This time won't you save me.

It's 15 minutes away from 2012 now. It's been a rocky road for me this year eh? Having met thrills and disappointments throughout my entire journey in my new class. Life in triple science and HCL is tough. But somehow, I managed to survive. I managed to find redemption in various subjects that I took. Maybe some really let me down, but they really showed me my flaws eh?

Resolutions for the New Year? I don't really believe in that. That is because they usually don't come true for me, even though I try my hardest to fulfil them. But this time, I'ma do it just for the tiny glimpse of hope that my heart has, as it attempts to embrace the new year with open arms.

Well, here is a brief summary of what I've experienced this year.

- SYF competition for Choir

- President and Student Conductor Appointment

- OBS Camp (:

- Batam Trip

- Phillipines Trip

- Zhonghua 100th anniversary Concert

- 11/11/11 concert.

- 3e6 Class Chalet

- Lots of Lunch dates with my friends

- Lots of movie dates with my friends

And of course, there have been disappointments too. I shan't list them, lest they might ruin my mood now. Sigh, I bet everyone's having the partying mood whereas for me, I'm trying to complete my Biology worksheet. Maybe that's the consequence for procastinating.. But who cares? I had fun during my December break. This year wasn't really meant for studying, even though I tried to put in some effort to do so.

I managed to bond closer with my friends. I managed to realize who are my true friends. They've been always around me, just that I'm usually oblivious to them. To those that managed to make me smile at least once this year, thanks for making my life slightly more pleasant than before. To those that made me despondant or disappointed this year, thank you for letting me have the chance to overcome the tides that you've given me, so that I would come back stronger than before.

Just before the ball in Times Square, New York drops to commemorate the New Year, I would like to share a speech that's made by Hilary Swank in the movie ' New Year's Eve '.

It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long.

Please remember all the promises that we've made to each other, and even though we may have slipped the chance to fulfil it, do take some time off and make it up for your loved ones. There's only gonna be one year that's known as 2012 in our lives. Regardless of whether the phenomenon of 2012 occurs or not, we should keep our spirits alive, and cherish what we presently have, as well as to move on from the past. Live everyday happily, so that we won't be in regret if the world really comes to an end.

Well, those are just my two-bits worth for the new year. I might post my new year resolutions in my next blog post next year (:. A big thank you to all my readers who have been faithfully reading my blog and tagging! I wish you all a great year ahead for all of us. Oh, and a special note to all graduating students, I wish you all the best for your results in Week 2 (:. No matter what you get on that day, be contented and move on with your lives (:. Don't forget to remember me though!

That's all for now. I promise that I'll be back later. Bye (:. HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE TO ALL OF US! *pops champagne*

Deep down inside we wanna believe we still do.

I still do, and I hope that you do too.

I still like you loads.

Please tell me something I wanna hear.
Hold onto me tight, even if I'm pushing you away .

Just close your eyes.
The sun's going down.
You'll be alright,
no one can hurt you now.
Come morning light,
you and I'll be safe and sound.


Just changed my blog song. I think this has to be one of the few songs which I'm really emotionally attached to. Not only does it shows the mature side of the singer (Taylor Swift), but it really fits the purpose of this song. It's the first single for the film adaptation of 'The Hunger Games' - that's one of the few books that made me tear halfway through reading it. Heard that this would be used on Rue's death.. I don't wanna be a spoiler here, but I still can't believe Rue died ):.

Can't believe it but, once I heard this song, I immediately went to the NLB's website and reserved 'Catching Fire' - the sequel of the trilogy of 'The Hunger Games'.

Sigh, back to this piece of music, if only Taylor Swift writes songs that are of a more mature theme, and I'll love the hell out of her. The other reason why I'm simply intoxicated to this song is because it really describes what I've been feeling for the past few days.. Been going through lots of stuff lately, and the series of events that kept occurring made me utterly confused right now. I really don't know what to say, or what to post anymore. Through the days, I've been thinking about one thing, and that's all. I can't believe that I've already forsaken my humongous workload just because of that thought, but I kinda like it though..

Anyway, I know it's been ages since I've last posted a decent post, but I guess I won't be having any inspiration for a while. I'm really sorry to my readers out there who have been anxiously checking my blog everyday but have been met with extreme disappointment.

But before I leave, I just wanna share a song with you guys. Christmas has just past, and we're soon reaching towards the end of the year. Like what Carrie Underwood says,

 ' Each happy ending's a brand new beginning. '


But for those who did not have their happy ending yet, keep a little bit of faith within yourself, and take everything around you with a pinch of salt (:. So, that's why I'm sharing a Mariah Carey's song once again to all of you, because her lyrics really sends out an important message to all of us. And of course, she had her bitter and sour moments in her career too right?



I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again on my own,
and I know that I'm strong enough to mend.
And every time I'm afraid,
I'll hold tighter to my faith.
And I'll live one more day,
and I'll make it through the rain.

And I won't give my love away.

I'm confused.

I don't know what to say.

No one knew that things would progress this far,

but I won't fall in love this year.

And that's a promise to myself.

I guess it's time to leave love behind this year,

and start preparing for the last lap.

If you read this post,

please just keep it between us.

A crowded room ; 
Friends with tired eyes. 


I'm hiding from you,
and your soul of ice.

I would like to use my 450th post to wish Britney Spears a HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY (:.

You've been a great artist that not only motivates the audience through the lyrics of your songs, but also play an essential role for the revival of teen pop. Without you, there wouldn't be artists such as Lady Gaga and perhaps Kesha too. You've been a great role model to the younger generation, and managed to overcome the tides of darkness that you had faced over the recent years.

PS . I love the new Femme Fetale in the world <3.

I hope that you would continue to inspire other artists, as well as to bring more music into the world today <3.

It was those three words that saved my life.
And now I'm forsaking them forever.

Spent my Sunday mostly on the computer, and Dad cooked lunch for us! The rice that is steamed with sausage is simply delectable. Anyway, my life's pretty boring for me nowadays. Glad that I have a job during the holidays, and there's a one week overseas trip planned for the entire family that's coming really very soon!

Hmm. There's choir tomorrow, and for the first time in a long while, I'm actually looking forward for it. Well, apart from the fact that I'll be able to abuse my power and torture them during the warmups, but I feel that the juniors have been improving recently, ESPECIALLY MY SOPRANOS :D, and they've managed to raise the standard of the choir little by little as each session passes by. Maybe it's because of my attitude, or that they've found their confidence and have decided to sing out loud, which is a good thing to celebrate about as since the first day I met them, I had a hard time asking them to open their mouths~.

Anyway, WZ's birthday is on Wednesday! Happy Birthday in Advance my beloved niece ^^. Your uncle still misses you even though you abandoned most of your family by going to TJC, but at least I was able to meet you in the train compartment once in a while! Really looking forward towards your celebration on Tuesday. Movie Marathon FTW, even though I'm planning to skip Breaking Dawn because Twillight movies are getting worse. BUT AT LEAST, there'll be buffet, and I'll be able to catch up with my friends like JY! It's been ages since I've last seen her and IF YOU READ THIS, WE SHOULD MEET UP FOR KOI SOMEDAY KK? ^^.

