It's time to face the facts,
that I was the one that got away.
Hmm. That was a really emotional post just now. Wanted to really dump a heavy load of feelings into this blog. Oh and by the way, I'm trying to minimise the amount of emoticons I'm going to use on this blog from today onwards. Why? That's because I see no point in faking those emoticons to fill in the missing gaps in the posts that I make especially when I don't even feel like using them.
Went for practice with my friends just now. I think this event really bonded us all. And that's pretty cool. Anyway, I'm so glad that we managed to finish the combined part. And I had Caramel Milk Tea!
Anyway, check out this cool song from Pia Toscano ( 9th place finalist of American Idol ). Glad that she came back stronger than ever.
This time, I'ma do it my way.
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The problem was never on them.
It was yourself all along.
Please earn some respect.
Stop saying that I abuse my power,
when you are trying to overpower me.
And honestly,
Stop prying about your capabilities.
You may be a good sportman,
or you may have good qualities.
You know what?
I think those are just lies.
If you really hated this place,
why did you join in the first place?
Why won't you just scram,
so that I don't hear your bitching any longer.
Oh, and why won't you leave?
The reason you give us is pathetic.
You never had this opportunity.
You never had those qualities that you brag about all day long.
You know what?
They were right all along.
You're just a typical hypocrite.
At least have some decency to cover your tracks before making another lie or an excuse.
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Hmm. Anyway, moving on! There're common tests this week! Gotta study hard and do well! Especially for some of the most passionate/friendly teachers I have this year!
Well, it's time for me to do my homework, or to revise. See you all around some time!
The thought of both of you simply irks me.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
It's a long way down.
You can't go around messing with other people's lives.
Maybe they'll find some truth in this pack of lies that you've brought them into.
I hate putting emoticons whenever I don't feel like it.
Was I too strong this week?
You know what,
It's two weeks already.
And I'm barely making it.
You should've received the hidden message whenever I looked at you.
Maybe you didn't notice at all.
And today,
I've realised.
That you know almost everything about me.
Like my hobbies, interests, etc.
But guess what?
I don't know anything about you.
Even if there were times I would start to rant stuff at you,
You were just there to listen,
but you did not tell me anything.
Not at all.
Did you know that it hurts whenever I want to tell you something,
but I'm always unsure whether you'll spread the stuff that I've told you.
Or that you'll speak out openly to all of them,
without sparing a thought for me?
Maybe you thought that since I started to exchange some words with you,
and you guessed that everything ended up like a great fairytale.
Well, that was a mistake that I never should've made.
It really sucks to be you now.
Perhaps I was right all along,
I should've just shut you out of my life long time ago.
I should've treated you like you've never existed at all.
One reason why I'm not doing stuff that I'm supposed to,
It's because I know that you'll be there,
laughing your ass off at whatever I'm doing.
Just like on that day,
You were supposed to speak.
But you didn't because of some reason.
And I thought that you were irreplaceable just for that 5 minutes.
And guess what?
We still lost in the end.
I don't really care whether you're like one of my best friends,
Or someone that is indispensable or irreplaceable.
I will just get over you,
and just live my life.
I never should've met you in the first place.
I should've said no to whatever she said to me.
You're like the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
So, if you're reading this,
If you ever realise that the person I'm talking about is you.
Please just leave me alone.
I won't trade my glances, or words to you any longer.
It might take forever to avoid you fully.
But I'ma start from today onwards,
just like how I started it two weeks ago.
The deal's off.
I don't want to wait until the end of the school term before you'll say stuff to me.
Oh wait,
WOULD YOU?
I'm not going to waste my time,
worrying about this friendship that I'm going to forsake.
Because right from the beginning until the end,
It was never going to happen.
Both you and I know that.
Hanging onto such an unbreakable thread.
That was not the kind of happy ending that I hoped for.
Maybe I was just running away from reality.
It was just wishful thinking on my part.
It's time that I snapped back to life.
You can't go around messing with other people's lives.
Maybe they'll find some truth in this pack of lies that you've brought them into.
I hate putting emoticons whenever I don't feel like it.
Was I too strong this week?
You know what,
It's two weeks already.
And I'm barely making it.
You should've received the hidden message whenever I looked at you.
Maybe you didn't notice at all.
And today,
I've realised.
That you know almost everything about me.
Like my hobbies, interests, etc.
But guess what?
I don't know anything about you.
Even if there were times I would start to rant stuff at you,
You were just there to listen,
but you did not tell me anything.
Not at all.
Did you know that it hurts whenever I want to tell you something,
but I'm always unsure whether you'll spread the stuff that I've told you.
Or that you'll speak out openly to all of them,
without sparing a thought for me?
Maybe you thought that since I started to exchange some words with you,
and you guessed that everything ended up like a great fairytale.
Well, that was a mistake that I never should've made.
It really sucks to be you now.
Perhaps I was right all along,
I should've just shut you out of my life long time ago.
I should've treated you like you've never existed at all.
One reason why I'm not doing stuff that I'm supposed to,
It's because I know that you'll be there,
laughing your ass off at whatever I'm doing.
Just like on that day,
You were supposed to speak.
But you didn't because of some reason.
And I thought that you were irreplaceable just for that 5 minutes.
And guess what?
We still lost in the end.
I don't really care whether you're like one of my best friends,
Or someone that is indispensable or irreplaceable.
I will just get over you,
and just live my life.
I never should've met you in the first place.
I should've said no to whatever she said to me.
You're like the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
So, if you're reading this,
If you ever realise that the person I'm talking about is you.
Please just leave me alone.
I won't trade my glances, or words to you any longer.
It might take forever to avoid you fully.
But I'ma start from today onwards,
just like how I started it two weeks ago.
The deal's off.
I don't want to wait until the end of the school term before you'll say stuff to me.
Oh wait,
WOULD YOU?
I'm not going to waste my time,
worrying about this friendship that I'm going to forsake.
Because right from the beginning until the end,
It was never going to happen.
Both you and I know that.
Hanging onto such an unbreakable thread.
That was not the kind of happy ending that I hoped for.
Maybe I was just running away from reality.
It was just wishful thinking on my part.
It's time that I snapped back to life.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Take time to realize.
So sorry for not posting for a couple of days! Been busy catching up with my homework. And there's biology test later T.T. Really hope that I can do well in it!
Anyway, had debate on Tuesday. We kinda lost. By 2 points. Well, it was kinda expected that we'll lose, but the gap's just too small. Had fun congratulating the opposition team in their victory! (:.
And then we went to Music Room for something (:. At least we settled some of them that day (:. We made progress! And that's a good sign!
Went home feeling tired, but had to do some homework before going to sleep at 2am ._.?
Wednesday was pretty fine for me. I think I was too tired that I kinda dozed off during Chemistry and a bit of HCL. Oh well. And EL lesson was awesome (:. Haha, some secret stuff! ><. And there's Emaths! I <3 MRS NG! She's too awesome to be true :D.
I forgot to bring my physics file to school though. Oh well.
And after that, we went to the Genefest and Guess what? I WENT WITH DIANA :D. Haha, totally miss her loads D:.
The plan of going to KOI was ruined because Mr Chong wanted us to return back to school first, but at least we hanged out at Nex! :D
Sorry for the short post today, but I am like really tired now :X. Promise that I'll give you all a longer post sometime soon (:. BYE :D.
What's the point of apologizing when the damage's done?
So sorry for not posting for a couple of days! Been busy catching up with my homework. And there's biology test later T.T. Really hope that I can do well in it!
Anyway, had debate on Tuesday. We kinda lost. By 2 points. Well, it was kinda expected that we'll lose, but the gap's just too small. Had fun congratulating the opposition team in their victory! (:.
And then we went to Music Room for something (:. At least we settled some of them that day (:. We made progress! And that's a good sign!
Went home feeling tired, but had to do some homework before going to sleep at 2am ._.?
Wednesday was pretty fine for me. I think I was too tired that I kinda dozed off during Chemistry and a bit of HCL. Oh well. And EL lesson was awesome (:. Haha, some secret stuff! ><. And there's Emaths! I <3 MRS NG! She's too awesome to be true :D.
I forgot to bring my physics file to school though. Oh well.
