This is as hard as it gets.
I didn't really get to see you today.
Your memory is breaking my heart.
I'll pretend I'm OK with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong.

How I wished I could rewind time.
Rewind whatever I done with you.
Rewind all the mistakes that I made.
Rewind all the times we spent together.

Is this what it feels to really Cry?

Gosh, yesterday was tiring.

Went to zoo with my aunt. Gotta babysit their kids, take photos of them playing in the water playground real close without letting the camera being wet and stuff.

But still, HAD LOTS OF FUN trying to find them ;D. Anyways, its my last time see-ing them since they went to universal studio today and tomorrow they'll be going to Bintan before going back to HK. Have a great time there eh? =D.

Then walked to Ben&Jerry to eat their super funky chunk fudge whatever. Its quite nice and its been a while since I last ate that ice-cream. I LOVE IT! =D.

Then walked walked walked. Took some pics, and I wanna put it up on FB as my PP ( Learned from Randy as Profile Pic. But still, my MSN pic more hotter okay? ) but then I realised some of them very unglam. So changed my mind.

Went home, fetched Daddy and oh yeah. Our car broke down yesterday before we wanted to go zoo =C. So had to take a Taxi.

Toa Payoh Mos Burger =D. Bro ate Ebi Rice, Mummy and Daddy ate Beef Rice, and I ate a Normal Hotdog ( Whatever you call it ). And my parents say that their french fries rocks =D. Then after that we bought Kaya for my aunt as a local delicacy to bring back to HK and enjoy ;D. Then go to Popular to buy my stationary. Like my new file, pencil case, Pen, Eraser, Scissors, Correction Tape, Pen Knife, Stapler and etc.

Then went home and tidied my bag, and ate Fried Rice. Talked in MSN for quite sometime, or more like disturbing other people T.T. Then sleep zZzZ.
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Today:

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy.
Get my glasses on the door, Im gonna hit this city.
Before I leave, I brush my teeth with the bottle of Jack.

Okay, those lines were from "Tik Tok" by Kesha. That totally explained the whole morning. And oh yeah, The situation at the bus stop.

- I reached for hand out to call for the bus to stop, so that I can board the bus.
- Then the bus just past by me.
- THE BUS DRIVER IGNORE ME! IM GONNA WRITE A COMPLAIN LETTER!

Yeah, Interesting eh? Then reached school =].

MY TABLE IS TAKEN BY CJ! NOOOO! And my table is like.. DIRTY! I hadda use my eraser to rub it so that its clean =D.

Then saw people copying homework. Or more like, Referring as the generations past by.
Lent Shaz, Yong Lin and Quenton.
Then accompanied Shaz to the locker and stuff ;D.
Faithful Neighbours FTW.
Morning Assembly Time. DM scold us for being noisy. Then they say what our name tag if order from Bookstore will be like.. Fabric Type. Then must sew into our uniform and cannot take out. Gosh, this is the first step to ban us from the shopping center Nex.. Zzz. I knew sooner or later this type of procedure will still happen.

Then gave Report Books back to Teacher, oh and Miss Ling went through the details of some competitions and lectured us about EL, and we doing more compre. OH GOSH.
But still, my aim is to get a B3. =]. Decent eh?

Then its GG! OMG. I LOVE MRS KOK! Usual punishments, and her handwriting improved =].

Maths: Started Chapter 3 and suddenly talked about WC. And Miss Lin now gives us "Practice Questions" instead of Homework.

ART: Omg, Mr Eckert ACCENT ROCKS! Love it to the max. The girls were like giggling and looking at him. But after a while, I got bored and really WAS restless. So i started to move around my stuff like some not controlled kiddo.

CL: Started on TB and already needa study for Mo Xie. T.T.

Science: WOOTS, IM NOT IN HER CLASS! But I needa make my score constant unlike last year, or else I will enter her class. But still, Physics is kinda hard for me!

Then had this Lit Workshop instead of choir. Gosh, People are now hating me cuz I skipped it. Im losing interest in choir day by day.

And then I totally understood more about Macbeth after the workshop. The activity's were fun like the Amazing Race. xD. Then I understood Macbeth more. Tragedy or Comedy? xD.

