My Gosh. Feeling so sad now.


Thought that things would change. It came through. And it changed for the worst. Its time to return to the old me. You're gone already. I cant bear to say " So Be It ". Nothing to say. Totally Speechless. I didnt want to continue that conversation, but I had to get my facts right.

I cant even bear to sing " I Got You ". I cant be social anymore, gotta be emotional. I seemed to get everything wrong. This year seemed chaotic.
Choir = Cant handle well for time.
Friends = Lots of problems
Results = Even worse.

I wouldnt know what to do now. This holiday is given to me to reflect. Even though I completed my goals for today, but it wasnt a holiday for me anyways.

I think I would post the lyrics of " Holiday " by Hilary Duff here to express my emotions.

I remember summers, you & me lasting forever
Holidays come & we'd never, never ever be apart
I remember spending, all of my time, every minute
The two of us we had our own rhythm, intune with the beat of my heart

Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don't matter (what I do)
Since you went away, since you went away
Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don't matter what I do
It don't matter what I say
You left it

You took a holiday from us
Took a trip & left your love
If your heart went down forever
You should have told me where it was
You took a holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
& now you got me asking
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
(where did you go huh?) Where did my heart go?
You took a holiday
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
Why did you leave?
This ain't no holiday for me

Walkin', watching you leave there's no talking
Back on my own it's so shocking, guess forever was just a dream
I think we could have made it, but our history now is fading
My image of the future is changing & baby damn that thing called destiny, got the best of me

Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don't matter what I do
It don't matter what I say
You left it

You took a holiday from us
Took a trip & left your love
If your heart went down forever
You should have told me where it was
You took a holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
& now you got me asking
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
(where did you go huh?) Where did my heart go?
You took a holiday
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
Why did you leave?
This ain't no holiday for me

If I could take a step back, make it turn out different
I would hide those bags, and Id tear that ticket
Never thought you and me would be done in a minute
Now Im making new plans and youre just not in it

If I could take a step back, make it turn out different
I would hide those bags, and Id tear that ticket
Never thought you and me would be done in a minute
Now Im making new plans and youre just not in it
(Where did you go?)

You took a Holiday from us
Took a trip and left your love
If your heart went down forever
Shouldve told me where it was
You took a Holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
And now you got me asking

Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did my heart go?
You take a Holiday

Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Why do you live?
This aint a Holiday for me

I should have known. I shouldnt be staying here. Its over. The feelings are gone. Cant bear to say it anymore.

I was so stupid. So foolish. Now Im full of regrets, but I know i must cling on, no matter what passes us by.

Maybe to make us bond together, I should start watching anime? Maybe not. I remember I made that vow. I wouldnt watch anymore anime anymore. It just happened. Its all over.

Its Already Gone.

Wanna put another lyrics here : Entitled Already Gone. ( They are all in my playlist )

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another that doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone.


I think we really were meant to say goodbye. We werent meant to be. Gosh.. Im in a serious confusion now. I think someone's gotta go. I want you to move on. Good Luck for you =D. Hope you manage to find the right one. But I do hope that we will be good friends.