And after that, we went to the Genefest and Guess what? I WENT WITH DIANA :D. Haha, totally miss her loads D:.
The plan of going to KOI was ruined because Mr Chong wanted us to return back to school first, but at least we hanged out at Nex! :D
Sorry for the short post today, but I am like really tired now :X. Promise that I'll give you all a longer post sometime soon (:. BYE :D.
What's the point of apologizing when the damage's done?
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
The day a door was closed.
The echoes fill your soul.
They won't say which way to go.
Just trust your heart.
To find you're here for,
Open Another Door.
But I'm not sure anymore.
It's just so hard.
Been reading through some blogs recently.
And I would say that Rebekah's post definitely caught my attention.
People who are like parallel lines would not have the chance or the opportunity to see/do something they like.
But people who meet once would never meet again.
Isn't that sad too?
If you meet this person who seemed to be an essential part of your life,
and before it really hits you,
Things start to tumble down like dominoes.
Some people say that I should trust and believe in myself, as well as my own decisions.
But has anyone of you experienced a situation when your heart tells you both sides of the story?
Which path do you take then?
Would you try to fly, even when you couldn't find wings?
Or would you continue to journey in this ship that's crashing down?
How I wished my heart didn't have a septum in times like this.
Then I would be one-sided in my decision making.
To choose and live my life without any regrets or disappointment.
There's no point clinging to high hopes when you know that they'll all fall down eventually.
Things started to get a little bit complicated for me.
First it was CCA problems.
Second, it was Friendship problems.
Now, they're affecting my studies.
I have to set my priorities straight.
Maybe what they've said is true.
Perhaps I have changed quite a bit over these last few months searching for something that could never be found in the first place.
And in the process, I think I've lost my old self.
Now, I'm struggling to find that remaining piece of myself and put it back to where it belonged.
I'm sorry for what I did to you this morning.
I didn't know how to react to this incident.
Maybe it was because I was emotional or angry when you told me about that.
Anyway, when I unblocked you for a while,
You talked to me.
Does that mean something?
I've never heard silence quite this loud.
Maybe this silence isn't working at all.
It's just straining this friendship.
I'm not really sure about it anymore.
The echoes fill your soul.
They won't say which way to go.
Just trust your heart.
To find you're here for,
Open Another Door.
But I'm not sure anymore.
It's just so hard.
Been reading through some blogs recently.
And I would say that Rebekah's post definitely caught my attention.
People who are like parallel lines would not have the chance or the opportunity to see/do something they like.
But people who meet once would never meet again.
Isn't that sad too?
If you meet this person who seemed to be an essential part of your life,
and before it really hits you,
Things start to tumble down like dominoes.
Some people say that I should trust and believe in myself, as well as my own decisions.
But has anyone of you experienced a situation when your heart tells you both sides of the story?
Which path do you take then?
Would you try to fly, even when you couldn't find wings?
Or would you continue to journey in this ship that's crashing down?
How I wished my heart didn't have a septum in times like this.
Then I would be one-sided in my decision making.
To choose and live my life without any regrets or disappointment.
There's no point clinging to high hopes when you know that they'll all fall down eventually.
Things started to get a little bit complicated for me.
First it was CCA problems.
Second, it was Friendship problems.
Now, they're affecting my studies.
I have to set my priorities straight.
Maybe what they've said is true.
Perhaps I have changed quite a bit over these last few months searching for something that could never be found in the first place.
And in the process, I think I've lost my old self.
Now, I'm struggling to find that remaining piece of myself and put it back to where it belonged.
I'm sorry for what I did to you this morning.
I didn't know how to react to this incident.
Maybe it was because I was emotional or angry when you told me about that.
Anyway, when I unblocked you for a while,
You talked to me.
Does that mean something?
I've never heard silence quite this loud.
Maybe this silence isn't working at all.
It's just straining this friendship.
I'm not really sure about it anymore.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I'll put on a show.
Hey, it's been a moody friday for me! Was totally emotional during the first few periods.. Maybe not.. Because there're awesome people who sits around me during the banded classes to cheer me up! :D. But honestly, I was like seriously in a bad mood for HCL. D:. And I managed to score full marks for my spelling! I know that sounds elementary, but to be the only person who managed to do that means so much to me :D.
And then there's choir. Was quite okay. Became so much happier because of something that happened earlier! Haha, and RANNNN. The Vice-Pres kept teasing me ><. And I was a little sharp today! D:. Oh well, at least I had fun doing warm-ups, and I completely forgot to give the sops some high notes to sing! Haha (:.
And there's NDP Dance practice. Kinda helped the SLs in their duty. I think I was a little bit mean to them, as I was supposed to help them (I think), but usually its the SLs that settle the dancesteps. Oh well.
After that, I booked the music room for some PURPOSES (:. And was introduced to this thing which seemed pretty .. _________. AND WE HAD TO DO IT. GOSH. And Edmund was asking me why am I so enthusiastic about it. Well, I hope it's a sweet sacrifice for the class (:.
Went home at around 8pm? And the school looks so cool and eerie at that moment of time (:. I like it (:. Talked a lot to my 'bodyguards' along the way (:. Haha, and realised that I got piles of homework to do T.T. Oh well.
Wanted to talk to mortal last night, but I fell asleep as I was totally exhausted.. D:. SORRY MORTAL! I'll make it up to you tonight okay? :D.
Woke up at around 8am today. Haha :D. And went down for breakfast! AND GOSH, IM ADDICTED TO COOKING MAMA IN FACEBOOK RIGHT NOW! It's so addictive ><
Wanted to settle debate stuff today. AND IM ONLY HALFWAY COMPLETE D:. Need to get it done!
Oh, and went for tuition today :D. And the smiley face is for the stuff I bought after that! :D.
But honestly, do anyone of you face difficulties in managing your money?
I FACE LOADS OF THEM EVERYDAY.
People tell me to like,
Sort of distinguish my wants and needs.
But apparently, everything becomes a need to me.
Spent $40 today.
Totally exceeded my budget.
BUT IT'S TOTALLY WORTH IT <3. It's just this once, and it'll become twice.
It's been one week.
Guess it's a source of inspiration for me to keep holding on?
I have to face you on Tuesday.
I'm not sure what to say to you.
Maybe I'll just get things done.
I guess this marks the end.
I thought you won't be here yesterday.
Until you showed up before that lesson.
Fill me with your poison.
Stun me with your laser.
Hey, it's been a moody friday for me! Was totally emotional during the first few periods.. Maybe not.. Because there're awesome people who sits around me during the banded classes to cheer me up! :D. But honestly, I was like seriously in a bad mood for HCL. D:. And I managed to score full marks for my spelling! I know that sounds elementary, but to be the only person who managed to do that means so much to me :D.
And then there's choir. Was quite okay. Became so much happier because of something that happened earlier! Haha, and RANNNN. The Vice-Pres kept teasing me ><. And I was a little sharp today! D:. Oh well, at least I had fun doing warm-ups, and I completely forgot to give the sops some high notes to sing! Haha (:.
And there's NDP Dance practice. Kinda helped the SLs in their duty. I think I was a little bit mean to them, as I was supposed to help them (I think), but usually its the SLs that settle the dancesteps. Oh well.
After that, I booked the music room for some PURPOSES (:. And was introduced to this thing which seemed pretty .. _________. AND WE HAD TO DO IT. GOSH. And Edmund was asking me why am I so enthusiastic about it. Well, I hope it's a sweet sacrifice for the class (:.
Went home at around 8pm? And the school looks so cool and eerie at that moment of time (:. I like it (:. Talked a lot to my 'bodyguards' along the way (:. Haha, and realised that I got piles of homework to do T.T. Oh well.
Wanted to talk to mortal last night, but I fell asleep as I was totally exhausted.. D:. SORRY MORTAL! I'll make it up to you tonight okay? :D.
Woke up at around 8am today. Haha :D. And went down for breakfast! AND GOSH, IM ADDICTED TO COOKING MAMA IN FACEBOOK RIGHT NOW! It's so addictive ><
Wanted to settle debate stuff today. AND IM ONLY HALFWAY COMPLETE D:. Need to get it done!
Oh, and went for tuition today :D. And the smiley face is for the stuff I bought after that! :D.
But honestly, do anyone of you face difficulties in managing your money?
