It's a long way down.

You can't go around messing with other people's lives.
Maybe they'll find some truth in this pack of lies that you've brought them into.
I hate putting emoticons whenever I don't feel like it.
Was I too strong this week?

You know what,
It's two weeks already.
And I'm barely making it.
You should've received the hidden message whenever I looked at you.
Maybe you didn't notice at all.
And today,
I've realised.
That you know almost everything about me.
Like my hobbies, interests, etc.
But guess what?
I don't know anything about you.
Even if there were times I would start to rant stuff at you,
You were just there to listen,
but you did not tell me anything.
Not at all.
Did you know that it hurts whenever I want to tell you something,
but I'm always unsure whether you'll spread the stuff that I've told you.
Or that you'll speak out openly to all of them,
without sparing a thought for me?
Maybe you thought that since I started to exchange some words with you,
and you guessed that everything ended up like a great fairytale.
Well, that was a mistake that I never should've made.
It really sucks to be you now.

Perhaps I was right all along,
I should've just shut you out of my life long time ago.
I should've treated you like you've never existed at all.
One reason why I'm not doing stuff that I'm supposed to,
It's because I know that you'll be there,
laughing your ass off at whatever I'm doing.
Just like on that day,
You were supposed to speak.
But you didn't because of some reason.
And I thought that you were irreplaceable just for that 5 minutes.
And guess what?
We still lost in the end.
I don't really care whether you're like one of my best friends,
Or someone that is indispensable or irreplaceable.
I will just get over you,
and just live my life.
I never should've met you in the first place.
I should've said no to whatever she said to me.
You're like the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me.

So, if you're reading this,
If you ever realise that the person I'm talking about is you.
Please just leave me alone.
I won't trade my glances, or words to you any longer.
It might take forever to avoid you fully.
But I'ma start from today onwards,
just like how I started it two weeks ago.
The deal's off.
I don't want to wait until the end of the school term before you'll say stuff to me.
Oh wait,
WOULD YOU?
I'm not going to waste my time,
worrying about this friendship that I'm going to forsake.
Because right from the beginning until the end,
It was never going to happen.
Both you and I know that.

Hanging onto such an unbreakable thread.
That was not the kind of happy ending that I hoped for.
Maybe I was just running away from reality.
It was just wishful thinking on my part.
It's time that I snapped back to life.