Then met up with Joyce at the Bus stop. And the concert is this Wednesday T.T. Okay, something bad is gonna happen. And I dont know what.

That's all folks! Gotta go now.
Bye!

Just came back last night from a dinner at East Coast. Well, as you all know my aunt from HK came.

- Bought a Ben 10 Magazine for Jason.
- Reached there at 8pm, and ordered some stuff to eat as we were really hungry :/.
- They reached at 9pm, after sitting the Singapore Flyer. =D
- Met some of their friends, like Mr Mohammad!
- Ate, and talked alot, like the happiness of the kids sitting together.
- And JASON TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE MY BRO WHEN HE WAS YOUNG. 90% OF EVERY DETAIL.
- But too bad :/, he had a sore throat infection.
- So can't eat anything. Aunt say he cant eat anything there, but due to my ADVICES,
- She relented a bit =D.
- Ate, ate, ate. And Mr Mohammad was like complimenting Singapore.
- Beauty, Security, Land, and Sites of Attraction.
- Compared them to HK.
- And we were like explaining to him.
- Then we ate until like 11pm?
- Then we booked 3 cabs for them and they went back to their hotel.
- We went home by car ;D.
- Reached home, Sms-ed and slept ;D.
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Hey Guys, Have you finished your Holiday HW? Hope you all did ;D.
Anyways, Im SOO SORRY to you if you ever read it. I feel guilty of speaking about him.

School is starting ;O.
I wonder when would I still be able to sleep that late!
Oh yeah, New playlist. Its only one song:
-> Russian Roulette by Rihanna.

Enjoy! And Bye!

Zzzz. Im very tired now. Later still needa go buffet and accompany my aunt who came from HK to visit us =D.

I can't seem to count well. Its like Ive been eating drugs. Gosh. I cant count how many laps i did, cant count bus stops. GOSH.

Although this is a temporary life;
Its still my life,
And its a riot.
So just pull the trigger.
As everything is just like,
A typical Russian Roulette.

Slow down. I cant rewind everything.

Wednesday:
- Went to Fullerton Hotel, Fullerton Building and One Fullerton for EL Project!
- It was super hot and shiny, and I wore Long sleeves, double layer and black.
- At first, people overslept. So we all had to postpone =].
- Jolene got there the earliest. And she said she was hungry, and she wanted ice-cream.
- Me treated her, along with Soya Bean for breakfast. YUM YUM.
- Then walked to our destinations.
- Walked one big round when the destination was like... 100m?
- Chatted a lot.
- Took many pics =].
- Then Fullerton Hotel. The air con is COLD =D.
- Took photo of almost everything.
- Wanted to take pics of conference rooms, but all were occupied =[.
- Then went to Gallery,Take photos, AND ESTHER AND JOLENE ARE VAMPIRES! xD.
- Finished pics, then went to find Fullerton Building, which is Fullerton Hotel.
- Took one photo and found one fullerton.
- THE UNDERPASS HAS ESCALATORS, TRAVELLATORS AND AIR-CON!!
- Wanted to eat there, but too ex. So went back after a pic at the Japanese Restaurant.
- Discussed where to eat..
- And then went bishan foodcourt, buy packed away stuff. And then go Yio Chu Kang.
- ESTHER'S HOUSE =DDD.
- Took bus there, and then walked one big slope. Very tiring.!!
- Reached there and ate first, while Ron and Esther upload pics into the Mac =D.
- COKE!
- And then finished eating then went up to the third floor.
- Did podcast with many pronunciation errors, stuttering, tripping on words, AND RAIN DROPS SOUNDS, We managed to get it right, compressed the background sounds!
- Esther played guitar ( Acoustic )
- Jolene was handling Ron's Phone.

- Once we are done, We played ESTHER'S ROCKBAND =D.
- I went to singing, or playing the guitar. Cuz my drum skills are a total failure.

- We practically played:
Bring me to life
Love Story
Picture To Burn
Just A Girl
You Belong With Me
She Will Be Loved
Dirty Little Secret
Kung Fu Fighting
So YESTERDAY <3
Beautiful Soul

And many more..

