Sigh. I privated my blog because of one reason. You. Glad that we straightened things out. I guess I really know what's your perspective on me. Freaking Gay, Stalker and etc. Yeah, I cried just now. In the afternoon. While studying. I admitted to you that I was that. A jerk, retard, gay, stalker. I now know why you are giving me the cold shoulder. But the feeling is still within me.
As for you who told her, don't ask me to forgive you. Guess I was wrong- to give second chances, for my heart to melt and to let you off. But I was knocked hard at the back. That seriously hurts.
Both of you, I had the thought of the difference if I'm dead or alive. No one cares anymore. I'm back as lonely. Well, although there were pages turned, some bridges burned, but there were lessons learned. I just realized that I can only trust one person: And that is myself. No more secrets. Its time to forget the past and look at the present. I cant confide to you all anymore. I'm sorry Angel, Mortal and all my other friends that I trusted in. I just can't do it anymore.
Sorry.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Hey guys :D.
I'm back and I shall say I'm done studying with GEOG And some of physics along with CHINESE FORMAL LETTER :D. WOOTS!
Now doing Art, and I still do EL compo. WHY TERM 4 SO STRESSEED D:.
Gonna make this post short, not supposed to post anyways :D.
If I can't have you, then I don't want anyone.
I'm back and I shall say I'm done studying with GEOG And some of physics along with CHINESE FORMAL LETTER :D. WOOTS!
Now doing Art, and I still do EL compo. WHY TERM 4 SO STRESSEED D:.
Gonna make this post short, not supposed to post anyways :D.
If I can't have you, then I don't want anyone.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Hey Guys :D. Here is the playlist updates :D. Anyways, I might not change my playlist so often because of school stuff already. So do enjoy yourself =].
Legend : * means a MUST LISTEN.
1) That's Where It Is - Carrie Underwood*
2) E.T - Katy Perry*
3) Permanent December - Miley Cyrus
4) Knock You Down - Keri Hilson feat. Kanye West and Neyo*
5) If I Can't Have You - Kelly Clarkson
6) Commander - Kelly Rowland feat David Guetta
7) Acting Out - Ashley Tisdale
8) Hard - Rihanna feat. Jeezy
9) Take it Off - Kesha*
10) Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce*
:D.
Legend : * means a MUST LISTEN.
1) That's Where It Is - Carrie Underwood*
2) E.T - Katy Perry*
3) Permanent December - Miley Cyrus
4) Knock You Down - Keri Hilson feat. Kanye West and Neyo*
5) If I Can't Have You - Kelly Clarkson
6) Commander - Kelly Rowland feat David Guetta
7) Acting Out - Ashley Tisdale
8) Hard - Rihanna feat. Jeezy
9) Take it Off - Kesha*
10) Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce*
:D.
Sigh, September Holidays seemed fast. LIKE REALLY FAST. It seemed that yesterday was still Monday! Argh. I'm not really upset over that. I only studied physics and Geog and a bit of Chinese D:. My MATHS. MY POOR POOR MATHS! When am I gonna sit somewhere and start doing it like there's no tomorrow. Gah, I really need assessment books for Maths as the TB seems pretty easy :D.
Well, I've been playing comp LOADS LOADS LOADS and that I didnt have enough time to sleep. Its so hard to set my biological clock back to the start. But the good thing about this holiday :
- Met New Friends :D
- Sms-ed and Talked More :D.
- DESTRESS BY LOADS.
Once today finishes, I dont think I can use the computer that much already! Maybe 1h a day? Well, I should be content compared to some other people who maybe cant touch the comp forever. BUT IM WORRIED ABOUT THE STRESS LOAD D:. It seems like its gonna multiply by 2 per second D:. I have to really buck up. I remember Miss Lin told me, 2 weeks still can make it de :D. So i shall start from TMR. I shall resist all the temptations, including you my dear blog D:.
Toodles.
Well, I've been playing comp LOADS LOADS LOADS and that I didnt have enough time to sleep. Its so hard to set my biological clock back to the start. But the good thing about this holiday :
- Met New Friends :D
- Sms-ed and Talked More :D.
- DESTRESS BY LOADS.
Once today finishes, I dont think I can use the computer that much already! Maybe 1h a day? Well, I should be content compared to some other people who maybe cant touch the comp forever. BUT IM WORRIED ABOUT THE STRESS LOAD D:. It seems like its gonna multiply by 2 per second D:. I have to really buck up. I remember Miss Lin told me, 2 weeks still can make it de :D. So i shall start from TMR. I shall resist all the temptations, including you my dear blog D:.