But the bad thing is, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER ):. Maybe I should just walk around Nex for inspiration.. Still, I can't wait for that day to come!

Alright, there's gonna be an abrupt ending to this post. It's like 1.39am now and I gotta sleep :X. Nights!

The award for the best liar goes to you.
Save your speech for someone else as I don't wanna hear it any longer.

Because I know at the end of the day, I did nothing of what you said of me.

Sometimes you just can’t tell someone how you feel. Not because you don’t trust them, and not because you think they will judge you. But because you can never really find the right words to make them understand, and it makes you frustrated. People take things in so many different ways, and that is why it’s so hard. But if what you’re trying to say is meant to be said, it will find a way to be understood.

But as bad as it was, I learnt something about myself. That I could go through something like that and survive. I mean, I know that it could have been worse - a lot worse - but for me, it was all I could have handled at the time. And I learnt from it.
-Nicholas Sparks

Credits to the http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com/ for the quotes and pictures.


I know that you'll never read this blog.
But at least have some sense to self-reflect and fuck yourself up for what you've done.

Don't tell me you're sorry when you're not.

You're only sorry that you're caught.

This is stupid and I may be dumb,

but I'm not stupid.

Stop talking to me like that.

Curtains are closing now,

I guess that'll be your grand finale for your acts.

So go on and take a bow.

Just a note for you :

There's nothing I do better than revenge, bitch.

Where have you been all my life?

Went back for Choir on Monday and Wednesday. Learnt 2 new songs and revised the James Bond Theme. Pretty cool huh? And I guess I was pretty excited when I was conducting warmups, so the choir had to do a few silly things in their warm ups, but it really attracted their attention and got them all high and stuff. :D.

After that, I went to work! The things were slightly complicated for me as I didn't exactly know what I'm supposed to do, and that I couldn't recognize any of the products that I'm supposed to be checking.. So yeah.

Tried to refill the printer, but failed badly and had ink spilled onto my hands, leaving stains there for a day ):. And at last, I've managed to memorize some of the codes that they use there! Feel so accomplished ^^.

MRT-ed home and I'm loving the rain. Maybe it's just me and the weather, but walking in the rain makes me feel calm. Haha, a good way to de-stress? Wanted to start homework but failed terribly as I started to hog onto my computer and chatted myself away~.

Tuesday : 

Woke up as someone text-ed me! It was like 7, i think? And my work starts at 12.. Well, that's not the point. Anyway, went back to sleep afterwards, and only woke up at 10.30am. Yeah, I'm a pig xD. Anyway, rushed all the way to the other side of the island and it was an hour's journey. In the end? I was late T.T.

As it was my first time, I had a pretty hard time trying to recognize the products and checking them. I guess the counting part was easier than expected, because it was the only thing that I was able to do right. Managed to get the job done eventually, and it was quite surprise to me that I've managed to complete it earlier than expected, despite the fact that it was my first time.. Hmm..

Afterwards, headed towards Ang Mo Kio to meet Elston! :D. Well, it was quite a last-minute event that we've organized for each other as we had only agreed to meet up in the morning. Anyway, as I was done earlier than expected, I arrived first (:. Walked around AMK Hub and had a pancake at Jollibean! Yummy~.

Soon, we've met each other, even though we've been waiting for each other at 2 different locations, until he decided to text and asked where was I. Haha. Moving on, we boarded 135 and there we were, Serangoon Nex (:. We initially wanted to watch 'In Time' again for the fun of it, but Elston changed his mind suddenly and called me a crazy person ._. Took quite a long time to decide what we wanna do there, because the other entertainment options were simply eliminated due to our various reasons..

So, we went to Rockery to grab a quick bite. Elston ordered Black Pepper Chicken Rice while I ordered Chicken Fillet Burger. Elston has a really big appetite. He ordered extra rice and he managed to finish them all, even though he had eaten lunch earlier.. Talked about some stuff, before heading back to the cinema to decide what to watch. And upon leaving, I thought that I had left my phone there. I still had the mood to stroll my way back until Elston hurried me up T.T. And guess what, it was never there because it was at the front compartment of my sling bag~ What a joke right?

So, we went to the cinema and decided that we should watch Tower Heist, even though the trailer wasn't really that exciting. Well, with a movie list that consisted mostly of NC16 movies, we kinda ran out of options eh? Anyway, we decided to take a look at the value shop and Elston was obsessed with the Oreo cookies. Haha :D. Soon, we began smuggling snacks and drinks into the theater..

The movie was quite interesting but the plot was kinda expected and I found it a little draggy. But the script was a little uncouth for me, yet hilarious at the same time! :D. Here's the trailer for it :



For those who wanna catch this movie, I suggest that you all do so quickly, because its run in the theaters is gonna end soon!

Moving on, I tried my luck at the Popular Bookstore to search for T.T.T. But I failed in the end because it wasn't in stores there yet.. Sigh. Was a little disappointed with it..

Walked around Nex for a while afterwards and wanted to try the Double Lime Sundae at Macs. What a joke right? I remembered clearly that I saw a poster of Macs selling that, but I guess it didn't come true, until I realized that I've dreamt about it. Sigh, I'm getting delusional :/.

So, we've decided that we should buy Milk Tea at Rockery instead. ^^. Missed their Mango Milk Tea with Sago ):. After that, we took a stroll around Nex for the last time before taking the overhead bridge to our respective bus stops and headed home! :D

Anyway, text-ed Elston all the way into the still of the night, and I wanna post my apologies to him for being too emotional that night, as there were countless things going in and out of my mind.. ><.

Wednesday : 

Had choir that day, and decided that I should spice things up for our usual warm ups! Went through the new songs that we've learnt on Monday and revised James Bond :).

Afterwards, Yi Jie, Joyce and I went to Nex to have lunch! All of us had Tonpenyaki ( Idk if I spelt it correctly.. ) :D, and it was OISHI~. I loved the omelette :D. And they were quite shocked that my eating speed, as I was rushing for work because I was already late. Had to leave before they had finished their food, and rushed all the way ><.

They recognized me, but who cares? I managed to get my job done in the end, and was quite pleased with myself! Decided to head out to Marina Square to get a copy of T.T.T :D. Alighted at Promenade, and that was a dreadful mistake, as I had to walk for like 10 minutes around Suntec City just to find the Convention Centre and then the bridge towards Marina Square.

In the end, I still managed to find it and I BOUGHT T.T.T :D. I'm a happy kid :D. Also, I've managed to find an album that I've been searching for like forever. NICKI MINAJ'S PINK FRIDAY! Yeah, most CD stores do not offer it anymore T.T. Considered buying Good Girl Gone Bad : Reloaded, but the price was devastating.. And so, I changed my mind ):. But looking at the bright side, at least I got myself 2 albums! :D.

Went home afterwards and hogged my computer once more. :D. I guess my life during the holidays is kinda screwed up, as my computer uses about 35% of it? Haha, but at least it improves friendships between other people and me :D.