I FACE LOADS OF THEM EVERYDAY.
People tell me to like,
Sort of distinguish my wants and needs.
But apparently, everything becomes a need to me.
Spent $40 today.
Totally exceeded my budget.
BUT IT'S TOTALLY WORTH IT <3. It's just this once, and it'll become twice.
It's been one week.
Guess it's a source of inspiration for me to keep holding on?
I have to face you on Tuesday.
I'm not sure what to say to you.
Maybe I'll just get things done.
I guess this marks the end.
I thought you won't be here yesterday.
Until you showed up before that lesson.
Fill me with your poison.
Stun me with your laser.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Can it be revived?
I think my sleep really affects my mood and thoughts.
I can't really think properly now :X.
Let alone doing homework or to study.
Sigh, I guess that's the life of a Sec 3.
Anyway, had some practice with classmates in Music Room 3 (:.
I think that really bonded us together even more :D.
And it kinda reminds me of my childhood memories.
Maybe I should stop thinking about the problems I'm currently facing for a while.
My brain is dysfunctional now.
But whenever I see you,
I will always recall the past.
To have thought I wrote about you at least once a month since I've met you.
Perseverance.
I forgot the meaning of that word today.
I think my sleep really affects my mood and thoughts.
I can't really think properly now :X.
Let alone doing homework or to study.
Sigh, I guess that's the life of a Sec 3.
Anyway, had some practice with classmates in Music Room 3 (:.
I think that really bonded us together even more :D.
And it kinda reminds me of my childhood memories.
Maybe I should stop thinking about the problems I'm currently facing for a while.
My brain is dysfunctional now.
But whenever I see you,
I will always recall the past.
To have thought I wrote about you at least once a month since I've met you.
Perseverance.
I forgot the meaning of that word today.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect at all.
Hey, it's been like ages since I last blogged! My apologies for that xD. Been busy with my pile of homework and projects! D:. Anyway, there was KBOX on sunday ^^.
Met Adeline, Ron and Jue Ying at AMK Hub around 10.30am? But I went there earlier because I wanted to look for a honeylemon shop! :D. Anyway, met Ron afterwards and I wanted to buy breakfast, as I was rushing to AMK hub on that day because I woke up like.. super late? Moving on, We then went to NTUC to buy some snacks ^^. Haha, and we've decided to buy this enormous packet of chips, prawn crackers and a large bottle of green tea!
And so we headed down to Broadway Plaza. Gosh, I was sweating like crazy T.T. Anyway, we were walking halfway and commenting on many stuffs~ And realised that there was band performance nearby at 2pm ^^. And when we were reaching Broadway Plaza, Rebecca called and she could join in! :D. YAY!
There was a long queue. Kinda unexpected :X. I didn't really book the room because I thought that AMK's KBOX would be quite deserted? Well, I was kinda wrong right? So we went into room '13'! :D. Hmm.. The first song was Single Ladies. Was singing it with Adeline! :D. Haha!~
So we went through many songs, like : Womanizer, California Gurls, Firework, Tik Tok, Come Clean, So Yesterday, This Love, Super Bass, Angels Cry, Touch my Body, Bye bye, Party Rock Anthem etc.
We were like super high~. And I personally think that Jue Ying sounds super cute when she sang her two songs. :D. Looks like somebody has good vocal talents huh? :D.
And there came our lunch in KBOX. We didn't want it at first, but it was kinda compulsory. The bento set came first, and the girls were like saying that the food was too salty :X. Oh well, lucky we've brought our own snacks ^^.
CHICKEN CURRY RICE :D. Haha, I love the curry, but hate the rice. Hmm.. Maybe that was because the food was micro-waved and ready-made. Hmm. And we started to jump like crazy! Haha. But I think the highlights were :
California Gurls : I kept laughing when I was singing :X.
Touch My Body : We were screaming over that song.
Womanizer : JY was asking why Britney Spears was naked or something. HAHA.
Party Rock Anthem : We were jumping like crazy and Ron was shuffling.
Hehe :D. AND I MANAGED TO COMPLETE ANGELS CRY. Haha, I thought I couldn't do it as Mariah Carey's voice was too high :X.
So, time flew by and it was already 2pm. JY and Rebecca got to go D:. So the remaining three of us rushed to AMK library to catch the band performance! :D. And they bought Ice-Cream! :D
Adeline was admiring the setting of the place. And when Band performed, the three of us were cheering like crazy. Haha (:. And we waited of CJ before heading back to AMK hub to eat.
And we were like stoning at the food court, as we were eating super slowly. AND MAYBE teasing one another. All I know is that if Adeline owns a bakery, she should tell me the company's name and address, so that I WON'T PATRONIZE IN THE FUTURE (:. Then, we were talking about school. About our various problems and stuff. And I think we managed to solve them? :D.
Went back home and started to do my homework :X. Luckily, I managed to finish them before turning in (:.
Monday : Was quite tiring for me, as there was like double period for EL. D: Anyway, we had chinese! I think I'm starting to develop an interest in chinese! I mean, as long you finish your homework, everything's fine right? :D.
And we had geog. Gosh, I think I should stop the habit of talking to my ex-classmates in banded lessons. I mean, EL is used for bonding with Clare, and Geog with Rebecca? It's cool! But I gotta learn how to concentrate! D:.
Physics lesson was the last 4 periods ( including SSP ). Apparently, I've done very well for my class test. GOSH, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? And I feel kinda sad for those who sat around me. I mean like, they've done quite badly. I really didn't know what to do to cheer them up D:.
And there was SPA! Haha, was quite easy for me. I think :X. but it was stuffy. And that's why I hate the physics lab! The graph was quite okay for me too :D. And guess what? There were some people who went KOI after that! D:. And I HAD CHOIR. That's totally unacceptable right?! I mean, if I wasn't the president, maybe I would go KOI! (:. I MISS THE HONEY MILK TEA D:.
Oh and there's choir. ._.
If only I could confide the problems inside my CCA without him/her letting them all out :X.
After that, I went back home. :D. And did homework once again. D:. The homework stress is just too compounding for me to handle.
BUT... I MANAGED TO SLEEP EARLY! Because there was listening comprehension examination on Tuesday!
Went to school like around 6.30am? And changed into my contacts right away! :D. And waited for Mr Goh for quite sometime as we needed the costumes from him ^^. Then, we changed! :D. OMG. And honestly, I think Sarah looks pretty and cute in that costume. Haha! :D. Proceeded to the Hall after that! (:.
Got briefed and checked the microphone volume. After that, we went backstage and waited until it was time for us to do the modelling. ><. But it was quite fun backstage! :D. Talking to like almost all the sec 3s (:.
And it was time for me to go on stage with Sarah! I think our first and last posts were quite scandalous T.T. And Mrs Ng said that we looked like husband and wife!
Anyway, I think the whole concert ended earlier than expected. MISS TING IS SO CUTE <3.
Proceeded on with lessons (:. Was practically not doing anything during English. I didn't really know what to do. Can't really comprehend the teacher's lessons nowadays.
AND I FAILED MY MOCK LISTENING COMPREHENSION TEST. I WAS DEPRESSED. Well, that was because I couldn't hear the audio clearly. T.T. Anyway, we had PE after that, AND I PLAYED BADMINTON WITH GREGORY :D. Was trying to train my left hand.
I think I wanna be left handed. :D. I mean, I was born one but just raised as a right handed. Oh well.
We then had biology, which was super awesome! Completed the whole chapter on transport in humans (:. And went through some WB questions. After that was Chemistry, went through the test paper. I made some careless mistakes :X. But Miss Ong said I was quite okay. Oh well.
And then, I went Macs with Kah Wai :D. Discussed Oral stuff, and somehow predicted the themes that might be coming out for the LC examination later. I'm falling in love with the Cinnamon Melts <3.
Hmm. Went back to school and cleared our stuff before entering the examination room. And guess what was playing our LC examination passages? THE RADIO! It's like super cool right?! Anyway, the exam was quite okay for me. There were some tricky questions though :X.
Went back home and met Jue Ying along the way. Discussed our answers before I caught my bus. :D. I WANT KOI!!! There were SOME people who went there today AGAIN. Even after yesterday's incident. That's totally unacceptable, uncivilized and unforgivable!
