~All I wish is that you would be at my side.. Yet you stood at my opposition..~
I'm now thinking about my faded memories.. The time of my happiness, times of betrayal, times of sorrow. And time where i had lost my love. I just wanted to have her back, so badly that i would die without her in my life. But now, i know its already impossible. Not only that, i am now trying to apologize to that person, but then he is avoiding me. I cant do anything much about it now. I just wanna make it go away... but time is not of the essense right now. Right now, im thinking of what would happen to me in this lonely world of mine.
It was nice that we had it all. But thanks for watching as i fall. Just remember that i am dead already. My presence would not be with you, just like how you wanted it to be.. Im just gonna be another person stuck in a corner of the world, living my life. I would walk past a silent night street, and just pray that you would be safe. Enjoy your life now, for i had already sacrificed it for you. If your reading this blog, dont fret over this incident.
And after knowing my mistake of letting you go, i regreted over it. But now i have grown- to stop making those mistakes anymore. I would be like a brave person, instead of letting things past by me, or forgiving things that hurts me the most, i would now retaliate. I am now not the boy that you have known at 1 and a half years ago. Things would change. Its time for me to keep my dignity, and preventing anyone else who tries to tarnish it.
If you want to talk to me, i would find that there is no point talking any further anymore. On that day, December 14, marks the day that someone had already broken my heart. You were greedy, you wanted for more. But because of that you left me in pain, in sorrow, and in remorse. I did not know you did not treasured me-as your friend or as a couple.
Never again, would i kiss you,
Never again, would i love you,
And never again, I would fall for you.
Like i did the last time, enjoy your life now.... I wish you happiness, but I'm not gonna cry for you to come back to me....