Thursday :

Woke up at 11am T.T. AND I HAD TO RUSH ALL THE WAY TO WORK AS I WAS EXTREMELY LATE. Had to settle the warehouse that day, and I took 6 hours to complete my work. Sigh.. I had a hard time recognizing products as there were some that weren't displayed at the other locations and that most of them were in boxes, and I didn't know what to begin with. So after the long 6 hours, I finally managed to get my work done!

Decided to eat with my parents afterwards, but Mum had to leave for a dinner appointment ):. Dad and I had a hard time choosing where to eat, so we headed to Toa Payoh's Crystal Jade for dinner! And guess what? We had steamboat buffet as it was already 8pm, and that's the time when the promotion begins.. It was quite sumptuous! Wanted to drink Koi afterwards, but changed my mind because I was tired and wanted to get some rest..

Went back home and wanted to sleep, but I just couldn't. I hate that feeling when you're full and tired at the same time, but unable to sleep. Sigh.. So, I decided to switch on my computer and started to play with my friends ^^. Slept quite late at night though.

Friday : 

Woke up super early just for choir! :D. Managed to recall one of the warmups used in my Primary School's choir and thought of teaching them that. I hope that made them refreshed because it was quite early in the morning.

Sigh, Joyce wasn't there T.T. So there were only 2 Sop 1s, and Mr Ong decided to do 'Ezekial Saw the Wheel'. Was slightly elated initially, because it was within our range, but I started to become nervous towards the end of the song, as there were only two of us singing the solo line, but we managed to hear ourselves loud and clear though :D.

SOPRANO ONES FTW <3.

Moving on, I was pretty beat upon arriving home and decided to take an afternoon nap! Woke up for dinner, and wanted to sleep again, but couldn't. Elston entertained me through the night once again :D. He's awesome! I wonder what my life would be this year if I didn't met him..

Saturday :

WOKE UP LATE ONCE AGAIN. I guess I do not possess a natural alarm in my body.. But still, managed to report for work on time! Guess what? My work today was to give out brochures :D. Was quite tiring for me as I had to wear boards at the same time.. But I felt encouraged doing the job because the people that took my brochures were gleaming at me, and I felt appreciated (:.

Maybe it's true. A simple smile a day brightens someone else's life.

Went back home and had dinner at the food court near my house :D. Went back home and started to hog my computer once again ... Sigh.

But I was quite angry while playing the computer because of various reasons ><.
I hope I wouldn't feel the same again.

I know that it'll be sadder if you didn't hit the road.
So farewell, somebody's gonna miss you.
And someone's gonna wish that you were here.

抱歉.


我很感激你对我所付出的一切.
但是, 我还是地说一声 "对不起" 。
我的心已经只有一个渺小的位子，
只可以装一个人的名字。
他就是我，
免得它又受到任何伤害。


我不能又在你面前说出谎话了。
请你原谅我，
我只是不肯让你对我烙印着一种不良的印象，
同时也不想给自己任何的希望。
只要我死心，
就会感到快乐，
能够抛弃所有难过和伤心的时光。

'Cause you know me inside out.

My apologies for not blogging for about a week now, I've been busy settling my CCA and class chalet details. So to repay all of my readers out there, I'm gonna do a decent post now.

Let's start from where I had left off. 

Wednesday :

It was pretty alright for me with the usual lessons going on due to the Booster sessions. The good thing about it? Lessons officially ended at 10.30am, but the HCL students had to do one last timed practice before their facing their dreaded exam paper the next day ):. Sigh, I really don't know what to say because I flunked it terribly once again. But it wasn't as bad as the Paper 1 the other day.

After that, I headed home to prepare myself for a 4 hour tuition. That sounded crazy, but it happened. Looking at the bright side, at least I managed to skip choir :D. ( What kind of President am I? ) But still, it was pretty intense for me because there're like loads of phrases and sentences to memorize so as to polish my essay with them.

Ate fishballs from Old Chang Kee, and talked to Elston via SMS on the way home. I wanted to study for the exam the next day, but I guess I was a little distracted at the sight of my computer sitting right on my study table. Oh well, but the good thing is that I've managed to read through all the model essays for inspiration and successfully memorized the vocabulary that I'm supposed to memorize :D.

Went to sleep after that, but I was a little down upon realizing that at that moment in time, it was the last few hours of me being a HCL student because I personally know that I won't be able to clinch my A1/A2 for the exam paper. Oh well.

Thursday :

Woke up earlier than expected to prepare myself mentally for the exam paper~. I found Paper 1 relatively easy, but Paper 2 was quite challenging for me, particularly the MCQs ):. The options are like so similar with one another and it's hard to decide which is the absolute answer.

But before each paper, I shared with JY about the secret tips that my tuition teacher had shared with me :). See Jue Ying, if you're reading this blog, I'm such a good friend right? :D

After that, I went to the canteen to decorate the monitor's booth for the Open House. There were like only three people, including me, doing so. Was quite disappointed with the other 4 EXCOs because that was their duty and they didn't really turn up for it :/. But still, Marcus was spending most of his time in the Art Room trying to print the photos while Jazy (? ) and I were working on trying to decorate the boards first.

We managed to get the job done right in the end, even though we crapped a lot and talked a couple of things behind people's backs. It was quite hilarious at some point because Marcus was like cleaning up our mess while we were trying to make life difficult for him.

Moving on, Elston was waiting for me to watch a movie (:. So, we went to purchase our tickets before settling ourselves down at Pastamania. I had Penne with Meatballs while Elston had Baked Rice! Anyway, he's so mean ):. He was adding loads of cheese powder onto his dish right in front of me. Still, we talked a lot of certain stuff and played coin-dozer. Yeah, we were that bored. 

Then, we went to watch In Time! <3 Bought twisties and Root beer before heading down to the cinema! Won't reveal much about the movie to prevent myself from being a spoiler, but Amanda Seyfried is really PRETTY <3.


Unfortunately, halfway through the movie, I accidentally spilled my entire cup of rootbeer ):. Wanted to clean the mess up, but didn't really do anything about it! Hugged my bag throughout the entire movie :D.


After the show, we went around nex and spent about 1 hour deciding what to buy for Randy! I almost wanted to use my last resort of buying chocolates until Elston came up with a good idea :D.


Home-d afterwards and started to prepare myself for the concert the next day~.


Friday :


It's 11/11/11 and I managed to successfully make a wish exactly at 11 : 11 am! Anyway, I woke up at about 10.30am as I slept late the night before talking to someone~. Oh yeah, I went down to buy my lunch and complete the present for Randy! Then, I checked my concert attire and slacked all the way before heading towards school for choir.


Reached there right on the dot, and half the choir was missing due to some administrative stuff. Conducted warmups and threw a mini-tantrum at Sean because he was telling me what to do and I was being rebellious to him at that point in time. :X.


Moving on, we managed to sing through the concert pieces before having one last combined practice with the other schools! Did I mention that the children from Casuarina Primary were extremely adorable in their outfits? Afterwards, we had a full dress rehearsal but Rowena needed the toilet at the beginning, so I said her lines as well. Guess what? This was what I said :


" I am Rowena Ng and this is Chan Man Chun. "


Was humiliated by the choir after that. *smacks hand on forehead*. Then, we were told to memorize the script before the concert and I kinda felt that Miss Tan was being unreasonable, but we've managed to get cue cards to aid us :D.


