Do you think about me,
as I think about you?
I'm falling for you all over again.
But it's hard,
because it's my fault to begin with.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
16.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
Even though 16 has been absolutely great to me so far, I miss being fifteen. It's possibly the most memorable year of my life. It has been a roller-coaster ride for me, with highs and lows. There were times that were so discouraging and displeasing to the point when I almost gave up everything, including my life. But many fond memories were created in that year too. There were friendships made, strengthened and fostered while there were some which crumbled. To be honest, I have no regrets giving up on most of the decisions I've made this year, except for one.
Fifteen was meaningful. It was the year when I could really start understanding others and pay special attention to the little things in life. I've been too focused on the 'big' stuffs in the past to the extent of forgetting and even neglecting all the little wonders that I have around me. Here's to all the friends who have been supportive of me throughout my 15th year. I wouldn't have made it without you all ( Adeline, Clare, Gracia, Xin Yi, Chang Jie, Mun Pin etc. ). You guys never fail to cheer me up whenever I felt down, no matter its degree. And it's been really a pleasure meeting you.
But sadly to say, I've realised that I haven't made many real friends in Sec 3 onwards. My friendship with Clarissa was severed earlier this year, but I am really glad to know Jue Ying, Keandra and Sarah. They are AWESOME people! Thinking about it, most of my real friends actually bothered to take some time off to attend my birthday dinner on the 12th itself, apart from Ying Shun ):. But let's just cast aside all the negative emotions now k? It was an awesome night! I found myself lost at Dhoby Ghaut station initially because I couldn't find Exit A as I was the purple-line boy xD. The others seem quite irritated with me as I faced many difficulties finding the Glasshouse. But nevertheless, thanks to Sarah and Sean, we managed to get there eventually. And guess what? Sean asked me what is the restaurant's signature dish. And I was like ._. It's Fish&Co! Fish is a MUST BUY there!
Ordered Salmon because I love cooked salmon. Had an incredible evening with all those who attended the dinner. Cracked many jokes and got to know them at a much deeper level. It was really nice of them to buy me a birthday cake and celebrate my birthday the Fish&Co style! It's great to have friends like them!
Wanted to head to LAN afterwards but they were all full, unfortunately, But nevertheless, I went home with Clare :D. Talked about a certain person on the bus ride home. She did have a point, but I just find him a bit too much. Sigh, I hate lies. But most importantly, I hate broken promises. Played LoL with the guys afterwards and went to sleep :3.
Joyce. Rowena and Yi Jie also celebrated my birthday by taking me out on a Saturday. I love my daughters so much <3 .="." a="a" about="about" amp="amp" and="and" at="at" awesome="awesome" because="because" beef="beef" bought="bought" but="but" buy="buy" clothes="clothes" fashion="fashion" for="for" garden.="garden." good="good" h="h" had="had" hotplate="hotplate" i="i" improve="improve" is="is" it.="it." it="it" like="like" lunch="lunch" me="me" my="my" p="p" sense="sense" seoul="seoul" some="some" spent="spent" that="that" they="they" to="to" uniqlo="uniqlo" ve="ve" wanted="wanted" was="was" we="we" went="went" whatever="whatever" worth="worth" xd.="xd.">
Anyway, holidays have been pretty busy for me so far. Spent the last two weeks catching up with my friends. Visited the choir on Monday and was quite shocked at their progress especially when their concert was just around the corner. Treated Hui Fang and Valerene to Gong Cha and had lunch at Pizza Hut with Xin Jie, Hui Fang, Valerene and Sean. It was extremely heartwarming for me, as I raised them up in choir since day 1. I still can vividly recall the very first day they stepped into the Music Room with innocent faces. And now, they are leaders. I hope that they'll be able to continue leading the choir well next year for their SYF (:. All the best! Told Hui Fang my dirty little secret about why I refuse to wear my choir tee xD. Oh yeah! We nearly forgot to pay for our meal!