Went back home and did my homework! And now I'm blogging right here at midnight :X. Okay, Gotta catch some sleep now. Nights :D.
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking, you're irreplaceable.
But when I'm with him, I am thinking of you.
I have to make a stand for my decisions.
If i give in to my feelings, nothing would ever be accomplished,
And I would never know the truth.
Maybe you realised it today.
I was somehow trying to avoid you.
Thinking that you've solved most of my personal problems,
I can't really bear to do that to you.
6 weeks.
That's the amount of time you have.
If you ever realised about what is happening,
You would tell me personally and honestly.
If not,
Perhaps I was right all along.
Hey, it's been like ages since I last blogged! My apologies for that xD. Been busy with my pile of homework and projects! D:. Anyway, there was KBOX on sunday ^^.
Met Adeline, Ron and Jue Ying at AMK Hub around 10.30am? But I went there earlier because I wanted to look for a honeylemon shop! :D. Anyway, met Ron afterwards and I wanted to buy breakfast, as I was rushing to AMK hub on that day because I woke up like.. super late? Moving on, We then went to NTUC to buy some snacks ^^. Haha, and we've decided to buy this enormous packet of chips, prawn crackers and a large bottle of green tea!
And so we headed down to Broadway Plaza. Gosh, I was sweating like crazy T.T. Anyway, we were walking halfway and commenting on many stuffs~ And realised that there was band performance nearby at 2pm ^^. And when we were reaching Broadway Plaza, Rebecca called and she could join in! :D. YAY!
There was a long queue. Kinda unexpected :X. I didn't really book the room because I thought that AMK's KBOX would be quite deserted? Well, I was kinda wrong right? So we went into room '13'! :D. Hmm.. The first song was Single Ladies. Was singing it with Adeline! :D. Haha!~
So we went through many songs, like : Womanizer, California Gurls, Firework, Tik Tok, Come Clean, So Yesterday, This Love, Super Bass, Angels Cry, Touch my Body, Bye bye, Party Rock Anthem etc.
We were like super high~. And I personally think that Jue Ying sounds super cute when she sang her two songs. :D. Looks like somebody has good vocal talents huh? :D.
And there came our lunch in KBOX. We didn't want it at first, but it was kinda compulsory. The bento set came first, and the girls were like saying that the food was too salty :X. Oh well, lucky we've brought our own snacks ^^.
CHICKEN CURRY RICE :D. Haha, I love the curry, but hate the rice. Hmm.. Maybe that was because the food was micro-waved and ready-made. Hmm. And we started to jump like crazy! Haha. But I think the highlights were :
California Gurls : I kept laughing when I was singing :X.
Touch My Body : We were screaming over that song.
Womanizer : JY was asking why Britney Spears was naked or something. HAHA.
Party Rock Anthem : We were jumping like crazy and Ron was shuffling.
Hehe :D. AND I MANAGED TO COMPLETE ANGELS CRY. Haha, I thought I couldn't do it as Mariah Carey's voice was too high :X.
So, time flew by and it was already 2pm. JY and Rebecca got to go D:. So the remaining three of us rushed to AMK library to catch the band performance! :D. And they bought Ice-Cream! :D
Adeline was admiring the setting of the place. And when Band performed, the three of us were cheering like crazy. Haha (:. And we waited of CJ before heading back to AMK hub to eat.
And we were like stoning at the food court, as we were eating super slowly. AND MAYBE teasing one another. All I know is that if Adeline owns a bakery, she should tell me the company's name and address, so that I WON'T PATRONIZE IN THE FUTURE (:. Then, we were talking about school. About our various problems and stuff. And I think we managed to solve them? :D.
Went back home and started to do my homework :X. Luckily, I managed to finish them before turning in (:.
Monday : Was quite tiring for me, as there was like double period for EL. D: Anyway, we had chinese! I think I'm starting to develop an interest in chinese! I mean, as long you finish your homework, everything's fine right? :D.
And we had geog. Gosh, I think I should stop the habit of talking to my ex-classmates in banded lessons. I mean, EL is used for bonding with Clare, and Geog with Rebecca? It's cool! But I gotta learn how to concentrate! D:.
Physics lesson was the last 4 periods ( including SSP ). Apparently, I've done very well for my class test. GOSH, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? And I feel kinda sad for those who sat around me. I mean like, they've done quite badly. I really didn't know what to do to cheer them up D:.
And there was SPA! Haha, was quite easy for me. I think :X. but it was stuffy. And that's why I hate the physics lab! The graph was quite okay for me too :D. And guess what? There were some people who went KOI after that! D:. And I HAD CHOIR. That's totally unacceptable right?! I mean, if I wasn't the president, maybe I would go KOI! (:. I MISS THE HONEY MILK TEA D:.
Oh and there's choir. ._.
If only I could confide the problems inside my CCA without him/her letting them all out :X.
After that, I went back home. :D. And did homework once again. D:. The homework stress is just too compounding for me to handle.
BUT... I MANAGED TO SLEEP EARLY! Because there was listening comprehension examination on Tuesday!
Went to school like around 6.30am? And changed into my contacts right away! :D. And waited for Mr Goh for quite sometime as we needed the costumes from him ^^. Then, we changed! :D. OMG. And honestly, I think Sarah looks pretty and cute in that costume. Haha! :D. Proceeded to the Hall after that! (:.
Got briefed and checked the microphone volume. After that, we went backstage and waited until it was time for us to do the modelling. ><. But it was quite fun backstage! :D. Talking to like almost all the sec 3s (:.
And it was time for me to go on stage with Sarah! I think our first and last posts were quite scandalous T.T. And Mrs Ng said that we looked like husband and wife!
Anyway, I think the whole concert ended earlier than expected. MISS TING IS SO CUTE <3.
Proceeded on with lessons (:. Was practically not doing anything during English. I didn't really know what to do. Can't really comprehend the teacher's lessons nowadays.
AND I FAILED MY MOCK LISTENING COMPREHENSION TEST. I WAS DEPRESSED. Well, that was because I couldn't hear the audio clearly. T.T. Anyway, we had PE after that, AND I PLAYED BADMINTON WITH GREGORY :D. Was trying to train my left hand.
I think I wanna be left handed. :D. I mean, I was born one but just raised as a right handed. Oh well.
We then had biology, which was super awesome! Completed the whole chapter on transport in humans (:. And went through some WB questions. After that was Chemistry, went through the test paper. I made some careless mistakes :X. But Miss Ong said I was quite okay. Oh well.
And then, I went Macs with Kah Wai :D. Discussed Oral stuff, and somehow predicted the themes that might be coming out for the LC examination later. I'm falling in love with the Cinnamon Melts <3.
Hmm. Went back to school and cleared our stuff before entering the examination room. And guess what was playing our LC examination passages? THE RADIO! It's like super cool right?! Anyway, the exam was quite okay for me. There were some tricky questions though :X.
Went back home and met Jue Ying along the way. Discussed our answers before I caught my bus. :D. I WANT KOI!!! There were SOME people who went there today AGAIN. Even after yesterday's incident. That's totally unacceptable, uncivilized and unforgivable!
Went back home and did my homework! And now I'm blogging right here at midnight :X. Okay, Gotta catch some sleep now. Nights :D.
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking, you're irreplaceable.
But when I'm with him, I am thinking of you.
I have to make a stand for my decisions.
If i give in to my feelings, nothing would ever be accomplished,
And I would never know the truth.
Maybe you realised it today.
I was somehow trying to avoid you.
Thinking that you've solved most of my personal problems,
I can't really bear to do that to you.
6 weeks.
That's the amount of time you have.
If you ever realised about what is happening,
You would tell me personally and honestly.
If not,
Perhaps I was right all along.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Like you ever cared.
I'm glad to have someone that had went through what I'm experiencing now to talk to.
She gave me loads of advices,
and with a touch of help the other day.
It's the weekend now! Friday was normal for me. But it was tiring T.T. I think I screwed my Physics Class test. Oh well. Anyway, one sticky jar was finished by the end of the week! I need to top up but I lost like $30?! That's pretty sad right D:.
