This week was a pretty rough week for me. Maybe it's because of the different problems that I had faced over the last few days.
Conducted choir's sectionals. It's been tough for me. As I'm like stuck about what to do. And there's like loads of problems that I want to solve, but I just have to let go of some things that will never come true.
Anyway, really want to thank Dad for listening to me over msn just now. Gosh, was totally filling him with my thoughts and he somehow comforted me? But there are times when he just smacked the harsh reality in my face. Oh well. At least he was honest right? Maybe I should do whatever he suggested me to do? I mean, to resign from my authority. I don't really want to be someone I'm not gonna be. Maybe it's because I've longed for someone to tell me to resign? Or that I found his advice wise? I'm not really sure.
It was an honest conversation. Now then I realize my weaknesses. And thanks to those who kinda talked to me after choir. It was like a wake up call, though I'm still not sure what to do now :X. Maybe I should just continue to seek advice from other people like Mortal, Dad, Blur Queen and the UGs (if their advice is useful).
Anyway, it's near midnight now! Gotta go and do my own stuff :X
Maybe it was a bad decision to have taken up this post in the first place.
I should really reconsider everything again.
But I wanna prove myself that I HAVE commitment.
I'm not sure right now.
Dad is an AWESOME PERSON (:.
Harsh but honest truths.
Perhaps better than those who tell me lies?
I'm not sure anymore.
I'm trying my best to trust you all over again.
Hoping things will work out.
It feels so much better confiding things with other people (:.
When you left I lost a part of me,
It's still so hard to believe.
Who am I gonna lean on when times are tough?
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place when there's nobody better?
I treat you like my best friend, but I know you don't.
It was really cool to have a friend like you (:
