Woke up at 7am to prepare myself for the briefing at newton.. Took quite some time to arrive there because we were halfway lost upon reaching there.. Anyway, it's really absurd. The briefing only lasted for 20 min while we took 1h30min to reach there. It's seriously a waste of time ><. Quite irritated to the max now.
However, that's not exactly the main post for today. After that, went out to have a gathering with 2E1'10 people! I'm glad that I'll be able to relive the moments that I had 9 months ago, facing the hyper-ness and craziness that my class offered in their everyday lives. I think I ate a lot, but I managed to take a few photographs to remember the memories spent together as a class. And I think that Brandon's nerf guns are really cool! :D.
Managed to catch up with my classmates that I'd lost touch with ever since I stepped into Triple Science. Glad that they're still whoever I knew they were. But, I don't think I am whoever they know anymore. I guess life's really a manipulator right? I think it may be because of the stress that's been unleashed to me recently, and that I'm the only one in my class to take up HCL, but I wish to remain what I was before and not change into some freaking asshole right now.
I've always had many faces. I think my lower secondary classes know that extremely well.. But I've been trying to bury something deep within my soul. Something that I wouldn't want to unleash/reveal again this year.
It's great being a hypocrite, hiding your true feelings and being strong on the outside. Sometimes it's the best that people don't understand your feelings etc, because they can see right through you, and who knows what happens next. Sometimes it's also the best to suffer from Short-Term Memory (STM). I know that this may seem as a disadvantage to most of us, but we can forget whatever we do not wish to remember easily, and will not care what happened in the past, as it has already been vanished from your mind since a long time ago.
I understand your condition right now.
That's why I'm not holding it against you.
Just realized that I'm stuck in my own dimension of loneliness once more.
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
- Bob Marley.