Skipped dinner and went to change to my concert attire~. Talked with Ryan after that. Then, Gretel and Kelvin came (:. It's been ages since I've last seen them and I missed them TTM.


Anyway, we then had to go to our respective areas to carry out our duties. But fortunately for Rowena and I, we had no duty because we were the emcees! So, we just went around the school to hang out and interacted with some of our friends!


And soon, the concert started! I guess it went pretty well for emcee parts, but I stumbled on some of the words that I'm supposed to say ):. Anyway, the songs were quite badly done as they were completely different compared to what we had practiced in the past. But on the bright side, we were better than the guest choirs!


Then, went to take photos with Adeline's clique! They're awesome people! They've always been there supporting me no matter what and that we've been really close friends since Sec 1 :D.


Moving on, went to settle some choir stuff before changing into my own attire and hanged out with my friends for dinner~. They remembered my birthday and I was quite touched :D. Went to the food court opposite school and ordered loads of food :D. I LOVE THEIR CEREAL PRAWN AND THE EGG WITH TOFU <3. Anyway, we chatted and crapped about loads of stuff! What a way to spend the day especially with my awesome friends right?


Went home with Xinyi after that! Talked about horror movies and the situation that she was about to face then. Kinda pitied her, but she managed to survive through it anyway~. It was like 11.30pm when I reached home. So, I took a bath and started counting down for my birthday!


And guess what? When it was exactly 12 midnight, the first person that sms-ed me was Elston :D. Then, my inbox was flooded with loads of long texts! I kinda teared upon reading those messages because I didn't really expect them to remember my birthday at all, let alone them wishing me.


I took about an hour to reply those messages before opening my presents! I liked all of them, and I found Joyce's one really meaningful to me thanks to the message inside the card that she've given me! (:. Afterwards, I talked to Elston in msn until it was about 2am, and headed off to my dear bed to sleep <3


Saturday :


Didnt go for open house because I wanted to have a peace of mind. Woke up at 12am or 1pm and I ate takeaways for lunch, before proceeding to watch 3 rented DVDs at home :D. Then, I went out for dinner with my family at Secret Recipe. Their lamb stew is just simply mouth watering! Enjoyed it ttm!


Oh yeah, I'll do my birthday dedications soon (:.


Can't believe that I've turned fifteen. I guess it's time for me to mature a lil' more and make the right decisions for myself! Anyway, my birthday wish for this year had been fulfilled already, and I hope that it would remain the same before my next birthday~.


Sunday :


Stayed at home the entire day and played loads of comp ..


Monday :


It was Sunday's sequel, just that I had to settle some chalet details and I was quite disappointed that day because there was quite a handful that turned down my invitation right at the last moment. Sigh, it stirred a lot of problems for the chalet.. Oh yeah, did I mention that I was quite angry at somebody because of his childish attitude? Wow, what on earth am I talking about..? Anyway, I'd managed to sleep early to keep myself refreshed for the chalet~


Tuesday : 


DAY ONE OF CHALET! :D. Woke up and started to pack my bag! Then, Dad came to fetch me there and checked in! The room was appropriately big for us as there were two levels :D. Anyway, I fetched Ikhmah's group from the Downtown east chalet afterwards as they didn't know where was the chalet and that they just finished their class chalet too..


Then, we started to play card games and spammed lots of songs! Introduced Ikhmah to the new Katy Perry's single, and then we started to catch up with one another~. Soon, Adeline's group arrived!


We managed to settle all our administrative stuff, before deciding that we should play more card games and stuff like that. Managed to learn Kah Leng's game! It was so fun, but my mind was quite exhausted at the end.


Some of them went for cycling, while WZ, Clarissa and I went to take a stroll at the park~ It's been ages since I've last talked to WZ F2F and that she has really changed since the last day that I've met her! And then, she started to talk about her OBS experience and I was pretty jealous because I  missed the times I had in June ):. After that, we talked about our personal stuff before heading to Ehub! to fetch Clare's clique as they were lost halfway.. ):


Upon reaching the chalet, the pizzas arrived :D. I was so glad that most of the 2e1 people I've invited managed to turn up for it, and we managed to solve the problem that the inconsiderate and last minute brats gave me on the day before the chalet. Anyway, Jia Wei, Jue Ying, Jia Min, Adeline and I then went to Ehub! to catch 23 : 59. It was extremely creepy for me, and I had to thank Jia Wei for sitting beside me because I couldn't stand the tunes of the children... Then, we went back to the chalet and started to mess around with Jason's computer by playing the different games that were in it. JIA WEI'S A PROFESSIONAL AT L4D2. Anyway, I tried to play one stage of it and I managed to survive through it! Pistols with unlimited ammo FTW <3.. Then, we all gathered inside the room to watch Paranormal activity!


After that, we played games like Truth or Dare! We used phone apps to determine our truths and dares and they were hilarious! It ranged from 'Shoot,Shack and Marry' to kissing some people and crapping about protection by using a plastic bag. This activity really strengthened our bonds between one another. Then, we had heart to heart talks with the people in the room. That was when I discovered something that was really saddening to hear, but oh well..


Went to sleep after that, but I was freaking out all night long! Texted someone to fulfil my promise when he was away, and only slept for two hours! ):


Wednesday:


Woke up at 8am and went to wash myself up but failed terribly as I dragged myself back onto the bed to sleep beside Jia Wei for another hour while Jue Ying, Jia Min and Benjamin was playing games on Jason's computer. Jue Ying then woke both of us up for breakfast! :D. We initially intended to have breakfast at the cafeteria but upon reaching there, we changed our mind and headed to Macs instead! Ahh. It's been a while since I last ate Hotcakes! :).


Then, we wanted to watch Sector 7 but the earliest timeslot was at 1pm.. Wanted to find alternatives to entertain ourselves before the movie, but most of them were either too pricey or not appealing to us. In the end, we decided to meet up with the rest of the 3e6 people outside Fairprice and stayed at one corner to decide the other events of the day. Then, as time passed by, we headed to the cinema and watched the movie. It was quite thrilling for me as it was really emotional for me, even though I had to rely on the subtitles for the plot as it was a korean movie. But still, I was really impressed by it!


Afterwards, we headed back to Fairprice to purchase some drinks for the BBQ later and it started to rain cats and dogs. Took a taxi back to the chalet and continued playing our card games! JW then had to go back to prepare himself for his NCC camp. AND GUESS WHAT? When Esmonde came and joined us, my winning streak was destroyed and started to lose badly );. AND JY kept having all the good cards on her hand ):.


The rain subsided eventually and we started to set up our barbecue! It took quite a while for us to do so as there was still a trace amount of rain but we managed to succeed eventually! And guess what, Edmund managed to create a mini flamethrower to allow the rainwater on the BBQ pit to evaporate~. Awesome right? I shall post the video in Facebook soon!