- Then when it was time to go, asked Esther help me photocopy my homework. THANKS =D
- Then bused home. Took bus to serangoon, alighted at correct station. Then went to kovan and mrt-ed home =D
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Yesterday :
- Woke up, played a bit. And homework-ed.
- Choir. Omg. Wanted to take the bus to Toa Payoh. Then took the bus to Serangoon.
- Chiong-ed MRT like 2 times?
- And then my daughters all abandon me.
- Followed my dear Seniors to Mayflower!
- And then Lynda's hand was bleeding. Cuz she almost fell on the bus like 3 times?
- Then I reached earlier than what Rowena expected! =D
- Sang, sang, sang.
- Actually the choir practice was not bad!
- Then practiced the order, and the presentation.
- Very messy, but if that's the quickest way.. Its alright =].
- Home-ed with my Daughters and Juniors =D.
- Ate toast box and they ate bread talk.
- Talked a lot of rumors and stuff. ( Gossip ) xD.
- Found out a lot of truths that I didnt realise.
- Then took bus home, before that me was talking to Joyce! =D

- On the way, Looked for Shaz's house as it was along the way.
HELLO SHAZ! ME WAS THERE =D
- Then went home, ate dinner.
- And found out my HOUSE NO INTERNET! GRRRR.
- Homework-ed and sms-ed. Since free outgoing and incoming xD.
- Then the sadded things happened.
- Thanks to those who knew what was going on and cheered me up.
- And to you. Yes, You. It was all my fault then. I shall learn to shoot after aiming correctly.
- Then slept around 11-12 after sms-ing.
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Argh, I feel sad today =C.

One more time, I'll say goodbye
But I cant move on, I go in circles, going down
And take these dreams,cause they're killing me
Hanging by a thread
And I dont know how to get unaddicted.

Omg. Yesterday's Class outing was Super hyper!

-Went to meet Rebekah at the Serangoon MRT at 1030.
- People were late, so we went off at 1100.
- Took the train to Bishan.
- Crapped a lot and talked about Bryan punishing Zong You =DD.
- Then when switching to NS line, got one MRT just passed by us without stopping on the station.
- Everyone went WTF?
- Waited, crapped and talked.
- Then the train arrived, and we had to SQUEEZE inside the MRT compartment.
- Then talked, crapped and waited for the train to arrive at destination.
- Clare was screaming with the girls, and we were like.. WHO ARE YOU? xD
- Then at Marina Bay, the train stopped before going on the platform. Everyone was like : WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE!!! MUMMY, SAVE ME! xD
- Walked, walked, walked! To the Shuttle Bus Station!
- Needed to wait for like 30 min. And some guys decided to walk to there alone. Bryan came along =DD
- Shuttle Bus arrived and Rebecca Loo and Xin Yi came on time to catch the bus too =D.
- And there you go, TO MARINA BARRAGE =D.
- Arrived, put our stuff on the floor one side. And started to change in the toilet.
- Went into the pool, and start to kick water to everyone. So FUNNN! ( Although Childish xD )
- Then we took the plastic bags and collected water. Then we dumped the water into our friends head, and we played with the volleyball and ball that Farizah and Rebekah brought!
- Then saw ________ dumping water onto _________. Wanted to revenge. So called all the boys to REVENGE!
- Played until like.. 2?
- Then we dried ourselves and changed.
- WE started to eat chips, marshmellows, sandwiches, and drink soft drinks =D.
- Then we started to play Truth Or Dare =D.
- I never tio the water bottle =D.
- Punishments were like:
-> Pulling people in the game.
-> Eating up a lot of salty potato chips for 10 seconds
-> Eating Elijiah's Cookies ( Burnt ).
-> Shaking hands with the Guard xD.
-> And etc.
- Then we all went to Marina Square.
- The girls abandon us and we went to movies/ bowling.
- THen because no one go bowling, then me and Ron go with Esther and Jolene for KBOX!
- Sang, scream and shout like crazy!

