I'm trem-ba-ling.

Trembeling.

Trembling.

First and foremost, my apologies for not posting much for the past few weeks. My schedule has been really hectic, including playing LoL with Randy and some others. Can't believe that I'm still addicted to the computer when my Prelims are exactly a week away from today. Oh, and I think Randy has recovered from his addiction already. So it's just me,myself and I right now. ):

Anyway, I think I managed to cover my 3 Sciences quite well this holiday as I basically know all the concepts. Left with the phrasing part though ): . And for my weakest subjects, I haven't started on memorising them yet ):. Gotta start with SS first, since it's coming out first on Tuesday!

Moving on, I think I've gained weight over the holidays because I've been stuffing myself with food whenever I study.. Well, and that's not a good thing especially when Singapore is having her summer season right now ):. I can sweat while studying despite having direct contact with the fan T.T.

The first two weeks of the June holidays weren't exactly enjoyable. I think I'm really going to do extremely badly for my Biology SPA. I don't know what went wrong, but I think my values were all different compared to my peers. And for Chemistry as well, I kept sweating!! Sigh, still have mountains of homework to do. Later on today will be my SS day, hope that I will be able to memories the themes I want by then..

But still, there was a Class BBQ held on the day after the dreaded Booster Session! One word to describe it? Awesome. I have to give my thanks to Keandra and Sarah for organizing such a memorable event for all of us! That included two games of Running Man with lots of road blocks. And the one I kinda remember the most was the Pocky challenge, because two people from a group needed to eat one stick of Pocky together. And by the end of the challenge, their lips must touch, and indirectly kiss. Well, it was fun, but kinda meaningful in the wrong way ><.

And then we had the Second Running Man, which was something like Catching, but our class turned it more into like a mini-Hunger Games Tournament ):. Oh, and Mr Goh participated too! He's so cute. Went to hide near a house with Ya Hsin. Zi Hui soon spotted us and hid in the bushes. And well, Ya Hsin and I were caught, but I've already warned Zi Hui beforehand not to utter a single sound when we were taken by STUPID MATTHEW'S GROUP. Keep gang-ing up on people ):. Well, I managed to run by slamming everyone out of my way. And guess what? When I managed to escape, I met Mr Goh. T.T. Had to escape from another giant. Well, it was kinda futile because he had already hold on to my shirt and was not willing to let me go. Thankfully, 3 girls from another group saved me by trying to catch Mr Goh, allowing me to run.

Then, I met Jason T.T. Another mountain giant. This time, I had no energy left to run. As I kept my tag at my water bottle, they couldn't find so. So, Daniel did a body search on me T.T. Like literally, body check. But thankfully, as I pretended that I gave up etc, Jason released his grip on me for a split second, allowing me to run. :D.

Oh, and after the game, Mr Goh treated us with BROWNIES!! (:. Love them to the max. I even took some home for my family ^^. 

Anyway, I gotta go now. Needa sleep because the clock's ticking and it's already 1am. I hope that I can blog soon, preferably before the holidays conclude. Bye (:

I was falling hard with an open heart.

Why am I still holding on to the memories that I should've let go?
I'm sorry.

Maybe I should have objected to what you were saying that day.
And now, I can't seem to do anything to make up to you.

Someday you'll see the reason why.

It's just a day away from the album's official release. I'm planning to head down to HMV / Popular to get myself a copy of the Queen of Country's latest album. Replayed her exclusive stream at iTunes countless times and I still get the chills whenever I hear a few of her songs. I'm delighted to know that she's returning back to her country roots - the very voice that made her famous and crowned her the only solo female country artist with a #1 hit on the Billboard Hot 100. I absolutely LOVE the ballads in her album. And so, to celebrate the official release date, I've recently changed the blog song to one of my personal favorites in the album. It's lyrics are meaningful and can be related to me in many ways.

To be honest, I teared when I heard it for the first time. Even though I've already passed the 15th year of my life, I haven't learnt to let go of the things that are precious to me, even when they're already gone. Maybe Carrie's right, someday I'll see the reason why. But right now, I'm still stuck wondering why I'm flying on a ship that's sinking down. Yup, that quote came from 'Wheel of the World' - one of my favorite songs on 'Carnival Ride'. I guess that some things will be forever changed eh?