And then there's Racial Harmony Practice! Spent like 2h down there. Sarah is an AWESOME partner for it! Haha, we kept talking crap! :D
Oh, and there's choir too. Pretty stressed up for me. Taught the choir how to do some dance, and noticed that they gave their vice-president hell when I'm not around. Got pretty pissed after knowing that and I tried to control myself! Dished out punishments today too (:. Feeling so happy after giving them out!
Tomorrow's gonna be a successful KBOX outing even when some people DUMPED ME ):. There's gonna be KOI and loads of singing! I miss singing those childhood songs! Like those from Hilary Duff <3. And I'm gonna start to learn how to rap. Sounds weird right? HAHA. AND THERE'LL BE INAPPROPRIATE SONGS TOO (:. Anyway, this song is stuck on my head since I don't know when. So, enjoy (:
And that's why I smile (:
I want to adapt a new type of voice for singing!
Maybe an airier sound for myself?
It sounds pretty cool for ballads.
I don't really like too much pop.
I need to strike a balance for country and ballads too (:.
Being someone's friend and president of a CCA at the same time is not easy.
I can trust them,
but I need to tell them that they're speculating.
I hope that they understand my intentions.
I just need a jar to contain all my thoughts and feelings.
Too bad my previous one had shattered.
I hate being betrayed.
Maybe you didn't realise.
But I don't give a shit.
I haven't started on my homework, and its minutes away from Sunday. OH WELL. Good luck to me for Chinese Listening Comprehension (:.
I can't be that inconsiderate.
I need to think of others too.
Can't possibly give up now.
But I want to be a selfish jerk,
and hide from all the things I'm facing right now.
If you ever noticed anyway,
I'm not mad at you.
I've just figured it out in my head.
After whatever we're going through together as a team,
I want to not befriend you.
I know I'm a crazy bitch saying that.
But I've made up my mind.
I'm glad to have someone that had went through what I'm experiencing now to talk to.
She gave me loads of advices,
and with a touch of help the other day.
It's the weekend now! Friday was normal for me. But it was tiring T.T. I think I screwed my Physics Class test. Oh well. Anyway, one sticky jar was finished by the end of the week! I need to top up but I lost like $30?! That's pretty sad right D:.
And then there's Racial Harmony Practice! Spent like 2h down there. Sarah is an AWESOME partner for it! Haha, we kept talking crap! :D
Oh, and there's choir too. Pretty stressed up for me. Taught the choir how to do some dance, and noticed that they gave their vice-president hell when I'm not around. Got pretty pissed after knowing that and I tried to control myself! Dished out punishments today too (:. Feeling so happy after giving them out!
Tomorrow's gonna be a successful KBOX outing even when some people DUMPED ME ):. There's gonna be KOI and loads of singing! I miss singing those childhood songs! Like those from Hilary Duff <3. And I'm gonna start to learn how to rap. Sounds weird right? HAHA. AND THERE'LL BE INAPPROPRIATE SONGS TOO (:. Anyway, this song is stuck on my head since I don't know when. So, enjoy (:
And that's why I smile (:
I want to adapt a new type of voice for singing!
Maybe an airier sound for myself?
It sounds pretty cool for ballads.
I don't really like too much pop.
I need to strike a balance for country and ballads too (:.
Being someone's friend and president of a CCA at the same time is not easy.
I can trust them,
but I need to tell them that they're speculating.
I hope that they understand my intentions.
I just need a jar to contain all my thoughts and feelings.
Too bad my previous one had shattered.
I hate being betrayed.
Maybe you didn't realise.
But I don't give a shit.
I haven't started on my homework, and its minutes away from Sunday. OH WELL. Good luck to me for Chinese Listening Comprehension (:.
I can't be that inconsiderate.
I need to think of others too.
Can't possibly give up now.
But I want to be a selfish jerk,
and hide from all the things I'm facing right now.
If you ever noticed anyway,
I'm not mad at you.
I've just figured it out in my head.
After whatever we're going through together as a team,
I want to not befriend you.
I know I'm a crazy bitch saying that.
But I've made up my mind.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I just wanna breakthrough.
Hey, it's been like forever since I last posted a decent length post right? Sigh, school life's pretty busy for me.
Hmm, let's start with Chinese Oral! Gosh, it was nerve-wrecking. Been patiently waiting in the waiting room for like.. 1 hour before it was my turn. Spent most of my time practicing and warming up my chinese accent and mouthshape. Some practice passages were really hard ><.
Anyway, my examiners were pretty nice (:. They kept smiling and were quite cheerful! My oral was quite short though :X. About 5 minutes?
Went to the school hall to view the Racial Harmony rehearsal, and decided to take over Cun An's place and started to 'model' with Sarah. Haha! This is gonna be so cool especially with the poses that we're making! No spoilers please (:.
Walked towards the bus stop with Matthew. Turns out that he was rushing out his sunflower poster too! ALL THE BEST (:. Get first prize alrights? :D. Talked stuff. Like literally stuff.
Went back home and started to rush to Takashimaya because of dinner arrangements. Uncle came to SG (:. So I went to have dinner with them! Was quite quiet throughout the dinner though.. Perhaps there was many things going through my mind at that moment in time? IDK.
Completed homework and went to bed (:.
Oh yeah! We've won the qualifying rounds for debate (:. I think I went slightly over the edge. Sigh. Thinking about the new motion now. I feel like giving up. But I know I can't.
And today we had study group! Council Investiture rehearsals kinda crashed my plans, but managed to get that settled ASAP (:. Talked more than studying. But I feel better after that session, especially telling loads of stuff to Grandma and Matthew! Thanks for like being there when I needed you guys (:.
It's near midnight now! So I kinda got to go. I failed my Reactivity Table. Gotta retest tomorrow T.T. BYE (:
I should've known earlier about you.
She was shocked too.
Maybe I shouldn't have been that close to you.
It was just wishful thinking on my part.
I don't wanna spar with you.
But I guess I need to.
I take those words back.
I'm glad that you didn't hear what I had to say.
Hey, it's been like forever since I last posted a decent length post right? Sigh, school life's pretty busy for me.
Hmm, let's start with Chinese Oral! Gosh, it was nerve-wrecking. Been patiently waiting in the waiting room for like.. 1 hour before it was my turn. Spent most of my time practicing and warming up my chinese accent and mouthshape. Some practice passages were really hard ><.
Anyway, my examiners were pretty nice (:. They kept smiling and were quite cheerful! My oral was quite short though :X. About 5 minutes?
Went to the school hall to view the Racial Harmony rehearsal, and decided to take over Cun An's place and started to 'model' with Sarah. Haha! This is gonna be so cool especially with the poses that we're making! No spoilers please (:.
Walked towards the bus stop with Matthew. Turns out that he was rushing out his sunflower poster too! ALL THE BEST (:. Get first prize alrights? :D. Talked stuff. Like literally stuff.
Went back home and started to rush to Takashimaya because of dinner arrangements. Uncle came to SG (:. So I went to have dinner with them! Was quite quiet throughout the dinner though.. Perhaps there was many things going through my mind at that moment in time? IDK.
Completed homework and went to bed (:.
Oh yeah! We've won the qualifying rounds for debate (:. I think I went slightly over the edge. Sigh. Thinking about the new motion now. I feel like giving up. But I know I can't.
And today we had study group! Council Investiture rehearsals kinda crashed my plans, but managed to get that settled ASAP (:. Talked more than studying. But I feel better after that session, especially telling loads of stuff to Grandma and Matthew! Thanks for like being there when I needed you guys (:.
It's near midnight now! So I kinda got to go. I failed my Reactivity Table. Gotta retest tomorrow T.T. BYE (:
I should've known earlier about you.
She was shocked too.
Maybe I shouldn't have been that close to you.
It was just wishful thinking on my part.
I don't wanna spar with you.
But I guess I need to.
I take those words back.
I'm glad that you didn't hear what I had to say.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
I can't wait to hate you.
Changed my song for this blog, but the sad thing is, it doesnt autoplay D:. So you all have to play it manually if you all wish to listen alrights? Anyway, this is like one of the best R&B ballad (duet) that I've ever listened in my life :D.
Anyway, Huifang's helping me with it right now! Totally appreciate it :D.