Went out with Rebecca and Ikhmah to watch Pitch Perfect and Perks of a Wallflower (my first NC16 movie). Pitch Perfect has got to be one of the best musical-comedy films I've ever watched in my life. I like how the female lead sings 'Titanium' with her alto range! Headed to Pastamania for dinner and had Huifang and Jenny serving us! Thanks for the 30% staff discount guys! I thoroughly enjoyed my penne with meatballs.
Rushed back to the cinema to catch the last screening of Perks. There's only one word to describe the movie. Memorable. Not only is it my first NC16 movie, but it's the first movie that made me tear up at least twice, and feel a sense of warmth and happiness in my heart at the same time. To be honest, I wish that I had a friend like Sam. I definitely will want to watch the entire movie again! Went to Baskin Robbins afterwards to catch a late night ice-cream supper before sending Ikhmah off and heading home..
Packed my luggage and my room over the next few days to prepare for my trip to HK. Asked the LoL clique out to attend the Garena Carnival on Saturday. But before that, we headed to Expo to watch IEM live! It's a pity seeing how KLH got thrashed by a European team! But it was a refreshing experience as there is an entirely different set of emotions and atmosphere watching matches LIVE as compared to watching streaming videos or playbacks. Ah. I wish that I could play Zilean that well.. The players have good reflex, unlike me ):.
Went to Bugis afterwards for a quick lunch at Yoshinoya before attending the Carnival! Really admired the sheer hard work that the participants put into their costumes for the Cosplay competition! I realised that many people dolled themselves up as Ahri, the fox-like girl. Their props were SO good. And the poses they made showed how carefully they studied every single detail of her in the game. Went upstairs soon after to watch some Blackshot matches and was quite surprised to see how the all-guys team was thrashed by the all-girls team. This proves that girls can play games well too. So Clare, if you read this, it might be a good inspiration to play well! :D
Sigh, I've been doing this post for weeks. Sorry for the late update and the abrupt ending. Will post more about my HK experiences soon in my next few posts. It's about 11pm now and I'm going to disneyland tomorrow with Esther! Alright, see ya!
Nothing ever stays the same.
Forever now,
forever changed.
Even though 16 has been absolutely great to me so far, I miss being fifteen. It's possibly the most memorable year of my life. It has been a roller-coaster ride for me, with highs and lows. There were times that were so discouraging and displeasing to the point when I almost gave up everything, including my life. But many fond memories were created in that year too. There were friendships made, strengthened and fostered while there were some which crumbled. To be honest, I have no regrets giving up on most of the decisions I've made this year, except for one.
Fifteen was meaningful. It was the year when I could really start understanding others and pay special attention to the little things in life. I've been too focused on the 'big' stuffs in the past to the extent of forgetting and even neglecting all the little wonders that I have around me. Here's to all the friends who have been supportive of me throughout my 15th year. I wouldn't have made it without you all ( Adeline, Clare, Gracia, Xin Yi, Chang Jie, Mun Pin etc. ). You guys never fail to cheer me up whenever I felt down, no matter its degree. And it's been really a pleasure meeting you.
But sadly to say, I've realised that I haven't made many real friends in Sec 3 onwards. My friendship with Clarissa was severed earlier this year, but I am really glad to know Jue Ying, Keandra and Sarah. They are AWESOME people! Thinking about it, most of my real friends actually bothered to take some time off to attend my birthday dinner on the 12th itself, apart from Ying Shun ):. But let's just cast aside all the negative emotions now k? It was an awesome night! I found myself lost at Dhoby Ghaut station initially because I couldn't find Exit A as I was the purple-line boy xD. The others seem quite irritated with me as I faced many difficulties finding the Glasshouse. But nevertheless, thanks to Sarah and Sean, we managed to get there eventually. And guess what? Sean asked me what is the restaurant's signature dish. And I was like ._. It's Fish&Co! Fish is a MUST BUY there!
Ordered Salmon because I love cooked salmon. Had an incredible evening with all those who attended the dinner. Cracked many jokes and got to know them at a much deeper level. It was really nice of them to buy me a birthday cake and celebrate my birthday the Fish&Co style! It's great to have friends like them!
