Do you think about me,
as I think about you?
I'm falling for you all over again.
But it's hard,
because it's my fault to begin with.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
16.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
Even though 16 has been absolutely great to me so far, I miss being fifteen. It's possibly the most memorable year of my life. It has been a roller-coaster ride for me, with highs and lows. There were times that were so discouraging and displeasing to the point when I almost gave up everything, including my life. But many fond memories were created in that year too. There were friendships made, strengthened and fostered while there were some which crumbled. To be honest, I have no regrets giving up on most of the decisions I've made this year, except for one.
Fifteen was meaningful. It was the year when I could really start understanding others and pay special attention to the little things in life. I've been too focused on the 'big' stuffs in the past to the extent of forgetting and even neglecting all the little wonders that I have around me. Here's to all the friends who have been supportive of me throughout my 15th year. I wouldn't have made it without you all ( Adeline, Clare, Gracia, Xin Yi, Chang Jie, Mun Pin etc. ). You guys never fail to cheer me up whenever I felt down, no matter its degree. And it's been really a pleasure meeting you.
But sadly to say, I've realised that I haven't made many real friends in Sec 3 onwards. My friendship with Clarissa was severed earlier this year, but I am really glad to know Jue Ying, Keandra and Sarah. They are AWESOME people! Thinking about it, most of my real friends actually bothered to take some time off to attend my birthday dinner on the 12th itself, apart from Ying Shun ):. But let's just cast aside all the negative emotions now k? It was an awesome night! I found myself lost at Dhoby Ghaut station initially because I couldn't find Exit A as I was the purple-line boy xD. The others seem quite irritated with me as I faced many difficulties finding the Glasshouse. But nevertheless, thanks to Sarah and Sean, we managed to get there eventually. And guess what? Sean asked me what is the restaurant's signature dish. And I was like ._. It's Fish&Co! Fish is a MUST BUY there!
Ordered Salmon because I love cooked salmon. Had an incredible evening with all those who attended the dinner. Cracked many jokes and got to know them at a much deeper level. It was really nice of them to buy me a birthday cake and celebrate my birthday the Fish&Co style! It's great to have friends like them!
Wanted to head to LAN afterwards but they were all full, unfortunately, But nevertheless, I went home with Clare :D. Talked about a certain person on the bus ride home. She did have a point, but I just find him a bit too much. Sigh, I hate lies. But most importantly, I hate broken promises. Played LoL with the guys afterwards and went to sleep :3.
Joyce. Rowena and Yi Jie also celebrated my birthday by taking me out on a Saturday. I love my daughters so much <3 .="." a="a" about="about" amp="amp" and="and" at="at" awesome="awesome" because="because" beef="beef" bought="bought" but="but" buy="buy" clothes="clothes" fashion="fashion" for="for" garden.="garden." good="good" h="h" had="had" hotplate="hotplate" i="i" improve="improve" is="is" it.="it." it="it" like="like" lunch="lunch" me="me" my="my" p="p" sense="sense" seoul="seoul" some="some" spent="spent" that="that" they="they" to="to" uniqlo="uniqlo" ve="ve" wanted="wanted" was="was" we="we" went="went" whatever="whatever" worth="worth" xd.="xd.">
Anyway, holidays have been pretty busy for me so far. Spent the last two weeks catching up with my friends. Visited the choir on Monday and was quite shocked at their progress especially when their concert was just around the corner. Treated Hui Fang and Valerene to Gong Cha and had lunch at Pizza Hut with Xin Jie, Hui Fang, Valerene and Sean. It was extremely heartwarming for me, as I raised them up in choir since day 1. I still can vividly recall the very first day they stepped into the Music Room with innocent faces. And now, they are leaders. I hope that they'll be able to continue leading the choir well next year for their SYF (:. All the best! Told Hui Fang my dirty little secret about why I refuse to wear my choir tee xD. Oh yeah! We nearly forgot to pay for our meal!
Went out with Rebecca and Ikhmah to watch Pitch Perfect and Perks of a Wallflower (my first NC16 movie). Pitch Perfect has got to be one of the best musical-comedy films I've ever watched in my life. I like how the female lead sings 'Titanium' with her alto range! Headed to Pastamania for dinner and had Huifang and Jenny serving us! Thanks for the 30% staff discount guys! I thoroughly enjoyed my penne with meatballs.
