A million little wishes float across the skies.
If I could go back in time to change things, to make it right, would things turn out differently in the end? Would I know who my true friends are? Would I know who are the ones who stood by my side throughout the past few years? Would I really open up to other people? It's always questions like these that make me feel disconnected with reality, because I'll be stuck in my own realm of imagination and thoughts. But honestly, all of us have regrets. From the little things, to not noticing the big things in life. We get too caught up with the things at our sight, that we ignore our hindsight. I was given the liberty to choose, and it was a wrong decision made. I've chose the little things over the big things that mattered, like my friends and family. I became so self - centred that I forgot who I were. I've became a monster and committed selfish and horrible mistakes, just to boost my ego. I've learnt my mistakes the hard way. I really wanted to run, to escape from the punishment that karma had planned for me. But it had to be a bitter medicine to swallow. I grew from this experience, and learnt many invaluable things in life. Maybe it was because of this experience, that I started becoming more judgemental. First impressions mean a lot to me these days. I'm starting to compare almost every single aspect of my life with others. I've already developed a different attitude to those who don't treasure a single bit of me. Maybe kindness does come with a price. A price of being used. I'm really sick and tired of this feeling. I know that sometimes, it may be ungrounded, but I still feel that I'm right. I'm really afraid of my mind these days. The thoughts that I'm having recently, they seem so surreal. It feels like it's only a matter of time before they come alive.
Dandelions.
