I said what I had to say,
In letters that I threw away.
Why did I have to retrieve them back?
I totally regretted telling you that.
Maybe it's my fault.
I shouldn't really think too much.
They were right,
I'm too kind with people.
Maybe I should just let everything go.
It's time to be irresponsible just this once.
I'll just let the next batch handle their voice quality.
It's none of my business anyway.
Thanks Dad, Alto ^^, Mortal, Blur Queen, GIRLFRIEND! and Operation Manager for hearing me out yesterday! Thanks for all your honest feedback, and giving me suggestions on how to deal with this problem. Oh and Esp Mortal ^^. You've really heard loads of my troubles and we had loads of fun conversations that night (:. But I've really loads more to talk about! D:. Too bad time doesn't permit us to continue speaking.
I think I was too impulsive that day.
Maybe I should've just resisted.
I don't wanna be a heartless person,
and start shouting at people.
But there will be times when I have to do it.
I wrote whatever I wanted to say in that piece of paper.
Should I deliver it the next time?
Should I smack out facts to their faces?
Should I be kind and let everything go?
I really admire how others do it.
They can be like good leaders,
and I can't.
Maybe I just care too much.
All I wanna say is,
I'm glad to have friends like those whom I mentioned at the top of this post.
Thanks for being there,
especially what I faced yesterday.
Since this is a private blog,
I shall post part of what I wanna say to them.
I don't really care if some of them can read this.
What are your definitions of giving your best in something?
I know it's hard to pass if I'm the baseline of this issue.
But we have already gone through what you all are going through right now.
You're one of the worst batches I've ever seen in my life.
Face it. Suck up the facts.
If you call that YOUR best,
then you should really reflect.
I've got a feeling that those are just excuses.
Plain lies. To protect yourself.
Don't expect people to spoonfeed you all with knowledge in this choir.
Some of you come from schools with good results.
But you all just cannot prove it to me.
Regarding me as a baseline,
That's just another bitchy reason.
Not trying to boast,
but without us, you're gonna be nothing.
And you wanna know the reason why?
That's because you're the turtle that keeps hiding in your shell,
without wanting to face up to the facts.
Anyway, I just practiced oral! Gosh, I have to say that some topics really let me reflect on myself. I mean, like influences, and our thoughts in mind. Do you all think that this is just an effect from a propaganda?
Oh yeah! I've finally found 'I Am...Sasha Fierce'! I'm like really happy about it (:. Went to like 6 music stores to find it! I think I got the Beyonce Fetish now ._. I keep singing Crazy in Love, Run the World (Girls) and Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) in class. Oh well.
Gosh. She's so pretty <3.
It turns out that all of us have issues.
We try to overcome them,
but its like flying without our wings.
Or trying to fly in this ship that's sinking down.
Should I get over it?
I know she meant well,
but I just can't do it,
No matter how hard I try to persuade myself.
F you baby.