Anyway, off we went and there it was, the BBQ of 3e6'11 (:. Really appreciate the fact that most of the e6 people took turns to help out in the cooking, unlike some people! Sigh, shan't mention about them now.. The satays were alright, as well as the hotdogs! But the chicken wings were slightly underdone.. Oh well, we are amateur cooks, so we shouldn't expect too much from one another..

Then, I went upstairs to play card games with Jue Ying, Esmonde, Ben, Jason and Candy for a short while. We initially intended to go night cycling, but the rental store closed at dawn ):. So, we pushed our horror movie timeslot forward (:. And guess what? We're watching The Nightmare on Elm's Street. It was creepy, scary, horrifying and last but not least, filled with gore. ._. I hated the last scene as it was one of the scariest cliffhangers that I've ever experienced in my entire life. To amplify the effect, Jue Ying was screaming most of the time, hence stiffening the tension among us when watching the movie~.

Soon, we then went back downstairs to play Truth or Dare, before joining the rest of the classmates for an enhanced version of that! It wasn't as exciting as compared to the previous day, because most of us were already worn out by then. Nevertheless, some of us stayed awake throughout the night as we owned it <3. Played Kah Wai's rendition of Truth or Dare, before having loads of Heart-To-Heart talks with them and eventually, I discovered the Ugly Truth ._.

Sigh, I don't get the reason why people are saying stuff like that. To make matters worse, I didn't commit anything of what she had said in that post. I felt ashamed, not of myself, but of her. It's like she's hallucinating, and trying to exaggerate things way beyond its limits. I feel like giving her a serious lesson, but as what my mortal says, I should just leave things the way it is because many know the true events of that accusation already. Sigh.

Anyway, I had to do stuff like the Wheelbarrow with Nicholas, and Adeline had to do kisses to other people's cheeks. I think this rendition is more fun than the actual version (:, as it really kept us awake throughout the entire night!

Then, it was time for us to watch the sunrise (:. Most of us went out of our chalet and strolled into Pasir Ris Park. Grandma was blasting songs in the air with her phone, and I HEAR BRITNEY SPEARS <3. Anyway, managed to snap a few pictures with them, and continued my conversation with her. :D

And soon, it came! The view of it was memorizing, and it seemed so clear, as if everything dawned to me all at once. Then, we took a group photo before returning to the chalet to pack our stuffs and leave, but before that, I managed to take an hour's rest and YA HSIN WAS SO SWEET, she took off my spectacles for me when I was asleep :).

All good things come to an end. Eventually, it was time for us to brace ourselves for that goodbye, as we would not see each other again until next semester unless I organize an event for them once again during the holidays.. To me, I felt that the chalet was a major success, because it really strengthened the friendship bond between me and every single individual that attended the chalet. Really got to know them way better..

AND OF COURSE, THANK YOU GUYS AND GIRLS FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL GIFTS AND CARDS THAT YOU'VE GIVEN ME. I REALLY APPRECIATE THE THOUGHT OF YOU ALL REMEMBERING MY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU ALL LOADS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART <3.

Anyway, I went to sleep for like 7 hours when I reached home. And I returned to my dull life once again. But looking at the bright side, my work officially commences next Monday! At least there's something for me to do rather than to just sit at home and rot myself away with this computer..

Just being random, but 'Talk That Talk' is gonna be released in HMV on Tuesday! Can't wait to get one copy for myself <3. I've found love with Rihanna's new song..




Moving on, I've finally done with this post! It took me 3 days to complete it..

To my readers : I hope you're satisfied ^^.

Why does it feel like you're there when I know you're already gone.
Why does it feel like you cared when I know that you don't.
Don't say a word if you know that it hurts.

Braced myself for the goodbye.

Hey guys! I'm sorry that I didn't fulfil my promise of blogging recently, but at least I changed the blog song! It's one of my favorite ballad remixes from one of my favorite artists (:.

I shall promise you all that I'll blog a decent post when I get back from my class chalet! :D. And that'll be by friday!

Bye :D

I'm ready.

Fifteen.

I'll do my usual posting tomorrow. But right now, I would like to thank everyone who had texted and/or had given me presents. You all made my day special! I guess that it will be quite unforgettable eh?

Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to wish Randy and Qiqing a HAPPY BIRTHDAY too (:. I feel so lucky to have friends like them!

I'll do the usual birthday-text dedications soon! :D.

I'm officially fifteen now.
I guess it's time to move on eh?
No point waiting for a text that'll never arrive.

I don't need you anymore.

I'm not supposed to be blogging now, but there're some things that I have to let out somewhere.

I know that I may not be the perfect person that you'll ever meet,
regardless of whether I'm your student or friend. 
But I just wanted you to know that I've tried my best in every way to salvage the situation.
Trying to get an A1 for Chinese 'O' levels, 
Who am I trying to kid here?
I've lost all hope in myself for that paper already.
The results would be inevitable anyway.


Thanks to those who were there for me these days. Really appreciate it :).


But I guess I would be isolating myself from most of my friends these days until I settle the issues that are on my mind right now.
It's not that you did something wrong etc,
but I just need the peace and loneliness in my mind to sort things out.

Big hearts die young.
Its best not to learn the truth sometimes,
because it'll break you down entirely.

I kept waiting on a reason, and a call that never came. 

It was terrible and awful when someone left you. You could move on, do the best you could, but an ending was an ending. No matter how many pages of sentences and paragraphs of great stories led up to it, it would always have the last word.

-Sarah Dessen, Along for the Ride

All the words unspoken, promises broken.
I cried for so long.
Wasted too much time, should've seen the signs.
Now I know just what went wrong.
I guess I'm the one fooled at the end of the day.

I guess I wanted you more.

Sorry for neglecting this blog for a while recently. I was too busy playing comp and coping with my SPAs as well as my O levels. Anyway, I know that my blog has already lost all of its readers.. But I guess I'ma continue blogging just to put some stuff off my mind.

I think I've been working hard for my 'O's, as that is my main priority for the rest of this week. I'm afraid for physics, but I gotta do some damage control right now. I guess I'ma just memorize some experimental errors and start to focus on improving my vocabulary range for Chinese by memorizing all the phrases and idioms.. I'm hoping frantically that I won't overdo it..

Had my Biology SPA on Wednesday. I guess I panicked, as I inserted the thermometer into the boiling tube the wrong way. Luckily, I noticed my mistake and corrected it. I think Miss Rozi was really kind as she kept checking on our results.. I remembered that I forgot to record the initial temperature for the Crucible method and Miss Rozi was staring at what I was doing because I had totally forgotten to put back the thermometer inside the boiling tube..

My results were fine, but the forceps were scorching hot as the temperature of the water shot all the way up to about 98 degree Celsius and I had to continue holding the burning peanut with the same pair of forceps ):. Anyway, glad that I had one Science SPA down and two more to handle.

Up next, it was Chemistry SPA on Friday. But before that, I was still recovering from the burn that I had obtained from holding the hot tripod stand during the cleaning process from the previous SPA practices.. Anyway, I guess my results were practically fine, and I redid the experiment 3 times! I wanted to attempt it twice but my eyes couldn't concentrate on the mercury level of the thermometer, so I had to redo it one last time to confirm my results.. 