Toodles.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Its September Holidays.
- If stars don't align, If it doesn't stop time. If you can't see the sign, Wait For It. -
I just like that song :D. Although my blog's playlist had a screwed up version at the end. Oh well :D. Listen to the official one though.
Sigh, I don't really know what to blog about. Nothing seems to matter, or weigh anything since you're gone =]. Oh well, I was totally having a different mood for choir. Looks like my singing style depends on my mood. Sighh. But yeah, tomorrow's canceled off. Oh well.
I've been playing real loads these few days. I should really control myself. People are going to school to study tomorrow. But I'm not sure whether I should or not. Cuz they might be a distraction being the hyperactive type. Or would I stay at home and complete all my assigned homework? Sigh, in a dilemma now. Nah, I think my mind's decided long ago. And I really like my msn font =]. Small but nice :D.
Made real good friends. But I'm afraid that things might turn out to be like me and him. From talking everyday like non-stop until becoming silent the whole time. I didn't even say hi to him anymore. Maybe Its time to let go. Oh well, I have to put my love and friendship problems to one side, as Streaming Exams are coming and I MUST. devote the time I have in this holiday to buck up and to take a good break. My parents said my Science need a little help. So I should focus on that.
Things to study by tomorrow :
- Light
- Act 1 Scene 7
- Electricity
- Agriculture
- Population
That seems decent =]. At least to me. But I'm nearly done with Agriculture, and my notes for population are done :D. So I think tomorrow is just purely physics then :D.
I.Just.Realised.That.Many.Duets.Are.Nice :D. Shall post them in the playlist soon..
* I'm wishing that things would go back to square one between me and you when school re-opens, but I know it would be like wishing on a wishing star, without making it come true. *
- If stars don't align, If it doesn't stop time. If you can't see the sign, Wait For It. -
I just like that song :D. Although my blog's playlist had a screwed up version at the end. Oh well :D. Listen to the official one though.
Sigh, I don't really know what to blog about. Nothing seems to matter, or weigh anything since you're gone =]. Oh well, I was totally having a different mood for choir. Looks like my singing style depends on my mood. Sighh. But yeah, tomorrow's canceled off. Oh well.
I've been playing real loads these few days. I should really control myself. People are going to school to study tomorrow. But I'm not sure whether I should or not. Cuz they might be a distraction being the hyperactive type. Or would I stay at home and complete all my assigned homework? Sigh, in a dilemma now. Nah, I think my mind's decided long ago. And I really like my msn font =]. Small but nice :D.
Made real good friends. But I'm afraid that things might turn out to be like me and him. From talking everyday like non-stop until becoming silent the whole time. I didn't even say hi to him anymore. Maybe Its time to let go. Oh well, I have to put my love and friendship problems to one side, as Streaming Exams are coming and I MUST. devote the time I have in this holiday to buck up and to take a good break. My parents said my Science need a little help. So I should focus on that.
Things to study by tomorrow :
- Light
- Act 1 Scene 7
- Electricity
- Agriculture
- Population
That seems decent =]. At least to me. But I'm nearly done with Agriculture, and my notes for population are done :D. So I think tomorrow is just purely physics then :D.
I.Just.Realised.That.Many.Duets.Are.Nice :D. Shall post them in the playlist soon..
* I'm wishing that things would go back to square one between me and you when school re-opens, but I know it would be like wishing on a wishing star, without making it come true. *
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Mortal was right, I care too much. Sigh, I shouldn't like have too much concern on people's doing now. Listening to the First song, one of the songs of Carrie Underwood that made me REALLY cry.
- You said you'll come, But I know you.
You said you're coming home, But I know you.
You said you'll call, But I know you won't.
You said you're coming home, But I know you won't. -
The fact that she totally bombarded the song with her amazing vocals, and especially after that live performance at the 35th People's Choice Awards, being the favorite star under 35. That was really brilliant. The people voted for the right person. she could just stand up and hit those notes like nobody's business and DELIVER the emotions inside the song. And to make them last forever. Standing Ovation, I would really give it to her :D.
Anyways, I know that you wouldn't want me to ____ you. So I guess, I have to withdraw. It didn't fit, It just wasn't right. Too bad I didn't feel the Fairy Tale Feeling. I don't know what to do exactly. You're the one, yet come undone. My world would just start spinning. Sighhh. But if you really said yes, I think that it isn't the right time, maybe after the outing, we both need to focus for our exams 100%.