Wanted to head to LAN afterwards but they were all full, unfortunately, But nevertheless, I went home with Clare :D. Talked about a certain person on the bus ride home. She did have a point, but I just find him a bit too much. Sigh, I hate lies. But most importantly, I hate broken promises. Played LoL with the guys afterwards and went to sleep :3.
Joyce. Rowena and Yi Jie also celebrated my birthday by taking me out on a Saturday. I love my daughters so much <3 .="." a="a" about="about" amp="amp" and="and" at="at" awesome="awesome" because="because" beef="beef" bought="bought" but="but" buy="buy" clothes="clothes" fashion="fashion" for="for" garden.="garden." good="good" h="h" had="had" hotplate="hotplate" i="i" improve="improve" is="is" it.="it." it="it" like="like" lunch="lunch" me="me" my="my" p="p" sense="sense" seoul="seoul" some="some" spent="spent" that="that" they="they" to="to" uniqlo="uniqlo" ve="ve" wanted="wanted" was="was" we="we" went="went" whatever="whatever" worth="worth" xd.="xd.">
Anyway, holidays have been pretty busy for me so far. Spent the last two weeks catching up with my friends. Visited the choir on Monday and was quite shocked at their progress especially when their concert was just around the corner. Treated Hui Fang and Valerene to Gong Cha and had lunch at Pizza Hut with Xin Jie, Hui Fang, Valerene and Sean. It was extremely heartwarming for me, as I raised them up in choir since day 1. I still can vividly recall the very first day they stepped into the Music Room with innocent faces. And now, they are leaders. I hope that they'll be able to continue leading the choir well next year for their SYF (:. All the best! Told Hui Fang my dirty little secret about why I refuse to wear my choir tee xD. Oh yeah! We nearly forgot to pay for our meal!
Went out with Rebecca and Ikhmah to watch Pitch Perfect and Perks of a Wallflower (my first NC16 movie). Pitch Perfect has got to be one of the best musical-comedy films I've ever watched in my life. I like how the female lead sings 'Titanium' with her alto range! Headed to Pastamania for dinner and had Huifang and Jenny serving us! Thanks for the 30% staff discount guys! I thoroughly enjoyed my penne with meatballs.
Rushed back to the cinema to catch the last screening of Perks. There's only one word to describe the movie. Memorable. Not only is it my first NC16 movie, but it's the first movie that made me tear up at least twice, and feel a sense of warmth and happiness in my heart at the same time. To be honest, I wish that I had a friend like Sam. I definitely will want to watch the entire movie again! Went to Baskin Robbins afterwards to catch a late night ice-cream supper before sending Ikhmah off and heading home..
Packed my luggage and my room over the next few days to prepare for my trip to HK. Asked the LoL clique out to attend the Garena Carnival on Saturday. But before that, we headed to Expo to watch IEM live! It's a pity seeing how KLH got thrashed by a European team! But it was a refreshing experience as there is an entirely different set of emotions and atmosphere watching matches LIVE as compared to watching streaming videos or playbacks. Ah. I wish that I could play Zilean that well.. The players have good reflex, unlike me ):.
Went to Bugis afterwards for a quick lunch at Yoshinoya before attending the Carnival! Really admired the sheer hard work that the participants put into their costumes for the Cosplay competition! I realised that many people dolled themselves up as Ahri, the fox-like girl. Their props were SO good. And the poses they made showed how carefully they studied every single detail of her in the game. Went upstairs soon after to watch some Blackshot matches and was quite surprised to see how the all-guys team was thrashed by the all-girls team. This proves that girls can play games well too. So Clare, if you read this, it might be a good inspiration to play well! :D
Sigh, I've been doing this post for weeks. Sorry for the late update and the abrupt ending. Will post more about my HK experiences soon in my next few posts. It's about 11pm now and I'm going to disneyland tomorrow with Esther! Alright, see ya!
Nothing ever stays the same.
Forever now,
forever changed.