Hmm. It's been a busy weekend! Especially preparing myself for O levels. Gosh, it's a terror to me, and to complete all those compounding homework that are on my desk. Sigh.. Still left physics because I never bring my notes home >< Moving on, Dad gave me a faster hard-drive! So my computer is supposed to be faster now.. I hope it does ^^. It's like midnight now! >< . Gotta go! Bye (: HUIFANG SOLVED IT :D
I hate texting serious stuffs.
Cause you'll never know whether you'll get a reply or not.
Changed my song for this blog, but the sad thing is, it doesnt autoplay D:. So you all have to play it manually if you all wish to listen alrights? Anyway, this is like one of the best R&B ballad (duet) that I've ever listened in my life :D.
Anyway, Huifang's helping me with it right now! Totally appreciate it :D.
Hmm. It's been a busy weekend! Especially preparing myself for O levels. Gosh, it's a terror to me, and to complete all those compounding homework that are on my desk. Sigh.. Still left physics because I never bring my notes home >< Moving on, Dad gave me a faster hard-drive! So my computer is supposed to be faster now.. I hope it does ^^. It's like midnight now! >< . Gotta go! Bye (: HUIFANG SOLVED IT :D
I hate texting serious stuffs.
Cause you'll never know whether you'll get a reply or not.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Lightning don't strike the same place twice.
It's the weekend! :D. Just bought M&Ms and ate them all up! Anyway, there's like so much stuff to settle and to reflect on. All I know is that I'm done with some of them (:.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I'm currently in love with saxophones and trumpets now? Gosh, their sounds are just PLAIN AWESOME!
Moving on, been spending the entire day on some stuff :X. And I've just realised that I've lost some of my style already. Gosh, I totally need to buck up!
There's like common tests and oral examinations coming up. But I'm just looking forward to a kbox session after that! I'm like totally not in the mood for studying or even doing homework right now.. Sigh, got.to.focus!
Anyway, I'm like totally in love with a version of Teenage Dream right now! It's like totally nice and genuine! I Love their arrangement for the song!
Been watching Grey's Anatomy nowadays. It's quite a cool drama! And it's been like SO LONG since I last watched their season finale. After watching, I kinda reflected on many things. It's kinda sad, when the good people are shot.
Feelings.
They're not meant for you to toy with them.
Whenever we feel happy, sad, angry etc,
we express it differently.
That's why I love hypocrisy.
Sometimes we just feel like burying our memories in a place that will never be found.
And we may do it sometimes.
But what happens if someone finds that place,
and recalls those memories back to you?
All the fights.
All the quarrels.
All those tears.
I don't really want people to see my true self.
That's why I fake a smile everyday.
People are like onions.
You need to peel them layer by layer.
But wouldn't it be better if you had just left them alone?
I asked people about myself.
I'm not that fierce after all.
I'm not gullible,
but can be manipulated easily.
Maybe what I'm facing right now are just illusions?
They're never what they seem to be.
I take every single word you say seriously.
I might not know you,
but I think you know me more than I know myself.
I don't care with the games you play with me anymore.
I don't really care about what you say any longer.
I will love you tonight.
I'll give you everything tonight.
For all we know, we might not have tomorrow.
Nothing is ever enough.
It's the weekend! :D. Just bought M&Ms and ate them all up! Anyway, there's like so much stuff to settle and to reflect on. All I know is that I'm done with some of them (:.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I'm currently in love with saxophones and trumpets now? Gosh, their sounds are just PLAIN AWESOME!
Moving on, been spending the entire day on some stuff :X. And I've just realised that I've lost some of my style already. Gosh, I totally need to buck up!
There's like common tests and oral examinations coming up. But I'm just looking forward to a kbox session after that! I'm like totally not in the mood for studying or even doing homework right now.. Sigh, got.to.focus!
Anyway, I'm like totally in love with a version of Teenage Dream right now! It's like totally nice and genuine! I Love their arrangement for the song!
Been watching Grey's Anatomy nowadays. It's quite a cool drama! And it's been like SO LONG since I last watched their season finale. After watching, I kinda reflected on many things. It's kinda sad, when the good people are shot.
Feelings.
They're not meant for you to toy with them.
Whenever we feel happy, sad, angry etc,
we express it differently.
That's why I love hypocrisy.
Sometimes we just feel like burying our memories in a place that will never be found.
And we may do it sometimes.
But what happens if someone finds that place,
and recalls those memories back to you?
All the fights.
All the quarrels.
All those tears.
I don't really want people to see my true self.
That's why I fake a smile everyday.
People are like onions.
You need to peel them layer by layer.
But wouldn't it be better if you had just left them alone?
I asked people about myself.
I'm not that fierce after all.
I'm not gullible,
but can be manipulated easily.
Maybe what I'm facing right now are just illusions?
They're never what they seem to be.
I take every single word you say seriously.
I might not know you,
but I think you know me more than I know myself.
I don't care with the games you play with me anymore.
I don't really care about what you say any longer.
I will love you tonight.
I'll give you everything tonight.
For all we know, we might not have tomorrow.
Nothing is ever enough.
Friday, July 8, 2011
It's so hard to achieve.
This week was a pretty rough week for me. Maybe it's because of the different problems that I had faced over the last few days.
Conducted choir's sectionals. It's been tough for me. As I'm like stuck about what to do. And there's like loads of problems that I want to solve, but I just have to let go of some things that will never come true.
Anyway, really want to thank Dad for listening to me over msn just now. Gosh, was totally filling him with my thoughts and he somehow comforted me? But there are times when he just smacked the harsh reality in my face. Oh well. At least he was honest right? Maybe I should do whatever he suggested me to do? I mean, to resign from my authority. I don't really want to be someone I'm not gonna be. Maybe it's because I've longed for someone to tell me to resign? Or that I found his advice wise? I'm not really sure.
It was an honest conversation. Now then I realize my weaknesses. And thanks to those who kinda talked to me after choir. It was like a wake up call, though I'm still not sure what to do now :X. Maybe I should just continue to seek advice from other people like Mortal, Dad, Blur Queen and the UGs (if their advice is useful).
Anyway, it's near midnight now! Gotta go and do my own stuff :X
You know, I feel like I'm an utter failure, all over again.
Maybe it was a bad decision to have taken up this post in the first place.
I should really reconsider everything again.
But I wanna prove myself that I HAVE commitment.
I'm not sure right now.
Dad is an AWESOME PERSON (:.
Harsh but honest truths.
Perhaps better than those who tell me lies?
I'm not sure anymore.
I'm trying my best to trust you all over again.
Hoping things will work out.
It feels so much better confiding things with other people (:.
When you left I lost a part of me,
It's still so hard to believe.
Who am I gonna lean on when times are tough?
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place when there's nobody better?
This week was a pretty rough week for me. Maybe it's because of the different problems that I had faced over the last few days.
Conducted choir's sectionals. It's been tough for me. As I'm like stuck about what to do. And there's like loads of problems that I want to solve, but I just have to let go of some things that will never come true.
Anyway, really want to thank Dad for listening to me over msn just now. Gosh, was totally filling him with my thoughts and he somehow comforted me? But there are times when he just smacked the harsh reality in my face. Oh well. At least he was honest right? Maybe I should do whatever he suggested me to do? I mean, to resign from my authority. I don't really want to be someone I'm not gonna be. Maybe it's because I've longed for someone to tell me to resign? Or that I found his advice wise? I'm not really sure.
It was an honest conversation. Now then I realize my weaknesses. And thanks to those who kinda talked to me after choir. It was like a wake up call, though I'm still not sure what to do now :X. Maybe I should just continue to seek advice from other people like Mortal, Dad, Blur Queen and the UGs (if their advice is useful).
Anyway, it's near midnight now! Gotta go and do my own stuff :X
Maybe it was a bad decision to have taken up this post in the first place.
I should really reconsider everything again.
But I wanna prove myself that I HAVE commitment.
I'm not sure right now.
Dad is an AWESOME PERSON (:.
Harsh but honest truths.
Perhaps better than those who tell me lies?
I'm not sure anymore.
I'm trying my best to trust you all over again.
Hoping things will work out.
It feels so much better confiding things with other people (:.
When you left I lost a part of me,
It's still so hard to believe.
Who am I gonna lean on when times are tough?
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place when there's nobody better?
I treat you like my best friend, but I know you don't.
It was really cool to have a friend like you (:
I lived.
I loved.