- We sang,
Wedding Dress
Bring me To life <3<3
Heartbreaker
Nobody
Sorry Sorry
So Yesterday <3
Come Clean
BOOM BOOM BOOM ( With ENCORE ) xD <3
He will be Loved
Hey There Delibah
Temporary Home <3
Jesus Take the Wheel
Already Gone =D
BARBIE GIRL! =DDDD
One Less Lonely Girl
Blah Blah Blah
BABY
BAD ROMANCE
Broken-Hearted Girl
And many more..

Then I went to Rebekah's room with all the other girls. And they were listening to Wedding Dress, without the singer singing. Helped them to activate the singer and THEY ALL SCREAMED!

Went back and continued our list of songs!
Then ron GTG, =C.
Then heard Rebekah and the girls SCREAM and sing Little Indians!

BOOM BOOM BOOOM!

Then we sang many more..
Until the time was up =C.
Boom Boom Boom, Already Gone and So Yesterday were our last 3 songs.
SAD! I WANT ANOTHER OUTING!

Then met up with guys! And then went home, cuz I gotta go home for dinner!
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Okay guys, GTG. Project Day today. BYE!

The City is sleeping, But I'm still awake.

I guess that is it, then?
I guess its over, right?
I can't say my usual quote.
Its Alright ; Its okay.
It's been months.
Many days.
Since we met.
You taught me stuff.
Stuff that even my parents can't teach me.
But looking at the vice-versa direction,
I doubt that I had taught you anything useful at ALL.
Maybe you think that I'm a hindrance.

I'm dreaming. I'm thinking.

I can't still think what impact I had made on you.
Maybe the impact of irritation,
Stupidity and ignorance?
Maybe I'm not even suitable to be your friend.
Nothing's ever turning out right.
And everything's now a mess.
Did time ever predicted this right?

What happened today, Is it right?

I said the wrong things.
Or it was something you said too.
I've done the wrong things.
Things that you would never forgive.
Or maybe its just vice-versa.
Looks like my wish upon a wishing star,
Would be like a chance,
That pigs can fly?

I fall into the night

Looks like that's it.
For all of us.
No more Hello,
Help, and Farewell.
Although we have this regretful moment of farewell,
As being friends over the years, months, and days,
I wish you all the best,
In whatever you do.

Don't stop running.

February fourteen
I'm feeling sad and lonely
Nobody here wants to hold me

This is so inside my mind =/. Ima ignore all my sec 3 seniors -,-.

I feel like smiling, but inside Im broken.
That was the biggest lie I have ever spoken.

Im not prepared to stand up. Im not prepared to face the obstacle. Save me from this insanity.

Somebody bring me back to life.

I don't want this to be a detour. I gotta be sure that you really mean what you say.

Its so hard to let you in, thinking you might step the brakes again.

I unapologize, I wont take back the way I feel about you. I meant every word that I said.

But, I'm not sure whether I should go for the class outing. I mean, she's going. But, sigh. Im in a big state of confusion. Im in a dilemma. I dont want this to be over, yet I dont want this to start.

But just that I want you to know, that you couldn't have loved me better.

Sorry if I am or was ignoring you. I am/was sleeping for a thousand years and forgot to open my eyes.

~ There's no me without you.~

So for tonight, We pray for what we know can be.

That quote is sticking in my mind. Sigh, feeling very lonely right now. Maybe it would just not come true. Its time.

I have enjoyed my first two weeks of my holidays. Now it is really the time to revise through the materials that I had really gone through. Even my maths paper. Even if I did well, my memory had faded.

Sigh.

How I wished there was school. But this holiday's for us to relax.

Well, Nothing much to post.

Bye.

Okay,Actually today was much normal, except for Swimming lessons.

Lets start from last night. OMG. I LOVE HARRY POTTER AGAIN <3!

Read, read, read until 2am last night.

Then woke up at noon. Wow, 10h. Jumped out from bed. And realised that people are OBSESSING OVER World Cup!

And then did the usual sms routine. Last night too. Anyways, People who I usually sms, you all are my very good friends. Anyways, Play, play, and play.

Then Swimming.

Okay, today timing was not bad. 100m! Banged into someone in the middle, and smelt blood. Lucky it wasnt mine!

