Soaring, or falling?

What if everything was just 'what if's? Do we really notice every single detail about the environment that we're living in?

It's hard to take that leap of faith when you know that you may fall, even if it isn't absolute. What happened to risk taking and about everything that has developed you into becoming a better leader?

Over the last four days, the >10 mosquito bites was worth the better me. Strong friendships were fostered, and to be honest, I'll miss every single one of them. Chang has to be one of the best camp groups that I've ever been in in my entire life. All the obstacles and challenges that we faced together with resilience, and all the shit that we've been through. It was tough, but worth it in the end. It was as they were my family throughout the entire duration of the camp. We cared, we shared and we experienced.

My only wish from this camp is that I would be able to keep in the contact with every single one of my chang mates. That is all that matters, at least for now.

Thoughts.

Because someday you'll wake up and discover that all of the mistakes you made were worth it, at least during that moment in time.
Acted a little rash today. I really hope that this does not affect our professional relationship.

Reflection.

I failed once, but I will not fail again. I was granted a new year, a brand new chapter in my life. I'm not going to let this opportunity slip by again. We all had rough starts, but I know that you'll be able to climb back up. These new responsibilities aren't going to break you. They're going to make you stronger. Do your duties as a president well. The first task's already round the corner, but I know that you'll be able to do it well. Don't you ever let your surroundings take control over you. MC, let your heart control your mind no matter what happens during the next one and a half years. Life's good now, so don't do anything stupid that may ruin your life. 

Don't you ever become the monster you once were again.

Seeing is deceiving.

Urgh. It sucks when you're sick and your dearest school principal decides to treat everyone a magnum to commemorate youth day. It sucks even more when you know that you need to have a make-up session for a practical session due to this illness.

Looking at the bright side, I managed to repay my sleep debt ^^. But now, I need to complete the last few questions from my Chemistry tutorial. ):

Lifeline.

Finally found what I'm chasing after.

Motivation. That's what I really need right now. Been real down, but I know I can make it in the end. Just another barrier in my life that I need to overcome. Unbroken, but I'll become stronger. At least strong enough to bounce back up.

Focus and commitment. Those are the things that I'll need soon enough.

Feel Alive.

Sigh. The long weekend's over. Even though it passed quickly, it was well spent. Managed to catch a movie with ikhmah and rebecca on Saturday and am glad to know that they're having fun in their JCs..
Sigh. I really hope that there'll be more long weekends ahead. I'm not ready for school, at least for now. I don't think I'll be ready to embrace my results, no matter how terrifying they may be. I'm not prepared for the stress that is coming up from my different subjects. Why do all good things come to an end? I wish that time can freeze in this moment and let me relive the times when i was actually free and happy.

Results are going to be released tomorrow. All the best to all of us! I'll definitely need all the luck that I can possibly have.. :X

Metamorphosis.

JC life has been hectic, yet fun, for me. It has been an incredible journey in NYJC. Here's to the new friends that I've made, the experiences that we shared together as one and the knowledge that our teachers have passed on to us. It's been great, allowing myself to set free from my troubled social past and move on to the wonderful environment that I've been blessed with.

Maybe it's me just being more content with whatever that I have right now. Maybe it's the lessons learnt in the past that have made me reflect on my actions every single day. But no matter what, I'm glad to have met everyone in my life right now, starting with my fellow OGMs, classmates, CCA-mates and teachers. Life's been tough, with all the tests and exams. But it's encouraging to press on whenever I see my teachers taking the extra mile just to help us in anyway they possibly can. It's motivating to see peers supporting one another in whatever that they're doing. I kinda like the environment here now, free from all the dramas that used to haunt me.

Pour It Up.

Baby don't forget my name,
when the morning breaks us.

Taiwan has been magnificent! I'm still there though, relishing the various snacks and delicacies that this lovely country offers. Ah. The chicken. That has to be my favorite snack here. The succulent fried chicken!

I might type out a proper post to describe my trip to Taiwan, but I'm just going to do a casual post now.. Life's been good recently. I might be a little mad, but I can't wait for orientation! (:. I can't wait to see all my friends from ZH, and make new ones as well. I hope that I'll be able to embrace the new chapter of my life appropriately..

Anyway, I'm planning to be a little bit more active this year ^^. Maybe it's time to kick that lazy ass of mine and start doing something physically instead of giving "moral support" to others which usually mean nothing at all. Oh yeah, I'm planning to lose weight as well. Perhaps I should follow Rowena's suggestion and re-ignite the passion inside me in swimming. That should be on top of my New Year Resolutions list. I should start immediately once I get back.. Maybe once a week, with a standard 10-10-10? Hmm. And I'm seriously considering to boycott choir as my CCA in JC. Maybe 8 years of experience is sufficient for me. I'm still considering my other options, but I'm also deciding whether I should join a music school to have singing lessons. They're a little expensive though.. And I'm afraid that they'll clash with my school schedule ><.

There are lots of things to prepare, especially when I've not attended lessons for about 3.5 months now. Gotta get a new calculator which costs a ton T.T. Putting that aside, I'm glad that I've already found a study partner for the next two years! Got to start brushing up on my GP! I don't even know what themes I should specialise in ><. Ah. Gotta start paying more attention to the things that occur around me. I like globalisation. So I might take that..

Did I mention that I can't wait for orientation? I heard that NYJC's Student Council has already planned it all out, and that it'll be fun (:.

Sigh. Gotta start training my body clock, even though I only need to wake up at 0730 once school starts.. I'm a little too used in sleeping 12 hours a day.. :X

Like a drum baby don't stop beating.