I forgive you, I forgive me.
Now when do I start to feel again.


Sorry for not blogging recently, and I regret that because there're like loads of things to blog about. So I'ma just skip into the main points :

- Wednesday :
The return of the scripts part 2. I think my results were worse as compared to the first day, including my Biology. Sigh, I'm such an utter disappointment to the teachers. I was quite confident for it, yet I scored so low for it ):.

As for physics and geog, I was surprised that I could actually pass both papers as I was expecting them to fail.. But I plan on working on them during the holidays after my 'O' levels!

I think that was it ><.

Moving on, I went to KFC along with Jue Ying, Randy and Jia Wei! I think it was an awesome experience, because we were like walking through the shelters and still got wet due to the heavy downpour that day. I like walking in the rain, but running in the shelter yet still being wet was truly unforgettable (Y). We then went to the toilet to dry ourselves up before heading to KFC. And I would say that Randy was quite unfortunate to meet his conductor on the way as he was planning to be late, but still... I think the band's conductor is pretty nice and kind, well that's just my perspective of him as I bet Randy is utterly against it.

And then we went to talk about some personal stuffs, like how JY 'seduces' people and I was disgusted at some person because he/she didn't stop burping for like 10 times and I was having my zinger :X. Guess what's next? We talked about BIO! And JY seems interested in one of the topics that we're gonna cover next year, and what Randy thinks about Bio is urea. I still can vividly recall when he asked whether we had urea in our brains :D. Haha~.

For me, I like respiration the most :D. I think it's a pretty cool topic even though it has hell loads to memorize.. Randy then left for his CCA and Jia Wei came along with the water bottle that JY had left in the classroom earlier that day. Talked about LoL stuff, and JY was quite irritated by it because there're like so many people around her playing that game while she chooses not to play..

Moving on, it was Thursday. Things went smoothly for me, except the fact that we had Chemistry lessons early in the morning! Managed to complete the topic on Energy Changes, but I didn't understand a single bit of what Miss Ong was teaching that day. However, I still needed to complete the ton of homework that she assigned to us for that topic.. And there was a Leadership Workshop for all the Sec 3s after recess, and I was in Group 6A! I think we were awesome! :D. I liked the 'All Hands on Deck' and 'Human Checkers' stations. They were pretty fun for me. Well, for the rest, not so much because they were trying to emphasize on the same thing over and over again.. BUT I LIKE TOP 40 SONGS. I managed to guess ' Born This Way' by Lady Gaga :D. And then we created the Periodic Table Cheer (:.

Then, it was the dreaded Timed Practice. I nearly forgot to write my 'zhu' phrase until Yuan Zhen allowed me to catch a glimpse on my paper, and I rushed it out..  I think I did quite badly for both sections, knowing that I have missing points here and there, and some of the content that I've wrote are quite irrelevant to the question, but what's done is done eh? There's no point turning back now... Went home late and played my computer afterwards!

Friday :
There was Choir T.T. Well, I think I'm losing my falsetto really quickly this time round, and Strepsils managed to make me feel better for a while.. I could tell that the choir had already been putting up their best efforts to sing their part out, but I feel that it's not enough. To add on, I can't even attend most of the important dates that Miss Tan wrote on the board because I already have things planned for me. I think I fail terribly as the President and am truly disappointed in myself.. But I can't really do much to change that fact already eh?

Practically, all my holidays are used in playing computer games and doing homework. I guess I'm hooked into it already, but I think I've gotta start preparing for my 'O' levels in the later part of the year. I plan on doing some daily revisions in hope to secure my A1 for my CL! :D.

Oh yeah, all the best to my dearest Seniors for their 'O' level main papers tomorrow! :D. I hope that they'll do really well for it! Anyway, to end my post, I would like to say that I've managed to fulfil one of my wishes for this year, and that was to get a data plan plus a new phone! And I got both (:. I'm a happy kid for today! :D.

My apologies for the disorganization for my post today, there're bits and pieces everywhere.. So peace out.

To the two people that thought I was quite emotional during the holidays : I really appreciate your concerns a lot. It's really great to know that you two have been standing right beside me and the fact that you know something was wrong really inspires me to move on. Truth is, I might have lied to one of you saying that I was tired and that caused this to happen, but in fact, I was tired but that's not the main reason for the change in my attitude and character these days. I guess it's some stuff that I'm facing right now, and as much as I wanna tell you all what's happening to me, I'm afraid I can't, in fear that something unexpected would come along the way and ruin everything once more. Moving on, it's really great knowing you all since Day 1, and may our experiences be enhanced over the next few events that we're gonna have together, including my Birthday Chalet <3. 

It's really heartwarming to know that my friends are standing by my side as they can tell that something's wrong, even if I didn't tell them anything..

Moving on, I'm gonna get Kelly Clarkson's stronger later in the day! Can't wait to hear the rest of the album! Ahh. The anticipation's killing me right now! :)

Now to end this blog post, I'ma post one song that I'm currently obsessed with right now..

Give me the chance to love you,
I'll tell you the only reason why.
'Cause you are on my mind.

I should've known that the outcome would've been like this.
But I guess everything's over now..
If we could ever talk again,
I would want to say that it was nice meeting you since the start of this year.
I should just focus on the upcoming events that are coming at the end of this year,
and stop thinking of you daily anymore.
It's not gonna happen between us,
and it's time for me to snap back into reality once more.


Stop living in your delusional dreams anymore.
It may not be just you,
but things changed for both of us.