I just want my friend back.
It's a shame. I've manged to destroy a perfectly fine friendship. I remember your little attempts to cheer me up regardless of whether I was down or not. You were like a star, shining brightly. Maybe I should have held back. I was trapped in my own world of confusion. I wasn't mature enough to handle such emotions. Your morning texts. They were the ones which usually made my day. You understood me, even to the extent of knowing me better than most of my close friends. It's a pity that things had to turn out this way. It was my fault to begin with, and I deserve everything that has had happened. I've tried ways to overcome, but they all failed. Tried to trick myself that I was over you, but I wasn't. Because whenever my mind was unoccupied, images and thoughts of you would always dart into it. I tried to apologize, but I'm always not myself whenever I tried communicating with you. I don't know why, but I usually mutter the wrong things on impulse. Maybe you were right to give up on me. You no longer give a fuck about me anyway.
Let me start off the post with the recently announced Grammy nominations! I am quite contented with the list because I think the nominees deserved them. Carrie scored two nods in the country categories ( Best country song, best solo country performance for "Blown Away" ). Kelly Clarkson scored 4 nods ( Song of the Year, Record of the Year and Best Solo Pop Performance for 'Stronger(What Doesn't Kill You) as well as Best Pop Vocal Album for "Stronger"). Rihanna had 3 nods ( Best Solo Pop Performance for "Where Have You Been", Best Rap/Sung collaboration for "Talk that Talk" and Best Short Form Music Video for "We Found Love") Oh, and Taylor Swift managed to score a few nods as well! But it was a little sad that they weren't exactly in the country category. Looks like the Grammy committee has agreed that she belonged to pop now, and it's a good thing. I like her new style (:. I know that she clinched a nod for Record/Song of the Year and that is quite a feat.
Moving on, Ke$ha's new album, "Warrior", is out in stores now! I really can't wait to get my hands on it! I've listened to every track in the album and I've fallen in love with every single one of them! For me, "Warrior" and "Supernatural" are the two standout songs of the album. Maybe it's because of my relation with the lyrics, or their catchy choruses! Ke$ha has seriously stepped up her game and blown me away.
Anyway, HK's been pretty good to me! Went to Disneyland with Esther and also went to China for 5 days to visit my jia xiang and it was pretty cool! Managed to witness a wedding and taste good food! I miss the roast goose there ):. It's much more delicious than the ones here in HK ):. I've been having a craving for egg tarts recently. The pastry is AMAZING. I don't mind eating the pastry alone without the huge yellow part. Tried the famous polo bun in Mong Kok and it was wonderful. How can a bun be fluffy and crispy at the same time? (:. Despite indulging myself with amazing food, I've yet to visit more places in HK! I still need to go to Kowloon City to eat some of the street-stall food there, and maybe Yuen Long for their famous Wife Cakes!
Gah. So much food, yet so little time ):. I hope that I'll be able to fulfil my wishes that I've made for this HK trip before I fly back home.. Speaking of home, I'm feeling a little nervous about my results. What if they don't meet my expectations? What if I really did screw up? I'm hoping that I'll be able to do well so that I'll be able to enter SAJC and start the next chapter of my life without any regrets..
Let's just put that aside eh? I should be enjoying my holidays. I'm finding peace here, and it's great! Gotta start writing Christmas cards and posting them to my close friends REALLY soon! I'm hoping that they'll receive before the actual day or at most, on the day itself! So I gotta start putting on my thinking cap and recall all the pleasant memories that they've given me (:.
Anyway, I'm gonna post one of my favorite tracks from Christina Aguilera's newly-released "Lotus"!
I gotta go now :X. Sorry for the abrupt ending once more. Bye!
And now I'm finally over you,
I'm now set free.
