Probably mindless dreaming.
Don't all of us have a person in our lives that we wished we could cherish more? Not a relative, or a kin, but just a friend. Yeah. I do. My thought on the matter still remained the same. If I could go back in time and change it, then we, or at least I, wouldn't end up in this plight now. I thought that I would have at least forgotten about you now, but it's the otherwise now. I was scrolling through Facebook the other day and I stumbled upon your profile. Wow. It's been three years and things have changed. I know that this incident has already come to a closure, but I wished we didn't need to come to this end. I know that I've caused everything to ruin and don't really deserve this second chance but.. I'm hoping that I do. Maybe someday we'll meet up again somewhere and somehow, but I hope that I'll be ready to face you again by then. Maybe we'll just be like the past, before everything happened and I let don't know what control me. But maybe, things would have changed by then. I've come to a this point in my life when I realised that I've made so many fake friends, that I've began to break away from my real friends. You warned me about this before, and yet I chose not to.
Well, I guess everything has been said and done anyway. There's nothing I can possibly do to revert things to the way they were. Maybe this has been a lesson learnt, and a harsh one indeed. I'll be missing out on the genuine conversations that I could have if I knew then. Because nowadays, there's just no one left to trust. Or more like, after everything that has happened, I couldn't bear to trust anyone anymore. Perhaps one day, I'll learn to open up and break free. Someday that day will come, even though it seems like a thousand lightyears away. But i know that I'll be out of the woods somehow. Man. I really miss those days. I really do. The feeling of waking up and ending the day happily, no matter what has happened on that day itself. Maybe it's hard to compare when I've already had a taste of perfection. I guess second best will never be enough. It may be close, but it'll never be the same.
Man. I wish you'll read this post, even when I know you won't. Maybe you would someday but I guess it's virtually impossible eh? Probably less than one in a million. But if you take that chance that slips by once in a million times, you'll know who you are.
But if the chain's at your door,
I'd understand.