Friday, November 2, 2012
最终还得放手。
希望放得更高，失望会变得更大。
我真得很想相信你对我所说的话。
你曾经跟我说过，你一定会尽力出现。
但我没想到，我最终还是被骗。
可能我当初的猜测是对的，
你已经不把我当成一位好朋友了。
我觉得自己很笨，
为什么要让自己感到失望呢？
其实，
我早已经猜到你会口是心非，
令我感到失望。
因为你这一年来，
已经拒绝了我所有邀请，
但我也知道，你接受其他人的邀请。
别再装了。
我们还是折断我们之间的友情吧。
因为如果我们这样继续下去，
双方不但不能得到好处，
也会感到伤害。
我知道，你陪我出去是一个很痛苦的经验。
跟我聊天，也是一个烦恼的事情。
那一天，你玩得开心吧。
我早期祝你一声生日快乐。
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Some Hearts.
But if we pack our bags and drive fast enough,
By the way, just a little pop quiz. What do you think is my favorite Rihanna album to date?
1) Music of the Sun
2) A Girl Like Me
3) Good Girl Gone Bad
4) Rated R
5) Loud
6) Talk That Talk
all our troubles will be just like us.
Long gone.
'Some Hearts' may be the best country album I've ever bought in my entire life. It has the full package, the entire set that every country album's supposed to have. But what makes it so special, is that there isn't any Auto-tune! And that makes it easy for die-hard country fans like me to recognize the vocalists and feel the emotions they portray in the lyrics. My favorite song off the set? Starts with Goodbye. Maybe it's just my attachment with the lyrics.. 'Before He Cheats' is a classic too (:. The song that paved the way for country music since 'Breathe' by Faith Hill.
Anyway, let's get back to life shall we? Two subjects down, and it's been alright. I know that there'll be mistakes, but there isn't exactly anything that I would change even if time can rewind. I still don't get why people choose to demoralize themselves during such a crucial period in their lives by taking a quick 'glance' at the leaked answers for the various papers online. As if any crying or bitterness will change anything right? Move on, and smile because it happened. Wow. This doesn't sound like me, filled with so much optimism! Maybe I'm being influenced by Keandra..
Well, I'm really grateful for the fact that I was inspired for my English composition. Fame. It hit me hard in the head initially because I didn't have any plots for it. And the personal recount was a bit too much for me to handle, especially about explaining the significance of my favorite childhood memory part. Maybe that's because I don't really have a memorable childhood, or I just can't remember much about it.. My STM's getting right back at me :/.
Hmm.. 'Red'. That album seems enticing. I really have this urge to purchase it, but I think it'll be better to get it after the 'O's, as it may be a form of inspiration to me! 'I Knew You Were Trouble' and the title cut are ADDICTIVE. Like honestly. They were replaying in my head while I was doing the Maths papers.
Sigh. I still have to touch my Combined Humanities. Gotta complete my revision soon, because I only have one humanities for my L1R5! Really hope that I'll have proper time management and no regrets upon stepping out of the examination hall, and just hope that my best would be sufficient. Even if it isn't, I've already done my best, so it won't be much of a disappointment anyway.. But I have to channel more time on it, since I have LOADS to catch up on Geography.
Oh, and there's Biology too. Maybe I should just LOVE the theme on genetics. I think that factor makes me determines whether I manage to complete studying it. I really wanna get an A1 for it, and I have complete confidence with my teachers, since its distinction rate has been consistently high ( at 80% ) the last few years. But I got to work hard for it! Gotta complete all the past year 'O' level papers, at least until 2008 AND READ ALL THE COMMENTS FROM MY TEACHERS! I don't wanna let any of them down again, because I did pretty badly for Prelim 2 ):.
By the way, just a little pop quiz. What do you think is my favorite Rihanna album to date?
1) Music of the Sun
2) A Girl Like Me
3) Good Girl Gone Bad
4) Rated R
5) Loud
6) Talk That Talk
Anyway, I gotta go now, since it's like midnight. And I gotta have sufficient rest for the long study day tomorrow! I hope that it'll be productive, because the number of days I have left to prepare is diminishing. ): Bye!