Rushed back to the cinema to catch the last screening of Perks. There's only one word to describe the movie. Memorable. Not only is it my first NC16 movie, but it's the first movie that made me tear up at least twice, and feel a sense of warmth and happiness in my heart at the same time. To be honest, I wish that I had a friend like Sam. I definitely will want to watch the entire movie again! Went to Baskin Robbins afterwards to catch a late night ice-cream supper before sending Ikhmah off and heading home..
Packed my luggage and my room over the next few days to prepare for my trip to HK. Asked the LoL clique out to attend the Garena Carnival on Saturday. But before that, we headed to Expo to watch IEM live! It's a pity seeing how KLH got thrashed by a European team! But it was a refreshing experience as there is an entirely different set of emotions and atmosphere watching matches LIVE as compared to watching streaming videos or playbacks. Ah. I wish that I could play Zilean that well.. The players have good reflex, unlike me ):.
Went to Bugis afterwards for a quick lunch at Yoshinoya before attending the Carnival! Really admired the sheer hard work that the participants put into their costumes for the Cosplay competition! I realised that many people dolled themselves up as Ahri, the fox-like girl. Their props were SO good. And the poses they made showed how carefully they studied every single detail of her in the game. Went upstairs soon after to watch some Blackshot matches and was quite surprised to see how the all-guys team was thrashed by the all-girls team. This proves that girls can play games well too. So Clare, if you read this, it might be a good inspiration to play well! :D
Sigh, I've been doing this post for weeks. Sorry for the late update and the abrupt ending. Will post more about my HK experiences soon in my next few posts. It's about 11pm now and I'm going to disneyland tomorrow with Esther! Alright, see ya!
Nothing ever stays the same.
Forever now,
forever changed.
Even though 16 has been absolutely great to me so far, I miss being fifteen. It's possibly the most memorable year of my life. It has been a roller-coaster ride for me, with highs and lows. There were times that were so discouraging and displeasing to the point when I almost gave up everything, including my life. But many fond memories were created in that year too. There were friendships made, strengthened and fostered while there were some which crumbled. To be honest, I have no regrets giving up on most of the decisions I've made this year, except for one.
Fifteen was meaningful. It was the year when I could really start understanding others and pay special attention to the little things in life. I've been too focused on the 'big' stuffs in the past to the extent of forgetting and even neglecting all the little wonders that I have around me. Here's to all the friends who have been supportive of me throughout my 15th year. I wouldn't have made it without you all ( Adeline, Clare, Gracia, Xin Yi, Chang Jie, Mun Pin etc. ). You guys never fail to cheer me up whenever I felt down, no matter its degree. And it's been really a pleasure meeting you.
But sadly to say, I've realised that I haven't made many real friends in Sec 3 onwards. My friendship with Clarissa was severed earlier this year, but I am really glad to know Jue Ying, Keandra and Sarah. They are AWESOME people! Thinking about it, most of my real friends actually bothered to take some time off to attend my birthday dinner on the 12th itself, apart from Ying Shun ):. But let's just cast aside all the negative emotions now k? It was an awesome night! I found myself lost at Dhoby Ghaut station initially because I couldn't find Exit A as I was the purple-line boy xD. The others seem quite irritated with me as I faced many difficulties finding the Glasshouse. But nevertheless, thanks to Sarah and Sean, we managed to get there eventually. And guess what? Sean asked me what is the restaurant's signature dish. And I was like ._. It's Fish&Co! Fish is a MUST BUY there!
Ordered Salmon because I love cooked salmon. Had an incredible evening with all those who attended the dinner. Cracked many jokes and got to know them at a much deeper level. It was really nice of them to buy me a birthday cake and celebrate my birthday the Fish&Co style! It's great to have friends like them!
Wanted to head to LAN afterwards but they were all full, unfortunately, But nevertheless, I went home with Clare :D. Talked about a certain person on the bus ride home. She did have a point, but I just find him a bit too much. Sigh, I hate lies. But most importantly, I hate broken promises. Played LoL with the guys afterwards and went to sleep :3.
