, I'm getting a little to complacent. My bio and A Maths results are terrible! Gotta buck up (:.
Now the Sec 4 seniors are gone. Will really miss them loads. D:.
Remember when I cried to you a thousand times,
I told you everything,
You know my feelings,
It never crossed my mind.
I still remember in Sec 1, almost all the Sec 2s then will bully me and spread rumors about me. And even pinch me! And I used to call Caitlin ' Katlyn ' AND SHE SPREADED THAT RUMOR! HOHO!. All the good times, with the Sop 1s mini Sectionals! :D.
And then there is Luo Ting! Who always never failed to make me smile everytime I see her (:. And we used to talk a lot of stuff, including that mini secret *smirks*.
And Wei Ning, who I used to tell her loads of secrets and we always talked about songs. She will usually whack me in choir and we used to talk about *ahem*. We also shared some songs, and supported one another all the way :D.
And there is Diana! My 'Girlfriend' XD. We usually talk about loads of stuff, and I even helped her in the conducting of warmups! :D. Anyway, we also had loads of fun together, and we kept talking like crazy~.
These feelings I can't shake no more,
These feelings are running out the door.
Now that things have changed,
And that I have to take this position.
It's really hard.
And one day I might just breakdown.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
This is so hard.
Cause I didn't see,
That you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in, strangers on the street.
I still say your name when I'm talking in sleep.
And in the long light, I play it all fine.
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.
Why must this happen?
I can't take it anymore.
Although that leadership position seems nice, I can't perform the tasks that are required.
And most importantly, there are many more people who deserve that position.
now I've caused an indirect conflict in choir.
And what happens now?
I feel isolated from my 2 closest friend in CCA also.
Sigh, maybe it was my fault.
I lied. I know you guessed so too.
I remember all the memories that we had,
but guess this is the end eh?
I want to fix this,
just that I don't have the courage to do so.
Honestly, I was expecting a bitter ending like this.
Last year, it was all a dream come true.
This year, it's the end of it.
It's just too much friendship problems that I can't settle with a tiny brain like mine.
I just wanna resign from my post,
I'm not ready for it.
I know what am I supposed to do already.
But I just can't perform it.
I'm being stranded.
And cornered at the same time.
I just wanna sleep and stay that way forever.
La lullaby, Distract me with your eyes.
La lullaby, Help me sleep tonight.
Let it just stay the way the dream was meant to be.
Cause I didn't see,
That you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in, strangers on the street.
I still say your name when I'm talking in sleep.
And in the long light, I play it all fine.
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.
Why must this happen?
I can't take it anymore.
Although that leadership position seems nice, I can't perform the tasks that are required.
And most importantly, there are many more people who deserve that position.
now I've caused an indirect conflict in choir.
And what happens now?
I feel isolated from my 2 closest friend in CCA also.
Sigh, maybe it was my fault.
I lied. I know you guessed so too.
I remember all the memories that we had,
but guess this is the end eh?
I want to fix this,
just that I don't have the courage to do so.
Honestly, I was expecting a bitter ending like this.
Last year, it was all a dream come true.
This year, it's the end of it.
It's just too much friendship problems that I can't settle with a tiny brain like mine.
I just wanna resign from my post,
I'm not ready for it.
I know what am I supposed to do already.
But I just can't perform it.
I'm being stranded.
And cornered at the same time.
I just wanna sleep and stay that way forever.
La lullaby, Distract me with your eyes.
La lullaby, Help me sleep tonight.
Let it just stay the way the dream was meant to be.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
I'm Changing Sides.
There will be some dramatic modifications to the school from this week onwards. And in a blink of an eye, it will be my turn. I still remember the first few weeks of school, where Luo Ting still remembers me and says hi to me with that HUGE SMILE! And Caitlin with the others would spread rumors about me and Clarissa.
Sigh, things will be gone soon. There would be nothing but memories left. Stepping up and Stepping Down. Speaking of which, I'm really in a dilemma whether should opt for student conductor, and give up my tie or vice versa. Miss Tan told us that we can opt to be in that position, but she will make the final call, and i can choose to be 'not interested'.
It's some tough decisions to make. And who knows, its gonna be that day soon. I have it right in front of me, but I have hesitations in giving it. And tomorrow will be the last sectionals! Should I take this position one last time, or give it to Caitlin for the final time? Sigh. I have to make these decisions soon. And I know I can't drag it any longer.
Anyway, E Maths paper was a disaster for me. Sigh, shouldn't have done those things at all. Just gonna hope for an A1.
Oh yeah,
BEST OF LUCK TO ZWINDS FOR SYF TOMORROW :D!
You'll change inside when you realize,
That your world comes to life,
And everything's bright.
Well things didn't change for the brighter despite me realizing them.
There will be some dramatic modifications to the school from this week onwards. And in a blink of an eye, it will be my turn. I still remember the first few weeks of school, where Luo Ting still remembers me and says hi to me with that HUGE SMILE! And Caitlin with the others would spread rumors about me and Clarissa.
Sigh, things will be gone soon. There would be nothing but memories left. Stepping up and Stepping Down. Speaking of which, I'm really in a dilemma whether should opt for student conductor, and give up my tie or vice versa. Miss Tan told us that we can opt to be in that position, but she will make the final call, and i can choose to be 'not interested'.
It's some tough decisions to make. And who knows, its gonna be that day soon. I have it right in front of me, but I have hesitations in giving it. And tomorrow will be the last sectionals! Should I take this position one last time, or give it to Caitlin for the final time? Sigh. I have to make these decisions soon. And I know I can't drag it any longer.
Anyway, E Maths paper was a disaster for me. Sigh, shouldn't have done those things at all. Just gonna hope for an A1.
Oh yeah,
BEST OF LUCK TO ZWINDS FOR SYF TOMORROW :D!
You'll change inside when you realize,
That your world comes to life,
And everything's bright.
Well things didn't change for the brighter despite me realizing them.
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