Maybe I'm just expecting too much.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
I wonder whether you'll turn up or not.
I really missed having you around,
and telling you practically everything under the sun.
If you're asking about him,
I really wish that I can do so to him too.
But he seems uninterested in talking to me.
I feel guilty saying this,
but sometimes I really doubt whether I'm his friend or not.
Maybe I'm the one being fooled here.
So please, turn up.
I really wish that I can do so to him too.
But he seems uninterested in talking to me.
I feel guilty saying this,
but sometimes I really doubt whether I'm his friend or not.
Maybe I'm the one being fooled here.
So please, turn up.
State of Grace.
Anyway, it's about 2 days to 'O's and I'll be lying if I say that I'm prepared, especially for English. But I'm trying my best to squeeze out time to write a few more compositions and answer more comprehension questions so that I'll be able to overcome the English Paper on Monday, hopefully.
Attempted to write a few compositions today, and I feel blessed to have a brother around me, especially when his English standard is much better than mine. Went through with him a few compositions that I wrote, and I'm quite contented with my performance so far, but there are MANY AFIs to look into, which was quite shocking since I just got to know them today.
Did 2 Amaths Papers today as well! Maybe because I felt sleepy after flipping through the Textbook on the topic of 'Rivers', and Maths makes me HAPPY (:. I love the feeling whenever I manage to complete questions on Geometrical Proofs and Trigo Proof because it's really based on your luck, whether you manage to use the suitable formula to solve the question! And it can be disheartening at times, especially when you stare at the question and are dumbfounded by the diagrams the question offers, or even the number of marks it weighs.. But if one can persevere and solve it, the feeling of achievement is PRICELESS (:.
Argh. I'm having this odd feeling that my sentence structures for this post are going haywire. It feels weird typing them out.. Sigh, gotta try to type in proper English! 2 more days ):.
Anyway, the clock strikes twelve now, and that means that I have to sleep! Goodnight, and to the Sec 4s who're reading this post, ALL THE BEST FOR 'O's! It's either now, or never (:
Maybe I'm just being over-sensitive.
But I'm starting to not understand you anymore.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Catch My Breath.
The scariest thing about distance,
is that you don't know whether they'll miss you,
or simply forget you.
Prom night was on Friday, and I've been asking a girl out for it (:. Well, please don't be mistaken, I don't have a crush on her or something :x. We're just going there as friends.. I thought that she (Sarah) looked stunning, with her simple, yet elegant, blue dress!
Anyway, I'm just hoping that I didn't give her the wrong impression, especially with all those messages. Because it really can lead one to think that way ):. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, or thinking too much. But who knows? I really don't want this friendship to go, because she's like a sister to me (:.
So, we had to assemble at the Auditorium to have a briefing about the day's itenary and we got the latest issue of 'Expressions'! Sigh, it really tears me up to know that it'll be our last issue, after 4 years of receiving it. Can really tell that the cohort's English standard has improved by leaps and bounds since the very first issue! And yeah, there was Randy's one inside ( in the 1st issue ), which I thought was mediocre, but his latest essay on disappointment was quite nicely written! Sigh, time really flies eh?
We headed towards the hall next, where we were greeted by the teachers and the staff of the school! Felt extremely emotional because it's really an honor for them to be applauding for us, yet saddening to know that that'll be the one of the last few times we'll ever get to see them in our Secondary school lives.. I know I'll miss Mr Lawrence Tang and Mr Ong Kai Kun, especially when they've been my Science teachers for 3 years now (:. And Jiang Lao Shi too, because she didn't belittle me when I started HCL in Sec 3, and her constant encouragements spurs me to do better! (:. I hope that I can clinch that distinction in HCL, even though it'll be tough, since there're like so many people out there with good language skills, especially the scholars..
Moving on, we had some performances from the alumni, which I thought was really sweet of them to take the time off to perform on our graduation day (:, even though it may seem a little _________. But still, it's the thought that counts right? And the games that were organised were COOL! Joel's dancing is (Y)! Oh, and Mr Ang's one as well!!