Another weekend had come and gone just like the others, without me doing anything meaningful to it except for having lots of sleep to pay off my sleep debt. For the past week, I was disappointed in myself. Disappointed in the ways that I handle things, handle my own time, and most importantly, my results. It was extremely demoralizing. I mean, even though it's an A1, but I'm still not satisfied. I'm below average in my class and that's unacceptable ):. I've tried to work hard for it and paid my utmost attention to my subject teachers.. But still, since it's an A1, I'll still have a valid reason to purchase 'Blown Away' on Tuesday (:.

I hope that this week will be a productive one for me, since there's Labor Day Holiday on Tuesday and Vesak Day Holiday next Monday. I plan to focus on my 3 Sciences and Languages, since my standard has been dropping tremendously..

Moving on, I'll be making a few changes to my blog this week. I'm planning to start on my Reader's list first. I've realized over time that I don't want certain people from reading my blog ( not because I despise them, but because this blog contains a lot of personal stuff. ). And I may remove the tag board because it hardly get tags anymore, so it might be a waste of space in my blog. And lastly, I might find another blog skin again (:. It's been ages since I've last done that.

To end this post, I would like to post a picture of my idol here once more <3. She'll always be remembered by the Carebears!

Alright, I've gotta go now. Bye (:.

It was bittersweet.
But I can't move on.
Maybe it's best not to get what I deserve.

And I'm going to try to hold it all in.
Try to hold back my tears,
so it don't make you stay here.
I'mma try to be a big girl now,
cause I don't want to be the reason you don't leave.

-Rihanna.

Why do you have to be so blind.

HCL Timed Practice tomorrow! I hope that I'm prepared for it.. I'm still struggling with my 事件/背景. Sigh. I hope that things will get better in time.

Wanted to study in school today, but I've decided to go home and rest instead. Managed to play a few games with Randy and completed my entire revision on 实用文. Well, I didn't really study much for my compositions as I believe that the points in the former will be quite similar to the latter.. 

Moving on, today was ordinary, nothing much of an extraordinary. Same old problems and thoughts surging into my brain. Maybe the people in E6 aren't really worth my attention anymore. Just feeling this way because of some incidents that I had caused and I feel that they're a little petty, if you all get what I mean. But it seems that you all clearly don't.

Hmm. I ain't exactly pointing my finger to everyone in E6, but only a few, especially those who are sitting near me. I'm starting to agree with the fact that the friendships that we'd made in our lower secondary life will be the ones that'll last forever. Come on, look at my lower secondary classes. My classmates hardly bear grudges towards one another, but the conflicts are solved in the end. Looks like I can only trust those who came to this class with me )"

I'm sick and tired of your poker face. I should've known that you have a dark side. I can't believe that even the first friend that I've made in E6 is treating me like this. Well, FML eh?

Anyway, I'm a bit confused with Biology lessons nowadays. Can't seem to understand the Menstrual Cycle ):. And the DNA stuff that we're learning now is seriously giving me the chills.. Ahh. Got to start working hard on my other subjects! Can feel that my standard in all the sciences that I'm taking now is dropping.

All the best to those who are having their examinations tomorrow, especially my cohort mates and Sec 2 juniors! (:

Two steps ahead and staying on guard.

Every lesson forms a new scar.

The moment of impact. The moment of impact proves potential for change. Has ripples effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashing together. Making them closer than before. While sending others spinning off into great ventures. Landing them where you've never thought you've found them. That's the thing about moments like these. You can't, no matter how hard you try, controlling how it's gonna affect you. You just gotta let the colliding part goes where they may. And wait. For the next collision.

- The Vow


How I wished that time can rewind and that I could redo all the things that I did.
Sigh, I guess it's all over now.
We're not even making any eye contact now.

As I wrote my testimonial just now, it dawned to me that these 3 years had passed me by so quickly. And the last one seems to be flying past us.