Anyway, the most interesting subject for me would be Biology for this Booster session as we completed the chapter on Hormones. I think it was pretty interesting on the first day for the theory lesson, because we started the topic by discussing about stress, and then Kah Wai mentioned something about menstruation. And the next thing you knew would be Mr Goh asking our class,

' Why do girls don't have their periods or have irregular periods whenever they are overly-stressed? '

And guess what? That led to an 'active' participation for the class. The guys seem to be more interested to answer this question as compared to the girls.. Moving on, for our second theory lesson, Miss Rozi continued the lesson by telling us about the ovaries ( sex hormones ), and once again, there was another 'active' interaction going on between Miss Rozi and the students. This leads me to the SS lessons.

During SS, we wanted to go through the answer scheme for our EOY paper, and halfway through, Kah Wai asked Miss Noraini,

' Did you know that a female has 400,000 undeveloped eggs in their ovaries? '

AND GUESS WHAT MISS NORAINI ANSWERED. She said,

'At least they're better than the sperms. There would be millions of them in the female body and they will have a difficult time finding the ONE developed egg inside the female body. Unlike the eggs, sperms are blind. '

The entire class burst out in laughter upon hearing those words.. Who would believe that Miss Noraini would mention something like that in class? Anyway, she was quite upset and disappointed throughout the entire lesson, because she was talking about students being hypocrites and teachers giving out hints for the exam papers..

And there were Maths Lessons! Mrs Ng managed to cover what she wanted to teach in class, and I've just realised that she shared the same birthday as me! :D. That totally blew me away~. And for Amaths, I didn't really understand the lessons, but I guess I'ma catch up during this holidays eh?

That's just a brief summary about what happened during the Booster sessions. Anyway, I despise the holidays this year. They're like so packed with lessons and CCAs, I can't even find myself time to breathe properly and to rest well. Speaking of CCAs, I fell sick this week, and I could not even sing properly. And I'm deciding to step down from some of my posts soon.. I don't think I'm even suited for it, and that my standards had dropped terribly despite trying to raise them higher.

I don't think my choir is ready for the concert, but I guess we'll do our best.. I can't really turn up for anymore of the practices because of my hectic tuition schedules.. I'm not really sure what to do now. All that I'm hoping for would be that my efforts pay me off for the various obstacles that I have to overcome for this entire week..

I feel like leaving a quote behind for this post, so I'ma do so right now! :D

There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.- Grey's Anatomy

 Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter.


Anyway, it's one past midnight now. I guess I'ma have to end this post and catch some sleep! Nights!

‎The past is like a handful of dust.
It fills us through our fingers, disappearing little by little.
I wish for one day, I would go back.
And in another life, I could do things differently


I wanna go down like shooting stars in the night time while the world is ours.
We won't cry when the ending starts.

And I don't want to say that it's already over,

and experience the exchange of farewells between one another.

I'm not giving up, so don't you dare give up on me.

Currently blogging now due to a request made by Matthew Ng. Hmm. The weekend was kinda wasted for me. Sigh, anyway, Adele had to go for a vocal cord operation. Hope that she'll succeed in that operation so that I can hear her sing "Someone Like You" once more (:. That VMA performance was simply breathtaking.

Anyway, I've been missing out a lot on X Factor. At first, I thought the best performance of the night belonged to Melanie. But guess what? I was wrong. I think it kinda went to Drew with her version of "What a Feeling". Had the goosebumps while hearing them sing. It's like she poured her entire heart out into the song that she sang.

'It's not about the range of notes that you can sing, but the emotions you deliver to the audience.' -Mr Ong Kok Leong.

Down with a flu bug. ):. Hope I'll get well before my Biology SPA on Wednesday. I have this feeling that I'm going to do badly for it, but I'ma do my best no matter what and clinch my A1! 

Speaking of O levels, woke up early to do one Chinese Paper. I guess it was quite alright for me, as I did quite well for it. Sigh, why must the timed practices that are held in school be so hard for most of us?! I think the only section that I can do well would be the Open Ended part. I'm starting to lose faith in my MCQs ):.

Anyway, please ignore my previous post that are white in color and in italics. I guess that isn't true anymore. It was just a feeling that I've had over the weekend. I guess I see things between us crystal clearly now. You're like a big sister to me :D. But it'll be sad to see you leave, because you've already played a major role in my life this year.

Played LoL with Randy and Elston for the entire day today, before meddling with my new hand phone ^^. Oh, and a big thank you to Randy for helping me plan a part for my chalet :D. I hope that it'll be enough for all of us to survive the night ><.

Moving on, I guess my entire weekend had been unproductive for me. I bet all the other HCL students have been mugging for their Chinese paper on the 10th while I'm just slacking myself away. I'm trying to find motivation to do so too, just that I'm failing terribly ):. Maybe I should limit myself, by reducing the number of games I play before the Chinese O levels..

There's school tomorrow for all of the Sec 3s this year, while the other levels (other than the Sec 4s) are partying the night away. I guess that's the harsh reality for most of us eh? Especially when it's gonna be exactly one year from now when we're gonna sit for the important exam, and attempt to fulfil our wishes by entering the schools that we desire..

It all starts tomorrow. No, it all starts tonight. I can make do this year once I clinch my first A1 for the nine papers that I'm gonna take in my entire Secondary School life. Then, I can enjoy my chalet with an empty mind, as well as to deliver my best efforts for the concert on the day before my birthday! 

Speaking of my birthday, I've to start preparing presents for those in November, and the first person that comes to my mind is the person that shares the same birthday as me ^^. But I've got no clue for what I'm planning to give him this year. But on the bright side, it's much simpler getting the present in comparison with girls, especially when I had to knock my head hard to think of what to give them (:.

I guess that's all for today, and for the two jokers that sit near me in class, I hope you're happy with this post. But before I leave, I'ma recommend you a club-banger for some entertainment..

Bye. (:.

I've been hot-tempered these days.

I hope that I'll be able to chill in time.

Baby it's not just you.

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

 

I'm down for whatever.

Wow. It's been a while since I've last blogged.. Firstly, a big thank you to those that have tagged my blog this week!

Moving on, it's been a crazy week for me. Despite the fact that exams are already over, there're like loads of lessons with tons of homework in preparation for our SPA and Chinese O level Papers. Sigh. I really hope all this would come to an end soon ><. Practically, there's nothing much to blog about these days..

Got back my report book on Friday. My results were horrible ><. Gotta start working hard soon. I guess it's time to face the music. I hate this part though, but I want to fulfil my wishes and make it to SAJC (:.

There's gonna be an abrupt ending in this post. Bye!

And if you know,
how do you get up from an all time low.
I'm in pieces,
seems like pieces is all I'll ever know.


I keep telling myself that it's just a crush.
It's hard to choose between my head and heart.
I think it's been nice knowing you this year (:.
I'm not gonna brag about it,
neither would I tell anyone about it.
But I think that you've been supporting all these while,
even when I'm oblivious to it.
When I heard my friends saying that you had a scholarship,
I felt sad.
As much as I would like you to take that offer,
I would want you to stay,
and relive all our memories that we've had this year.