After our dinner, the hall was suddenly converted into something like a disco, where the 'DJs' started to blast a few popular songs for us to dance~. Totally loved their song choices! It makes people high. Since I can't dance and didn't want to jump around like a crazy barbarian, I started to snap pictures with other people! :D.
Went home with Louis afterwards! Miss Rozi's cupcakes were delectable and it was heartwarming to see teachers giving us farewell gifts! ):.
Anyway, how's your mugging? I think mine has been pretty slack since prom night, but I managed to complete my topical revision for the three sciences (:. Gotta start my humanities soon! Argh, it really irks me to know that I have to study Rivers&Coasts because Cambridge is coming out with hybrid questions ):. Forgot all the content and the drawings already ):.
And I really need to start on more essays! I gotta retrieve more inspiration for writing! I think my brother's been pretty good to me, since he's been vetting all of my essays (:.
Anyway, sorry for the abrupt ending. Gotta go for dinner now ):. BYE!
P.S. Please forgive my grammatical errors ):
Sandwiched.
is that you don't know whether they'll miss you,
or simply forget you.
Prom night was on Friday, and I've been asking a girl out for it (:. Well, please don't be mistaken, I don't have a crush on her or something :x. We're just going there as friends.. I thought that she (Sarah) looked stunning, with her simple, yet elegant, blue dress!
Anyway, I'm just hoping that I didn't give her the wrong impression, especially with all those messages. Because it really can lead one to think that way ):. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, or thinking too much. But who knows? I really don't want this friendship to go, because she's like a sister to me (:.
So, we had to assemble at the Auditorium to have a briefing about the day's itenary and we got the latest issue of 'Expressions'! Sigh, it really tears me up to know that it'll be our last issue, after 4 years of receiving it. Can really tell that the cohort's English standard has improved by leaps and bounds since the very first issue! And yeah, there was Randy's one inside ( in the 1st issue ), which I thought was mediocre, but his latest essay on disappointment was quite nicely written! Sigh, time really flies eh?
We headed towards the hall next, where we were greeted by the teachers and the staff of the school! Felt extremely emotional because it's really an honor for them to be applauding for us, yet saddening to know that that'll be the one of the last few times we'll ever get to see them in our Secondary school lives.. I know I'll miss Mr Lawrence Tang and Mr Ong Kai Kun, especially when they've been my Science teachers for 3 years now (:. And Jiang Lao Shi too, because she didn't belittle me when I started HCL in Sec 3, and her constant encouragements spurs me to do better! (:. I hope that I can clinch that distinction in HCL, even though it'll be tough, since there're like so many people out there with good language skills, especially the scholars..
Moving on, we had some performances from the alumni, which I thought was really sweet of them to take the time off to perform on our graduation day (:, even though it may seem a little _________. But still, it's the thought that counts right? And the games that were organised were COOL! Joel's dancing is (Y)! Oh, and Mr Ang's one as well!!
After our dinner, the hall was suddenly converted into something like a disco, where the 'DJs' started to blast a few popular songs for us to dance~. Totally loved their song choices! It makes people high. Since I can't dance and didn't want to jump around like a crazy barbarian, I started to snap pictures with other people! :D.
Went home with Louis afterwards! Miss Rozi's cupcakes were delectable and it was heartwarming to see teachers giving us farewell gifts! ):.
Anyway, how's your mugging? I think mine has been pretty slack since prom night, but I managed to complete my topical revision for the three sciences (:. Gotta start my humanities soon! Argh, it really irks me to know that I have to study Rivers&Coasts because Cambridge is coming out with hybrid questions ):. Forgot all the content and the drawings already ):.
And I really need to start on more essays! I gotta retrieve more inspiration for writing! I think my brother's been pretty good to me, since he's been vetting all of my essays (:.
Anyway, sorry for the abrupt ending. Gotta go for dinner now ):. BYE!
P.S. Please forgive my grammatical errors ):
Sandwiched.
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