Joyce. Rowena and Yi Jie also celebrated my birthday by taking me out on a Saturday. I love my daughters so much <3 .="." a="a" about="about" amp="amp" and="and" at="at" awesome="awesome" because="because" beef="beef" bought="bought" but="but" buy="buy" clothes="clothes" fashion="fashion" for="for" garden.="garden." good="good" h="h" had="had" hotplate="hotplate" i="i" improve="improve" is="is" it.="it." it="it" like="like" lunch="lunch" me="me" my="my" p="p" sense="sense" seoul="seoul" some="some" spent="spent" that="that" they="they" to="to" uniqlo="uniqlo" ve="ve" wanted="wanted" was="was" we="we" went="went" whatever="whatever" worth="worth" xd.="xd.">
Anyway, holidays have been pretty busy for me so far. Spent the last two weeks catching up with my friends. Visited the choir on Monday and was quite shocked at their progress especially when their concert was just around the corner. Treated Hui Fang and Valerene to Gong Cha and had lunch at Pizza Hut with Xin Jie, Hui Fang, Valerene and Sean. It was extremely heartwarming for me, as I raised them up in choir since day 1. I still can vividly recall the very first day they stepped into the Music Room with innocent faces. And now, they are leaders. I hope that they'll be able to continue leading the choir well next year for their SYF (:. All the best! Told Hui Fang my dirty little secret about why I refuse to wear my choir tee xD. Oh yeah! We nearly forgot to pay for our meal!
Went out with Rebecca and Ikhmah to watch Pitch Perfect and Perks of a Wallflower (my first NC16 movie). Pitch Perfect has got to be one of the best musical-comedy films I've ever watched in my life. I like how the female lead sings 'Titanium' with her alto range! Headed to Pastamania for dinner and had Huifang and Jenny serving us! Thanks for the 30% staff discount guys! I thoroughly enjoyed my penne with meatballs.
Rushed back to the cinema to catch the last screening of Perks. There's only one word to describe the movie. Memorable. Not only is it my first NC16 movie, but it's the first movie that made me tear up at least twice, and feel a sense of warmth and happiness in my heart at the same time. To be honest, I wish that I had a friend like Sam. I definitely will want to watch the entire movie again! Went to Baskin Robbins afterwards to catch a late night ice-cream supper before sending Ikhmah off and heading home..
Packed my luggage and my room over the next few days to prepare for my trip to HK. Asked the LoL clique out to attend the Garena Carnival on Saturday. But before that, we headed to Expo to watch IEM live! It's a pity seeing how KLH got thrashed by a European team! But it was a refreshing experience as there is an entirely different set of emotions and atmosphere watching matches LIVE as compared to watching streaming videos or playbacks. Ah. I wish that I could play Zilean that well.. The players have good reflex, unlike me ):.
Went to Bugis afterwards for a quick lunch at Yoshinoya before attending the Carnival! Really admired the sheer hard work that the participants put into their costumes for the Cosplay competition! I realised that many people dolled themselves up as Ahri, the fox-like girl. Their props were SO good. And the poses they made showed how carefully they studied every single detail of her in the game. Went upstairs soon after to watch some Blackshot matches and was quite surprised to see how the all-guys team was thrashed by the all-girls team. This proves that girls can play games well too. So Clare, if you read this, it might be a good inspiration to play well! :D
Sigh, I've been doing this post for weeks. Sorry for the late update and the abrupt ending. Will post more about my HK experiences soon in my next few posts. It's about 11pm now and I'm going to disneyland tomorrow with Esther! Alright, see ya!
Nothing ever stays the same.
Forever now,
forever changed.
Friday, November 2, 2012
最终还得放手。
希望放得更高，失望会变得更大。
我真得很想相信你对我所说的话。
你曾经跟我说过，你一定会尽力出现。
但我没想到，我最终还是被骗。
可能我当初的猜测是对的，
你已经不把我当成一位好朋友了。
我觉得自己很笨，
为什么要让自己感到失望呢？
其实，
我早已经猜到你会口是心非，
令我感到失望。
因为你这一年来，
已经拒绝了我所有邀请，
但我也知道，你接受其他人的邀请。
别再装了。
我们还是折断我们之间的友情吧。
因为如果我们这样继续下去，
双方不但不能得到好处，
也会感到伤害。
我知道，你陪我出去是一个很痛苦的经验。
跟我聊天，也是一个烦恼的事情。
那一天，你玩得开心吧。
我早期祝你一声生日快乐。
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