When school reopens, or the next time you see me. You'll see a different me.
- You said you'll come, But I know you.
You said you're coming home, But I know you.
You said you'll call, But I know you won't.
You said you're coming home, But I know you won't. -
The fact that she totally bombarded the song with her amazing vocals, and especially after that live performance at the 35th People's Choice Awards, being the favorite star under 35. That was really brilliant. The people voted for the right person. she could just stand up and hit those notes like nobody's business and DELIVER the emotions inside the song. And to make them last forever. Standing Ovation, I would really give it to her :D.
Anyways, I know that you wouldn't want me to ____ you. So I guess, I have to withdraw. It didn't fit, It just wasn't right. Too bad I didn't feel the Fairy Tale Feeling. I don't know what to do exactly. You're the one, yet come undone. My world would just start spinning. Sighhh. But if you really said yes, I think that it isn't the right time, maybe after the outing, we both need to focus for our exams 100%.
When school reopens, or the next time you see me. You'll see a different me.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Hey, Its been like so long since I last made a playlist. So I decided to make one =].
The songs are in this order :
1) I Know You Won't - Carrie Underwood <33
2) Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry :D
3) Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys :D
4) If No One Will Listen - Kelly Clarkson :DD
5) Stay - Miley Cyrus :D
6) What If - Ashley Tisdale <33
7) Don't Let Me Down - Leona Lewis :D
8) Animal - Ke$ha :D
9) Forever and Always - Taylor Swift
10) When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne :DD
Hope you all like it :D
The songs are in this order :
1) I Know You Won't - Carrie Underwood <33
2) Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry :D
3) Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys :D
4) If No One Will Listen - Kelly Clarkson :DD
5) Stay - Miley Cyrus :D
6) What If - Ashley Tisdale <33
7) Don't Let Me Down - Leona Lewis :D
8) Animal - Ke$ha :D
9) Forever and Always - Taylor Swift
10) When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne :DD
Hope you all like it :D
It's been a week since I last posted. Missed me eh?
Teacher's Day concert was okay bah =]. Since many people said I sang sweetly which I think they were just trying to cheer me up. Oh well. The Teacher's Day concert was appropriate this year :D. Especially 3e5's dance. Really fabulous. Blown away, just blown away :D.
Nothing much to post nowadays. All I know that the school term's over. That's all I know. Was going through a tiring yet fun term. Maybe I'm really depressed. I'm tired. Streaming Exams are like in 4-5 weeks? I have to forget you and focus on them during the holidays. Just hoping that you'll give me a chance. But alright, I love the Way You Lie.
Sorry if I broke my promise to play with you ytd, I fell asleep. Was emotional angry. Angry at myself. For doing such stupid things. For doing things that I shouldn't do.
And Last Night, For the many times I thought, Once again, I felt like dying >.<. Lying on my bed, it was already like 1am. I flashbacked about the things that happened between June and now. Many sad memories. Many bitter Memories. And I had a bit of a seizure last night. I was shaking vigorously for the first time in my life. IDK what had happened. And I sensed something behind me. I only whispered, 'Je t'aime'. I had survived through the night. The tides of temporary Darkness. But I doubt I would again. Something's out there is trying to get me. I think I'm possessed temporarily.
I'm still Sober.
Teacher's Day concert was okay bah =]. Since many people said I sang sweetly which I think they were just trying to cheer me up. Oh well. The Teacher's Day concert was appropriate this year :D. Especially 3e5's dance. Really fabulous. Blown away, just blown away :D.
Nothing much to post nowadays. All I know that the school term's over. That's all I know. Was going through a tiring yet fun term. Maybe I'm really depressed. I'm tired. Streaming Exams are like in 4-5 weeks? I have to forget you and focus on them during the holidays. Just hoping that you'll give me a chance. But alright, I love the Way You Lie.
Sorry if I broke my promise to play with you ytd, I fell asleep. Was emotional angry. Angry at myself. For doing such stupid things. For doing things that I shouldn't do.
And Last Night, For the many times I thought, Once again, I felt like dying >.<. Lying on my bed, it was already like 1am. I flashbacked about the things that happened between June and now. Many sad memories. Many bitter Memories. And I had a bit of a seizure last night. I was shaking vigorously for the first time in my life. IDK what had happened. And I sensed something behind me. I only whispered, 'Je t'aime'. I had survived through the night. The tides of temporary Darkness. But I doubt I would again. Something's out there is trying to get me. I think I'm possessed temporarily.
I'm still Sober.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)