Never Again.

I forgive you, I forgive me.
Now when do I start to feel again.


Sorry for not blogging recently, and I regret that because there're like loads of things to blog about. So I'ma just skip into the main points :

- Wednesday :
The return of the scripts part 2. I think my results were worse as compared to the first day, including my Biology. Sigh, I'm such an utter disappointment to the teachers. I was quite confident for it, yet I scored so low for it ):.

As for physics and geog, I was surprised that I could actually pass both papers as I was expecting them to fail.. But I plan on working on them during the holidays after my 'O' levels!

I think that was it ><.

Moving on, I went to KFC along with Jue Ying, Randy and Jia Wei! I think it was an awesome experience, because we were like walking through the shelters and still got wet due to the heavy downpour that day. I like walking in the rain, but running in the shelter yet still being wet was truly unforgettable (Y). We then went to the toilet to dry ourselves up before heading to KFC. And I would say that Randy was quite unfortunate to meet his conductor on the way as he was planning to be late, but still... I think the band's conductor is pretty nice and kind, well that's just my perspective of him as I bet Randy is utterly against it.

And then we went to talk about some personal stuffs, like how JY 'seduces' people and I was disgusted at some person because he/she didn't stop burping for like 10 times and I was having my zinger :X. Guess what's next? We talked about BIO! And JY seems interested in one of the topics that we're gonna cover next year, and what Randy thinks about Bio is urea. I still can vividly recall when he asked whether we had urea in our brains :D. Haha~.

For me, I like respiration the most :D. I think it's a pretty cool topic even though it has hell loads to memorize.. Randy then left for his CCA and Jia Wei came along with the water bottle that JY had left in the classroom earlier that day. Talked about LoL stuff, and JY was quite irritated by it because there're like so many people around her playing that game while she chooses not to play..

Moving on, it was Thursday. Things went smoothly for me, except the fact that we had Chemistry lessons early in the morning! Managed to complete the topic on Energy Changes, but I didn't understand a single bit of what Miss Ong was teaching that day. However, I still needed to complete the ton of homework that she assigned to us for that topic.. And there was a Leadership Workshop for all the Sec 3s after recess, and I was in Group 6A! I think we were awesome! :D. I liked the 'All Hands on Deck' and 'Human Checkers' stations. They were pretty fun for me. Well, for the rest, not so much because they were trying to emphasize on the same thing over and over again.. BUT I LIKE TOP 40 SONGS. I managed to guess ' Born This Way' by Lady Gaga :D. And then we created the Periodic Table Cheer (:.

Then, it was the dreaded Timed Practice. I nearly forgot to write my 'zhu' phrase until Yuan Zhen allowed me to catch a glimpse on my paper, and I rushed it out..  I think I did quite badly for both sections, knowing that I have missing points here and there, and some of the content that I've wrote are quite irrelevant to the question, but what's done is done eh? There's no point turning back now... Went home late and played my computer afterwards!

Friday :
There was Choir T.T. Well, I think I'm losing my falsetto really quickly this time round, and Strepsils managed to make me feel better for a while.. I could tell that the choir had already been putting up their best efforts to sing their part out, but I feel that it's not enough. To add on, I can't even attend most of the important dates that Miss Tan wrote on the board because I already have things planned for me. I think I fail terribly as the President and am truly disappointed in myself.. But I can't really do much to change that fact already eh?

Practically, all my holidays are used in playing computer games and doing homework. I guess I'm hooked into it already, but I think I've gotta start preparing for my 'O' levels in the later part of the year. I plan on doing some daily revisions in hope to secure my A1 for my CL! :D.

Oh yeah, all the best to my dearest Seniors for their 'O' level main papers tomorrow! :D. I hope that they'll do really well for it! Anyway, to end my post, I would like to say that I've managed to fulfil one of my wishes for this year, and that was to get a data plan plus a new phone! And I got both (:. I'm a happy kid for today! :D.

My apologies for the disorganization for my post today, there're bits and pieces everywhere.. So peace out.

To the two people that thought I was quite emotional during the holidays : I really appreciate your concerns a lot. It's really great to know that you two have been standing right beside me and the fact that you know something was wrong really inspires me to move on. Truth is, I might have lied to one of you saying that I was tired and that caused this to happen, but in fact, I was tired but that's not the main reason for the change in my attitude and character these days. I guess it's some stuff that I'm facing right now, and as much as I wanna tell you all what's happening to me, I'm afraid I can't, in fear that something unexpected would come along the way and ruin everything once more. Moving on, it's really great knowing you all since Day 1, and may our experiences be enhanced over the next few events that we're gonna have together, including my Birthday Chalet <3. 

It's really heartwarming to know that my friends are standing by my side as they can tell that something's wrong, even if I didn't tell them anything..

Moving on, I'm gonna get Kelly Clarkson's stronger later in the day! Can't wait to hear the rest of the album! Ahh. The anticipation's killing me right now! :)

Now to end this blog post, I'ma post one song that I'm currently obsessed with right now..

Give me the chance to love you,
I'll tell you the only reason why.
'Cause you are on my mind.

I should've known that the outcome would've been like this.
But I guess everything's over now..
If we could ever talk again,
I would want to say that it was nice meeting you since the start of this year.
I should just focus on the upcoming events that are coming at the end of this year,
and stop thinking of you daily anymore.
It's not gonna happen between us,
and it's time for me to snap back into reality once more.


Stop living in your delusional dreams anymore.
It may not be just you,
but things changed for both of us.

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. “It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.” I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.” My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.” Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.” Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?” “OK,” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!” Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” “My mommy loves white roses.” A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. 

Now you have 2 choices: 1) Reblog this message. 2) Ignore it as if it never touched your heart

You got no right to tell me who I really am.

Hey guys, it's pretty late now.. So I guess this is gonna be a short post eh? Went out with the 2e1'10 people on Monday, along with Adeline too! I guess it was pretty fun for us, even though we were chased out by the arcade. And I realised that I look VERY innocent. Louis asked me to ask the counter whether we could play at the LAN even though it wasn't an official school holiday and she allowed us in :D. Watched them play dota, and I think that they were kinda thrashed..

But before that, we were hanging out at the food court at the 6th level (I think) and stared at the Pepper Lunch television set, and Louis was tempted to buy it :D. Haha! Anyway, when we were at the LAN, the girls arrived and told us that they've been waiting us for an hour, the same amount of time that we stoned at the food court.. Feel really guilty about that though ><. But it's alright, because Adeline's here to save the day! Even though they were kinda lost in the end, but they bought Gong Cha and I was jealous ._.

Then, we went to JustAcia to eat our lunch! Adeline and I were discussing about chalet stuff. We talked about things that were quite saddening too, like about our class and what's been going on recently. This let me to ponder about the things around me, especially my friends. It's hard to help one side only because both of them are my good friends since sec 1! One had been sitting beside me for two whole years, and the other had been my 'bottle' for me to confide my secrets in. Sigh.. Really hope that they would patch up in the end.

