Sometimes you have to weather a little bit of rain before you can see the rainbow. It has got to be an effective wake up call for me. They weren't that bad, but still a real disappointment. I know that I'm capable of getting better results. Maybe I'm not putting in enough effort. Or maybe, I'm just not smart enough. But either way, i still have to reach that end goal that have been set in my mind since I chose to come into this school. I guess I really have to make some dramatic changes to my lifestyle for the coming months. No more excuses. I'm capable of it, and I will get what I want.

It's really great that I can make all these mistakes today, so that I will have a higher probability of not repeating them again. If it weren't for this round of examinations, I'll still be complacent with my academics, clearly oblivious to the high standards that Cambridge has already set for us. It's really time to wake up, and do the talk that I've been telling myself all year. I've already completed most of my study plan, and now there's just the need to follow. I know that this journey will be rough, and full of sudden obstacles and unforeseen circumstances, but no matter what, I'm still me, and I'm the one that controls my destiny at the end of the day. I just have to keep enough faith and display sufficient resilience, and all these will just go by in a flash.

It's really game on then. There's no safety net for me to rely on now. It's now or never.