~ The more boys I meet, the More I love my dog. ~

Then swam 20 laps in 30 min.

First 10 laps, Back-stroke.

Bumped into her MANY TIMES. And then she expected ( or more like wanted, for fun. ) More.

Yeah, And then did something really Pervertic ( Randy's opinion ) and uncivillised ( Mine ). Was swimming and then switched into frog-style. Then my leg went under her, And she liked the feeling! LOLS! Actually, a bit weird.

~ California Girls ~

Anyways, Short post today. Will review playlist and create a new one soon!

Good nights! Back to sms-ing.

Bye!

Sigh. Today was VERY moody and tired.

Choir. What could I say, I cant concentrate today. And I couldnt EVEN feel myself singing. Outrageous. Then I suddenly thought of her when I went SUPER SHARP! Omg. And then Mr Ong was like CONCENTRATE >:(. I tried my best already. And weining isnt here.

Sigh, Why does everyone have to entrust a secret with me! But some of them is confiding. But for some, its just for no reason. IM LIKE A BOTTLE THAT WILL BLOW UP ANY MOMENT!

But, Im being silenced SO WELL that I cant even speak anything! How I wished that I couldnt be trusted!

Okay, Homework time tomorrow! Really need to rush it out THOROUGHLY!

Now listening to " California Girls " by Katy Perry. Really catchy and cool.

Just to think of it, The best is coming up =D. One last choir practice and I could fling it around in any way or another. Gosh , I CANT KEEP MY FREAKING MOUTH SHUT! But nevermind, he can be trusted =D.

Oh, and Im changing my specs =D. Light blue I think!

AND,
I <3 Professor Dolores Umbridge type of DETENTION!

Signing off.

Let the emo me past by me! I got over it a long time ago! I should be able to overcome this obstacle again!

Its the June Holidays and that I made 2 new Good Friends =D.

Well, quite surprising though. More from Band =D. I think even my own CCA, i don't talk to much people except my daughters and NG WEI NING =D. And that She.. Made a prediction that I like HER. Omg, thats not true! Just because I ONLY sometimes call you that name doesnt mean that I like her okay? Besides, me like someone else already! And you know it yourself!

Choir practice yesterday was fun! Actually was VERY MOODY ytd, but it cheered me up =D. And Caitlin's the Sop 1 SL! YAY! But now got some things cannot tell her already! Haha, being an SL still requires Sacrifices!

And NG WEI NING!

ERASE THE STUFF I WROTE ON YOUR SCORES! ITS IN HEAVY CAUTION!!

Okay, listening to "Cant Be Tamed" by Miley Cyrus. Very nice song. <3 Techno and Country!

And Me is pissed! I cant believe I could spare so much anger on THAT! But I really hope that I could get it! =D. And not much people know! And DONT ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED, Or i would..

Smack your face, Punch your face HARD. Use a knife and slit open your stomach, then pouring Concentrated Sulphuric Acid Powder inside your stomach, and along with a few drops of WATER!

~ Can't Be Tamed ~.

I'm sophisticated.
Cool to the point of not feeling anything.
Things are rough all over.


That quote from " The Outsiders " kept ringing inside my mind. Its true. I can't feel anything much now. Its like my emotions were siphoned away from me.
I seemed to have lost interest in everything-Games, Music and etc.
All now I do is to just keep looking at my handphone, anticipating a message or a phone call to happen.
That Would Never Come True.
Maybe that was Just A Dream.
I suddenly had the urge to go shopping.
I felt like giving a lot of stuff away.
I don't feel like receiving already.
Right now Im just staring into thin air.
Nothing better to do.
I think Ima quit all those stuff I usually do.
Its time to grow up.
I thought that I was not myself Last Night.
But it IS me.
I cant feel anything now.
I have the urge to die.
Maybe leaping off a 60-storey high building.
I said all I had to say.
In letters that I threw away.

I felt like watching Letters To Juliet.
But, its over.
Now gotta wait for the DVD.
I wanna watch it Alone.