To the person who listens to me almost everytime in school, I would frankly say that you should not give up on whatever you're having right now. I know I've always said that it's your decision ultimately in the end. But to be honest, this is my two-bits worth. I know it is hard because of what people told you, but we must know that we have to overcome it. Have faith in yourself, move on, and don't ever stop believing. (:. It's gonna be a hurricane for you to endure, but there's always gonna be another mountain. And don't ever forget that rainbow after a storm (:.
Life undoubtedly will come by and give you a hard smack in your head.
This is the time we learn to overcome.
We face disappointments and unhappiness at times.
This is when we should have faith and trust in ourselves.
There will be times when we want to give up.
This is the moment that we should persevere, and NEVER give up.
Been thinking a lot recently.
There have been issues, of course.
It's pretty awkward eh?
Having a best friend but not trusting him at the same time.
I guess I just like his company,
or just someone to talk/listen to.
Too bad things became complicated.
I just want you to know,
no matter what happens,
it's never your fault.
I will try to avoid you.
I will create barriers in between me and you.
And I would appreciate it if you just leave me alone for a while.
I need time to digest the facts that I know.
I need to simmer down,
and think of all the reasons clearly.
It's been ages since we had a heart-to-heart talk.
Maybe it was because of what I've already known about you.
Or maybe there's nothing much to know.
I'm not really sure what's going to happen now.
I just hope that three of us would remember the times we spent together.
And thank you, for bringing a piece of myself back.
Maybe I'll feel your halo someday.
It's written all over your face.
These feelings should end soon,
and that'll be the time when I come right back at you.
I loved.
To the person who listens to me almost everytime in school, I would frankly say that you should not give up on whatever you're having right now. I know I've always said that it's your decision ultimately in the end. But to be honest, this is my two-bits worth. I know it is hard because of what people told you, but we must know that we have to overcome it. Have faith in yourself, move on, and don't ever stop believing. (:. It's gonna be a hurricane for you to endure, but there's always gonna be another mountain. And don't ever forget that rainbow after a storm (:.
Life undoubtedly will come by and give you a hard smack in your head.
This is the time we learn to overcome.
We face disappointments and unhappiness at times.
This is when we should have faith and trust in ourselves.
There will be times when we want to give up.
This is the moment that we should persevere, and NEVER give up.
Been thinking a lot recently.
There have been issues, of course.
It's pretty awkward eh?
Having a best friend but not trusting him at the same time.
I guess I just like his company,
or just someone to talk/listen to.
Too bad things became complicated.
I just want you to know,
no matter what happens,
it's never your fault.
I will try to avoid you.
I will create barriers in between me and you.
And I would appreciate it if you just leave me alone for a while.
I need time to digest the facts that I know.
I need to simmer down,
and think of all the reasons clearly.
It's been ages since we had a heart-to-heart talk.
Maybe it was because of what I've already known about you.
Or maybe there's nothing much to know.
I'm not really sure what's going to happen now.
I just hope that three of us would remember the times we spent together.
And thank you, for bringing a piece of myself back.
Maybe I'll feel your halo someday.
It's written all over your face.
These feelings should end soon,
and that'll be the time when I come right back at you.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
You didn't have to know anything.
I'm trying to push you away from me,
but you're stuck like glue.
I keep thinking about the problems between us.
Will we ever solve them?
Or is it just my evil/wishful thinking?
Sorry,
but there's just too many distractions this year.
I don't wanna ignore you.
But I have to.
I don't wanna think too much because of issues that are linked to you.
I won't be starting the conversation nowadays.
But if you do,
I may reply (:.
Just like ordinary friends.
I'm trying to push you away from me,
but you're stuck like glue.
I keep thinking about the problems between us.
Will we ever solve them?
Or is it just my evil/wishful thinking?
Sorry,
but there's just too many distractions this year.
I don't wanna ignore you.
But I have to.
I don't wanna think too much because of issues that are linked to you.
I won't be starting the conversation nowadays.
But if you do,
I may reply (:.
Just like ordinary friends.
Monday, July 4, 2011
I Wanna Run... and Smash into You.
Matthew, Esmonde and Edmund went to my house today! To do project of course :D. Anyway, we managed to finish most of our projects, even though we slacked quite a lot! :D.
Ordered Pizza Hut Delivery (:. And Edmund was killing me with his Trio-Cheese Pizza, and Matthew was putting Cheese Powder onto his food. Gosh, I really admire them! They can eat cheese so easily while I can't D:. Oh well.
And we played Monopoly! Haha :D. So cool right?! It's been ages since I last played that! Matthew and Edmund were the richest at first, and all three of them kept spamming properties D:. So I didn't really own many properties. But the tides were changing! Esmonde and I decided to upgrade our properties like crazy! Hehe :D. So we somehow created this danger zone for both of them! And soon, we all wished that we could go to jail! :D.
Matthew became bankrupt first! :D. And then followed by Edmund, after a series of events.
And I watched how Edmund played this game called Devil May Cry? And Halo!
Soon, we went on and started to play Xbox 360! HALO 3! Goodness knows how long since I last touched that. And my sniping skills deteoriated significantly D:. Oh well, and I kept spamming the Spartan Laser! Hahaha :D. My aiming is 90% Accurate! :D. AND I LOVE TO CAMP! :D.
Oh and that game had proved to them that I'm a violent person who panics easily (:. Because I love to spam this gun called the Brute Shot - something like a mini Rocket Launcher. Haha! And I keep freaking out! :D.
And soon I had to stop and complete my Letter to the Editor D:. Well, was kinda watching them playing too! And they had to go around 5pm ):.
Anyway, went to fetch them to the MRT station before returning home to finish all my homework! :D. Well, I hope they can come to my house again! Haha! And I hope to receive my new table so that I know where to put my POSTERS <3. Moving on, I realised I overspent my money on Albums. AND THE FIRE IN MY HEART IS NOT EXTINGUISHED YET D:. Gosh, I need to save money!! Am totally broke this week! Helped to contribute in Sengkang's sale for NYBC and bought 2 Albums! No matter what, I'm not regretting or fretting over what I've spent. I TOTALLY LOVE THE NEW ALBUMS! :D. It's gonna be midnight soon! Can't wait for it (:.
I thought that things would get better in time.
But I still need you.
Why is that?
You're the only image in my mind.
So I still see you around.
My heart still skips a beat whenever I see you.
It was awkward sitting beside you that day.
I've never felt this way before.
Matthew, Esmonde and Edmund went to my house today! To do project of course :D. Anyway, we managed to finish most of our projects, even though we slacked quite a lot! :D.
Ordered Pizza Hut Delivery (:. And Edmund was killing me with his Trio-Cheese Pizza, and Matthew was putting Cheese Powder onto his food. Gosh, I really admire them! They can eat cheese so easily while I can't D:. Oh well.
And we played Monopoly! Haha :D. So cool right?! It's been ages since I last played that! Matthew and Edmund were the richest at first, and all three of them kept spamming properties D:. So I didn't really own many properties. But the tides were changing! Esmonde and I decided to upgrade our properties like crazy! Hehe :D. So we somehow created this danger zone for both of them! And soon, we all wished that we could go to jail! :D.
Matthew became bankrupt first! :D. And then followed by Edmund, after a series of events.
And I watched how Edmund played this game called Devil May Cry? And Halo!
Soon, we went on and started to play Xbox 360! HALO 3! Goodness knows how long since I last touched that. And my sniping skills deteoriated significantly D:. Oh well, and I kept spamming the Spartan Laser! Hahaha :D. My aiming is 90% Accurate! :D. AND I LOVE TO CAMP! :D.
Oh and that game had proved to them that I'm a violent person who panics easily (:. Because I love to spam this gun called the Brute Shot - something like a mini Rocket Launcher. Haha! And I keep freaking out! :D.
And soon I had to stop and complete my Letter to the Editor D:. Well, was kinda watching them playing too! And they had to go around 5pm ):.
Anyway, went to fetch them to the MRT station before returning home to finish all my homework! :D. Well, I hope they can come to my house again! Haha! And I hope to receive my new table so that I know where to put my POSTERS <3. Moving on, I realised I overspent my money on Albums. AND THE FIRE IN MY HEART IS NOT EXTINGUISHED YET D:. Gosh, I need to save money!! Am totally broke this week! Helped to contribute in Sengkang's sale for NYBC and bought 2 Albums! No matter what, I'm not regretting or fretting over what I've spent. I TOTALLY LOVE THE NEW ALBUMS! :D. It's gonna be midnight soon! Can't wait for it (:.
