I'm mentally exhausted,
yet Frustrated at myself.

Why does things have to go this way?
I'm just disappointed with myself.
Let's face some facts here.
I'm just a freaking coward.
I should get things right in the right way,
and not wrong in the right ways.
As though as I want to,
I guess its a mutual thing.
Forcing you won't help much either.

It was just a simple gift,
yet accompanied with something more sophisticated.
You won't even text me anymore.
Or even reply me sometimes T.T.
I don't want my workload to be affected by this.
But whenever I think of you,
it just really makes me really emotional.

How I wish time traveled back to January.
The time when I would tell myself not to fall for you.
And we would still have that playful conversation everytime we speak.
Now it's getting more and more awkward.
I feel like passing notes to you in secrecy.
But I guess there'll be no more opportunities left.

I want to call you now.
But I just don't have the courage to do so.
I wanna tell you how I feel,
but I'm afraid that I'll make things even worse.
If you're reading this,
I would say that I'm sorry for whatever I've done.
Including making you to trace that person down.