Lets Face it.
I have no friends.
Im stuck here in this Temporary Home.
I've been too evil.
This will be just a stop to where I would be really going.
How I wished that I was the old man lying on the Hospital Bed.
And that the room would be surrounded by people he loves.
And then I would wait for my dearest daughter to say goodbye to me.
That would never come true.
Just A Dream.
That was Just A Dream.

I had the Best Days of My Life,
And also the Worst Ones.
This roller-coaster ride of mine,
Would stop someday.
Sooner or later,
I'll pick sooner.
There is no point in living now.
Even if the tracks are long,
I wish that there would be a hole in it.
So that it would crash hard.

Hello people! Long time since I last posted. Well, this portion is specially for you =D.

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I like your smile. I like your eyes. I like you hairstyle. Your appearance always cheers me up =). Your voice makes me feel heaven on earth =). Your character is stunning, when you are kind and passionate to help others =). Like the timid you, which would be nervous of many things. Like the sneakiness of you using phones in class last year, which I found out and didn't report to the teacher =D. I like the times when we sat with each other every morning last time. When you feel happy, I will be happy. When you are down, I will be too.

So, Im asking public-ly in this blog, would you go out to the movies with me?

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Well, that was for her. Not for you all to read. Well, if you have already read that, its too late to do anything now right? Anyways here another portion for someone I know.

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Hey VintyBlue,
How are ya doing? Did you know that we would not have met if not for my dearest daughter to introduce you to me? It was a cool and pleasurable thing to meet you =D.
The stuff that I lent you, I may not want it back. Maybe you are the true owner of what I lent you. Really hope that you will enjoy yourself in this June Holidays =D. Oh yeah, PS. Please revive your blog. Its dead for quite a while =D.

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Okay, that was for him. Well, same thing if you "Accidentally" read it.

Here goes the post!

The worst thing that ever happened today was that my glasses broke! OMG!
Actually its not that bad, but it is BECAUSE I planned to do my Science and Maths Homework BY TODAY! AHHH! Save me from this insanity!

Okay, Changed the playlist! The first song is " Ave Maria " by Beyonce if you asked. Thanks Faithful Neighbour for recommending me the song =D.

Now i gotta go change my specs and do an eye-test. Me is doomed.

Okay, Bye everyone! Wont be posting in a while! But do remember to tagg =D.

Wow! Its been a week since I posted! Made many new friends!

OMG, Band totally rocks! Although their tough training practices and stuff, but the members are really nice =D.

This week has been a slack one. Nothing much to do! Just playing computer and stuff! And now gonna learn how to play Storm Spirit from a person which will give me advice and stuff.

And we had many choir practices this week! 3 ! xD! But the one in Mayflower is nice =D.

Girls are:
-Hyper
-Crazy
-Unacceptable
-Uncivilized
-Weird!

Yeah, thats my impression on them in Mayflower! But they are VERY friendly =D. Met up with the girl named Antel ( Sorry if I spell wrongly! ), which I taught her how to sing Shenandoah! She totally recognized me! But her face looks for mature and spirited! Bet last year she was totally emo-ing. =D. And both of us are still in Sop 1 =D.

Today's choir practice! Sops was loud today, as always =D. They seem supported and stuff. Then finished the two combined pieces =D. And this is my quote for someone who totally insulted me just now.

" My voice was not straining over that high note >=(. Just because your in Baritone now and cant sing those high notes, don't drag me along, you B****! "

Then sms-ed. Yeah, very slack.

Speaking of slack, have you all started your HW? I haven't. Planned to finish it by Next week =D. Then projects FTW!

Oh, and to my two daughters,

Good luck for your CIP trip or whatever you are all planning for dancing and singing =D. Kinda eavesdrop-ed.

Now listening to Animal! Maybe next week I would change the playlist!

Celebrity News:

- Summer Time, celebrities are showing their beach bodies. Eg. Justin Bieber, Ke$ha and Mariah Carey ( She looks fat there. No offenses intended. )

- Alicia Keys is pregnant.

- Lee Dewyze won American Idol. ( Crystal should have won =( )

Yeah, and the top for Hot 100 is Still "OMG" by Usher.

Enjoy your holidays and goodbye! =D