I thought that things would get better in time.
But I still need you.
Why is that?
You're the only image in my mind.
So I still see you around.
My heart still skips a beat whenever I see you.
It was awkward sitting beside you that day.
I've never felt this way before.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Your voice everywhere.
I'm still in love with her! :D.
She astounds me in the different aspects of music. From her journey from being a countryside girl to winning American Idol, and touching everyone's hearts with her lyrics and vocal chops <3. I think she was the one who inspired me greatly whenever I was down. Telling me that this was just my 'Temporary Home', that he was just a 'Cowboy Casanova' and knowing that everything's 'So Small' in life. She also taught me that everyone faces the 'Wheel of the World', and that we should always sing 'Mamas Song' every year during Mother's Day <3. I'll never forget to remember you Carrie <3. My true and inspirational Idol who was in my heart all along..
This performance never fails to lead me to tears.
Congrats to Carrie who is now the Top Earning Idol/Alumni in American Idol, in terms of Digital Singles, and Album sales :D.
Anyway, my project mates are coming over to my house to do project! Gotta tidy up my room :X. BYE :D.
Suppose I call you up tonight,
And told you that I like you.
If I told you,
that you're all I ever wanted.
And its killing me to be so far away.
I'm still in love with her! :D.
She astounds me in the different aspects of music. From her journey from being a countryside girl to winning American Idol, and touching everyone's hearts with her lyrics and vocal chops <3. I think she was the one who inspired me greatly whenever I was down. Telling me that this was just my 'Temporary Home', that he was just a 'Cowboy Casanova' and knowing that everything's 'So Small' in life. She also taught me that everyone faces the 'Wheel of the World', and that we should always sing 'Mamas Song' every year during Mother's Day <3. I'll never forget to remember you Carrie <3. My true and inspirational Idol who was in my heart all along..
This performance never fails to lead me to tears.
Congrats to Carrie who is now the Top Earning Idol/Alumni in American Idol, in terms of Digital Singles, and Album sales :D.
Anyway, my project mates are coming over to my house to do project! Gotta tidy up my room :X. BYE :D.
Suppose I call you up tonight,
And told you that I like you.
If I told you,
that you're all I ever wanted.
And its killing me to be so far away.
I'm such a letdown.
I said what I had to say,
In letters that I threw away.
Why did I have to retrieve them back?
I totally regretted telling you that.
Maybe it's my fault.
I shouldn't really think too much.
They were right,
I'm too kind with people.
Maybe I should just let everything go.
It's time to be irresponsible just this once.
I'll just let the next batch handle their voice quality.
It's none of my business anyway.
Thanks Dad, Alto ^^, Mortal, Blur Queen, GIRLFRIEND! and Operation Manager for hearing me out yesterday! Thanks for all your honest feedback, and giving me suggestions on how to deal with this problem. Oh and Esp Mortal ^^. You've really heard loads of my troubles and we had loads of fun conversations that night (:. But I've really loads more to talk about! D:. Too bad time doesn't permit us to continue speaking.
I think I was too impulsive that day.
Maybe I should've just resisted.
I don't wanna be a heartless person,
and start shouting at people.
But there will be times when I have to do it.
I wrote whatever I wanted to say in that piece of paper.
Should I deliver it the next time?
Should I smack out facts to their faces?
Should I be kind and let everything go?
I really admire how others do it.
They can be like good leaders,
and I can't.
Maybe I just care too much.
All I wanna say is,
I'm glad to have friends like those whom I mentioned at the top of this post.
Thanks for being there,
especially what I faced yesterday.
Since this is a private blog,
I shall post part of what I wanna say to them.
I don't really care if some of them can read this.
What are your definitions of giving your best in something?
I know it's hard to pass if I'm the baseline of this issue.
But we have already gone through what you all are going through right now.
You're one of the worst batches I've ever seen in my life.
Face it. Suck up the facts.
If you call that YOUR best,
then you should really reflect.
I've got a feeling that those are just excuses.
Plain lies. To protect yourself.
Don't expect people to spoonfeed you all with knowledge in this choir.
Some of you come from schools with good results.
But you all just cannot prove it to me.
Regarding me as a baseline,
That's just another bitchy reason.
Not trying to boast,
but without us, you're gonna be nothing.
And you wanna know the reason why?
That's because you're the turtle that keeps hiding in your shell,
without wanting to face up to the facts.
Oh well. It's not my duty to find a solution to this. So who cares?
Anyway, I just practiced oral! Gosh, I have to say that some topics really let me reflect on myself. I mean, like influences, and our thoughts in mind. Do you all think that this is just an effect from a propaganda?
Oh yeah! I've finally found 'I Am...Sasha Fierce'! I'm like really happy about it (:. Went to like 6 music stores to find it! I think I got the Beyonce Fetish now ._. I keep singing Crazy in Love, Run the World (Girls) and Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) in class. Oh well.
Gosh. She's so pretty <3.
It turns out that all of us have issues.
We try to overcome them,
but its like flying without our wings.
Or trying to fly in this ship that's sinking down.
Should I get over it?
I know she meant well,
but I just can't do it,
No matter how hard I try to persuade myself.
F you baby.
I said what I had to say,
In letters that I threw away.
Why did I have to retrieve them back?
I totally regretted telling you that.
Maybe it's my fault.
I shouldn't really think too much.
They were right,
I'm too kind with people.
Maybe I should just let everything go.
It's time to be irresponsible just this once.
I'll just let the next batch handle their voice quality.
It's none of my business anyway.
Thanks Dad, Alto ^^, Mortal, Blur Queen, GIRLFRIEND! and Operation Manager for hearing me out yesterday! Thanks for all your honest feedback, and giving me suggestions on how to deal with this problem. Oh and Esp Mortal ^^. You've really heard loads of my troubles and we had loads of fun conversations that night (:. But I've really loads more to talk about! D:. Too bad time doesn't permit us to continue speaking.
I think I was too impulsive that day.
Maybe I should've just resisted.
I don't wanna be a heartless person,
and start shouting at people.
But there will be times when I have to do it.
I wrote whatever I wanted to say in that piece of paper.
Should I deliver it the next time?
Should I smack out facts to their faces?
Should I be kind and let everything go?
I really admire how others do it.
They can be like good leaders,
and I can't.
Maybe I just care too much.
All I wanna say is,
I'm glad to have friends like those whom I mentioned at the top of this post.
Thanks for being there,
especially what I faced yesterday.
Since this is a private blog,
I shall post part of what I wanna say to them.
I don't really care if some of them can read this.
What are your definitions of giving your best in something?
I know it's hard to pass if I'm the baseline of this issue.
But we have already gone through what you all are going through right now.
You're one of the worst batches I've ever seen in my life.
Face it. Suck up the facts.
If you call that YOUR best,
then you should really reflect.
I've got a feeling that those are just excuses.
Plain lies. To protect yourself.
Don't expect people to spoonfeed you all with knowledge in this choir.
Some of you come from schools with good results.
But you all just cannot prove it to me.
Regarding me as a baseline,
That's just another bitchy reason.
Not trying to boast,
but without us, you're gonna be nothing.
And you wanna know the reason why?
That's because you're the turtle that keeps hiding in your shell,
without wanting to face up to the facts.
Anyway, I just practiced oral! Gosh, I have to say that some topics really let me reflect on myself. I mean, like influences, and our thoughts in mind. Do you all think that this is just an effect from a propaganda?
Oh yeah! I've finally found 'I Am...Sasha Fierce'! I'm like really happy about it (:. Went to like 6 music stores to find it! I think I got the Beyonce Fetish now ._. I keep singing Crazy in Love, Run the World (Girls) and Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) in class. Oh well.
Gosh. She's so pretty <3.
It turns out that all of us have issues.
We try to overcome them,
but its like flying without our wings.
Or trying to fly in this ship that's sinking down.
Should I get over it?
I know she meant well,
but I just can't do it,
No matter how hard I try to persuade myself.
F you baby.
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