~All I wish is that you would be at my side.. Yet you stood at my opposition..~



Yo guys, long time no post. Surprised that i did in HK? Well here is my first :P. hope you all enjoy it. Anyway, heres what i written for you guys to READ :



20th November



Love me, love me. Say that you need me. Fool me, Fool me, tell me that you love me. Is this crush not going away? Is it just a one sided hope that we will be couples, or is it just that you hard for people to say those three words. Or maybe accept what that means seriousness and etc? Or is it just me, who is just obsessed with love? Or am i just so alone, that i need someone to encounter all of my problems ttogether with me? I miss you every single day. You say that you are sorry, but actually you are not. You are now surrendering our love we once had, secretly yet interesting. Just remember this december. When i come back and we can spend much more time together, even if we are so far apart. Dont afraid to break your heart again and lose our love again. One second lost with you is like me suffering for a thousand years. There would be no me without you..

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Hiie guys! Im just posting this down at my laptop, not at the internet. Landed in HK.. people just keep complaining to me that the weather is EXTREMELY cold today. But actually they are all just bullshit. Things are normal in here. Back to my typical yet slacky life in HK. Just eat sleep and watch TV and of course HW. How sad right? Anyway, i dont think im going back to dota anymore. I just feel so much happier without it. I mean no dota in HK, but i still have more fun shopping and eating and etc. Wow just my first day in here and I already found out that many people already made appointments with me to stay in there house to have fun and take care of their children -,-. But its alright ; its ok. I mean that i can take care of them and etc. Just thinking of you everyday...

want it, but then there are exterior factors that are obstructing your way? Why is it always so _______________________________________________________________


21th November



I can fix up your broken heart. I will be there for you always. Will be there to listen to all of your troubles and to try to make you stand once again after you fall. I can make you shine brightly. You are like a shining star. You can fly so high, just keep your gaze upon the stars. I will be praying every step along the way. I will take and lead you in your world when you are one less lonely girl. Hope that you will be able to stay safe as your guardian angel will protect you.

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Did some shopping today and been gluing my eyes on the TV :P. Anyways, was hotter today, not like yesterday. About 15 degrees here. Well i cant have the chance to use my laptop so i wont post everyday.

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25th November

I was given two choices : to be good/evil. I chose both. But the options at different times. Good at first, but in the end, i had to turn to evil. Everything that happened seemed so right to me, as I like in the end of the situation. Was an innocent, yet foolish in terms of power and knowledge. Thanks to my primary school, I ALMOST became a christian. during recess, a friend asked to whether be that.. you know. But i answered maybe. It all seemed to be a happy ending. But not after he had betrayed me and the voice in my head that spurrs me up to resist on those decisions. Being betrayed, i felt so weak yet vulnerable. Only power can control me. No responsibility. I started to lose everything - my faith and my trust. and the only 2 people i then could now trust the most is of course, myself and Satan. He had helped me lots, lifeted up my spirits. Now im back, as always, and my revenge awaits. I dont need any money if you all want to silence me with them, i only wanted revenge. That evil in me is arising. For when i harmed any person in any way, it feels like a breath of fresh air to me. I am no longer myself. To better or to be worse? For me, its better. Even if it considers the factor of Guilty Pleasure. That stranger who i was talking about these few days, it then dawned to me that it is the evil me. And now im feeling great about it. The fear that i can strike people's heart with and etc. Not friends, prayers or even god would be able to stop me or try to convince me. He cannot do miracles. These are all just fiction.

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Today

Nothing much to do. Ride on the 360 thingy cable car. Had transparent glass floors that made me OMG mode. Always anticipated the worst. Then had some shopping and bought this nice sovenir for someone.. Lols i dont know who :P. I feel like changing the blogskin. So keep coming to my blog and TAGG!!!!

Maiev Shadowsong