~All I wish is that you would be at my side.. Yet you stood at my opposition..~


I feel so unappreciated. I just want to improve the damn choir and now the seniors are like scolding me :/. Looks like this choir cannot even stand a little bit of criticism. My hopes for this choir would then be shattered. Now then I know that they deserved a bronze. Even when SAJS got a silver at 2006, we worked extremely hard for it. But for this choir, they are slackening. I cannot be like them. Im sorry to those who tries to make the choir better. Now then it wonders me, why did i even joined this choir? People are now even scolding me as a place of a junior. Fine then, lets be that way. I would always be a junior. I would not even voice out my opinions about the song. Its up to the rest of the choir to find out themselves. I would not even give a single damn whether they ask me questions. Its time to NOT give in to others. I tried to be kind. And they couldnt stand a little bit of the toughness we had suffered in SAJS. Now as im busy with other things, and as my birthday approaches, i would not want to even care or EVEN think of the choir, i would celebrate myself. Looks like people just cant stand me. The day when i quitted council really taught me a lesson. From next year on, I would not even want to put a single expectation on this choir. I would just expect a C.O.P or non-participation in anything - competitions, festivals etc. I've been so afraid, but now, its time to retaliate.

If really this choir would fall, i would not even want to catch them and make them recover. This CCA, now gave me a new hope. I would only want to get my points. Thats all.