I taught Cherie how to drink a Kimchi Soup with a ladle, like the more CIVILISED way! Haha, it's been ages since I last used that word. Guess I'll never fail to use my 2 favorite words whenever I'm with my Sec 2 class.. We were so bonded.. And now.. Sigh. ):.

Moving on, we went to watch 'Real Steel'! I bought hotdog and a drink for myself :D. It's been ages since I last ate a hotdog.. Anyway, it's a pity that I didn't sit with Gracia that day, as I wanted to tell her countless stuff as we haven't been in contact since the September holidays, and that was Smurfs, when we were talking halfway through the movie. It's alright though, I'm hoping to see her during my birthday chalet <3.

Talking about the movie, I don't think it's a good movie to recommend you all, unless you all want to have an honest moment inside the theater. Practically nearly fell asleep in the first hour of the movie. Cliche introduction, but as the story gradually builds up, it intensifies but still, I'll rate it a 5.5/10. It's just my personal preference ><, hope that those who liked the movie don't feel offended at all.

Went back home after that and watched my X Factor! I think I'm in love with a male contestant now. HAHA, But Caitlyn is still the best <3. Played a few rounds with Randy afterwards :D, and he broke my losing streak once again. I think I'm a noob at computer games, but I'm willing to learn!

Tuesday :

Argh. It's literally doomsday. Got back half of my results and I'm not really satisfied with them. Sigh..
Wouldn't want to post my results out yet because I wanna post them all in one shot, and that I did something with someone, so I hope that SOMEONE treats me my bubble tea for the entire year ^^, rather than me giving him 10 dollars T.T.

The day started with Chemistry. My results wasn't pretty bad compared to the rest, but I felt that I could've done better. When I asked Miss Ong a question about the Calcium Silicate, I could feel her disappointment in me. Sigh, I'm such a letdown. Upon checking through the script, I realised that I've thrown away 5 marks just because of not reading/analysing the question properly. 5 marks make a difference in one grade, and that's really a lot. Sighh.. I hope that I'll do well for Chemistry SPA in November.. I don't wanna disappoint Miss Ong again, even though she could be a little scary at times especially when I'm sitting at the first row in her class.

Then, it was Social Studies. I was a little surprised upon knowing that I passed.. Hmm. It was satisfactory, but my SBQs were horribly done. Sigh, I expected more from that section to save my mark. In the end, the essays saved me T.T. It's a good thing, but I kinda regretted some stuff that I've done during the duration of the paper, like not writing the conclusion for the first essay thinking that one of my factors would have a big CMI written all over it..

Next, English. I PASSED MY COMPO (:. But for my comprehension, terribly done once again. I think my grades are slipping and I really need to work on my English. Got to speak proper English from tomorrow onwards!

Moving on, my double maths. Both were a GREAT disappointment to me. I haven't exactly told my parents about any of my results yet, because I know that I might get scolded for my Emaths. It was horrendous. I didn't meet the A1 grade for the O level standard. Sigh. But at least, A maths was a bit of a saving grace to me, because I didn't expect myself to get that mark, but there were careless mistakes here and there and I should've had better time management T.T.

Last, HCL. I WAS NEARLY ON THE VERGE OF TEARS UPON RECEIVING MY PAPER. It was really.. A great disappointment. I hope the CL department doesn't kick me out of HCL because of my horrible results. So what I can do now is to hope for the best, and embrace myself for tomorrow... Sigh. I think that I've disappointed Jiang Lao Shi. She was such a good teacher, and tried her best to aid me in that subject, and all that I did was to let her down T.T.

If only time could rewind and that I could correct my mistakes once more.
I'm sure that I'd do them right.

After that, I went to tuition and fell asleep halfway due to exhaustion T.T. What's the worse part? The teacher that caught me was new and I was wearing my tie T.T. Anyway, lesson carried on as usual and I LOVE THE TEACHER THAT TEACHES ME COMPO (:. She's awesome.

Anyway, there's gonna be an abrupt ending to my post once again.. But before that, I wanna leave a message behind. Nights!

Hey Marijuana! I know that you may no longer be reading this blog anymore, but I want you to know that you can overcome this storm okay? To me, you're the best in that subject! Don't feel discouraged alright? Look at you, you've won me in almost every single subject today, including the Mathematical subjects. I'm sure that you'll win me too tomorrow. Cheer up! I don't wanna see you emo in school tomorrow, and I don't know what to do if you really do other than to give you sticky. I feel very guilty about that, because you've been comforting me every single time whenever I was really down in school.. We should buy KOI sometime okay? We'll have awesome times in my birthday chalet in less than 4 weeks away! (:.

In another life, I would make you stay.
So I don't have to say that you're the one that got away.
But I'm afraid of starting over again.
I'm scared that things would turn out the way I imagined it to be.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.


Managed to book the class chalet! I feel so accomplished for once in a while. Sigh, I hope things would turn out right this time. Anyway, gotta plan for it though, because my birthday chalet falls on the first night of it (:. Can't wait to use this opportunity to bond with my class right now, and to catch up with my friends from the past..

Been playing comp recently.. I'm such a bad boy right?! Anyway, i'm supposed to wake up 8 hours later (It's midnight now) and play with somebody! Haha, hope that I'll have fun later~ Anyway, gonna meet Louis and other 2e1'10 friends like Mortal ^^ to watch Real Steel tomorrow at Dhoby Ghaut! And I've refilled 3 sticky jars earlier today at Central before dining at Manhattan Fish Market for Lunch :D. I think the drinks are awesome, but I prefer Fish & Co though. Oh well, it's personal preference!

Tuesday is like arriving sooner than what I've expected. You might have guessed the reason right, as it's Scripts Checking day. I hope that I won't do as badly as what I had imagined earlier on, but who knows what would happen right? GOSH, It was so terrifying upon hearing that Miss Rozi had completed marking my Bio paper on Friday.. Sigh, and now Mr Teo's busy marking Geography and SS scripts right now. I hope everything goes well smoothly, and I'm kinda in self-denial now, because things would go wrong everywhere. Sigh..

Anyway, I'm just gonna enjoy life for the next 24 hours before confronting my very own version of Doomsday. I just wanna have fun, before knowing the ugly truth about how horribly I'd done for my EOY. But it's too late for regrets now.. Hmm, I think my friends would have the same feelings as what I'm experiencing now. All the best to those checking their scripts on Tuesday!

Moving on, there's a song that's stuck in my head for the entire week. I can totally relate to the lyrics, and what's the best part? It's Kelly Clarkson <3. It's been too long since she's been gone. I HOPE THAT SHE'LL MAKE HER BREAKAWAY ONCE MORE (:.

'So what, you've got the world at your feet,
and you know everything about everything,
but you don't.
You still think that I'm coming back,
but baby you'll see..'
- Kelly Clarkson

Aren't the lyrics true to us in one way or another? Sometimes people think that they know us, but in fact, they don't know anything about us, just like what I've been pondering about recently.

There's gonna be an abrupt ending to my post today. But before that, I'ma leave a quote behind.. Nights!

'When someone comes into your life,
they're here for a reason.
You either learn from them,
or be with them right till the end.'
- http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com

Lessons learned,
bridges burnt down the ground.
And it's too late to put out the fire.