I.. I wanna stop the clocks tonight.
It's just fifty minutes away from the start of a new year. So, I'ma post this right now so that it wouldn't seem that I posted this late..
2012 had its ups and downs. There were moments when I really felt like giving up and let everything go. But hey, I am still here, standing. I managed to survive all the drama and the events that have occurred this year. But all in all, it has been a great year! Got to know many people, like Adeline, Keandra, Sarah etc, at a much deeper level, although it's still sad to see so many people leaving my life. Oh well. I guess there were some mistakes made. But I still have to face the fact that we'll be saying our last goodbyes when we collect our 'O' level results and begin our next chapter of our education.
This year has passed in a flash, at least for me. Maybe it was all the mugging for 'O's, or the many regretful moments that I had. Sleep started to feel a little too short for me, even though I managed to sleep for at least 4 hours on a regular school day! Well, I remember settling the Open House, even though it didn't quite meet up to my expectations because we couldn't exactly attract many juniors to join, or that our performance was horrendous due to the 'work shifts' that we made. But it was still fun, seeing all my classmates and friends doing their respective duties in their CCAs, except for the Council. I don't know why, but after 4 years in ZH, I still kinda despise this organization. And whenever someone becomes a prefect, I would always tend to be a bit unfair to them, especially in choir. Oh well..
Sigh. Even though I usually rant about the facilities that Zhonghua has, I can't bear to leave. The teachers are great and friendly! They seriously work their ass off for us, and I appreciate that. If there's any teachers reading this if I make my blog public for my annual dedications, thank you for being such wonderful mentors. I still remember Miss Lim U-Shan saying that the 4 years in secondary school would zoom past us. And when I was Sec 1 then, I remember staring at her in disbelief. But now, all I can say is, " As was foretold. " I recall sitting next to Xin Yi at the start of the year. She was my first female neighbour in class, as I came from an all-boys primary school. And yeah, the rumors were right. She was my first real crush. I still remember doing really silly stuff like putting my heart out in presents and asking her out. Ah. It was a beautiful past. Not because she was my girlfriend, because she wasn't. But it was the moment of chasing someone. Haha. Looking at it, all I can do now is smile and be glad that she still is one of the closest friends that I'll ever have, despite having a crush on her once.
I remember having bus-rides home with Clare, aka the Curly-Haired girl. Even though my first impressions of her came from her hairstyle, she initially started to irk me as I thought that she was arrogant. Well, if you tell this to her, she'll understand, knowing what she did to me in Sec 1. But nevertheless, we became close friends. We used to talk about everything under the sun. Results, friends, objects, weather and people. And she seemed so positive in virtually everything! She has been a great listener, and most importantly, a wonderful friend (:.
Then there was Shazwani, who became my first faithful neighbour. I remember writing paper notes to her all day long and during every lesson. She would usually talk to me about music stuff and perhaps about band while I tell her about my choir stuff. She's awesome! I remember us copying each other's homework when we were too lazy to do them the night before, which happened nearly every day xD.
And when I shifted places to sit next to Shaz, Chang Jie came into the picture as well, becoming my second faithful neighbour! He's a good and decent kiddo who always did his homework and would stay focused during lessons. I admire his positivity and optimism in everything that he does! Our friendship became deeper when we played dota together with Javier and all, AND NOW, HE'S MY BEST GUY FRIEND, even if he doesn't notice it..
There was Gracia (my best female friend) too! She was-and-still-is awesome! I remember the all-night long calls that I would make, telling her every secret and emotion that I bottled up in my heart during the day or the week. She knows everything about me. Oh, and most importantly, the countless paper notes that we send during class! I still keep them, both from Shaz and Gracia (:, in a container because they remind me of the fun times I had in Sec 1 and 2! (:.
Well, these are my friends that I'm closest with, at least right from where it all began. They all managed to change a part of me for the better and have stood by my side no matter what I did or had done.. I know that I have many others to thank, and so I am deciding to do an annual dedications once again as mentioned earlier!
Anyway, I'm now sitting on a couch typing this post while sipping a glass of hot green tea, waiting for the countdown to begin. It's only 8 more minutes to a new year, a brand new beginning. No matter what sins or mistakes that we've committed, it'll all be undone this year. I hope everyone will be able to move on from their past, and enjoy the present that each of us have right now. To a new start, a year of happiness and bliss. To a new chapter, a year of new beginnings.
And now, while raising my green tea as if it's my glass of champagne, I would like to wish everyone a blessed happy new year and all the best to the future that awaits us (:.
Cheers to the new year! (:
I don't want this night to end.
