Hey, I'm back for more updates :D.
Today's the last day of the resting day. Sigh. And exams are like in 3 days more. And who knows well when, I'm not gonna be a Sec 2 anymore. D:.

Anyways, before the moment of farewell, we should all do our best, and say that we have enjoyed ourselves in Sec 1 and 2! Let the prologues have happy endings (:.

Today studied and talked a lot. With Dad, and Alphy. But its like, I TRIED TO REVIVE MY SKYPE MICROPHONE! And it just died D:. Nevermind, I'll test that again some other time :D. I know my blog playlist's a bit in a mess. So Im thinking of changing it. Any suggestions? Maybe that hidden playlist I got for Casanova might work? o.o. Who knows? Sigh. Just stick with this. It sounds. HAPPIER. At Least To Me.

- I've always been A Quitter -. And that happy tune (:.

Then went to test Daddy's cooking. Quite okay, but a bit failed ><. Too much sugar, too little oils and stuff. But do better next time :D. AT LEAST ITS EDIBLE! Studied more, and ooh. Invited quite a handful to tmr's study group! Cool eh? Anyways, I'ma plan to do these stuff by TMR. - Format Letter Notes/Revision - 1 Maths Paper. - Science Notes Revision - Geography ( I'm kinda scared for it! ) - CL Revision Sigh. Got so many. But I REALLY NEEDA PULL UP THAT HORRIFIC MARK OF CHINESE! Buffet after that, and my leg went itchy! Itchy itchy itchy! Like I ate something I shouldn't. School's gonna start. And more beginnings.:D. Each Happy Ending's a Brand New Beginning.
Let Us Just Be Enchanted.
But What Happens If My Life Isn't a Fairy Tale?
No Happy Endings, No Beginnings.
Just Stuck in my Life, Waiting till the end.
Things would Just Come Crashing Down,
And Leave You Crying In the Rain.

I can't believe Advanced Papers are coming this Thursday! Sigh. D:.

Anyways, new playlist! This might be the weakest playlist. Not alot of songs that stands out, but It'll be fine to compile them together as a playlist :D. Here's the Order:

1) Quitter - Carrie Underwood
2) Catch Me - Demi Lovato
3) Dont Waste Your Time - Kelly Clarkson
4) I Will Be - Leona Lewis
5) Firework - Katy Perry
6) Suddenly - Ashley Tisdale
7) Better Off Alone - Katherine Mcphee

Enjoy :D

Some Secrets Need to Be Kept.
And Yet You Told Her.
You Still Intepreted for her.
And Left Me With A Broken Heart.

We Were So Close,
Yet So Far Away.
She was so hypnotizing,
Got me Smiling in My Sleep.

Now I'm Terrified of What You Would Do.

We weren't made for each other,
Why Must I STILL force it?

Studying session in place. I'm filthily stressed now. But I just ate Twisties :D. Oh goodness knows how long since I last ate that. But it definitely was filling :D

Then talked with Alphy. Apparently, he knows almost everything about me. Or just that I've been hiding loads of stuff from him ><. Aiya, I;m not sure of stuffs now. Not to trust anyone but myself? Hmm.. Dilemma mode now.

Swimming lesson was HORRIBLE. My first timing was okay, but second was a horrible disaster! Gahh. I had cramps and I was dizzy throughout the entire session. D:.

My dearest DEAR :D. You've been a wonderful senior to me :D. Hope you enjoy this year and your NEXT year's one as it will be sweet sixteen :D.

Anyways, today had school. Quite fun :D. Was passing down messages and reading them like crazy during Geog :D. And CJ called me a Central Message Centre :D. YAY!

Maths : Totally shaking. Not because I did not finish my timed practice, just that I finished it too fast and I already went to Paper 2 and Miss Lin had to threaten me to slow down and check Paper 1! :D, my hands cant take the abrupt slowdown. But yeah, I handled it well.

Lit SSP! Miss Kaur is so awesome :D. Give us notes and I really do understand them :D.

Here We Go :

- Back home, and did not really celebrate Mid Autumn Festival because I needed to study :D.
- But played with Alpy instead D:. But I AT LEAST HAD 3 HOURS OF STUDYING OKAY!
- And then My dad taught me resistance. And some sad stories about his childhood because last time, him and his friend built a rocket with chemicals, and his friends was handicapped FOR LIFE. :C. And in JC, a person was spilled with acid and there were patches on his face, LUCKY he wore goggles and that they were dilute acid, so he got well :D.
- Was packing my stuff and I read through some of my Angel/Mortal's/ FAITHFUL NEIGHBOURS letters. Really touching letters. Sweet Old Memories~.

The Story of Romeo, Juliet and Julia shall start all over again.

Why can't life erase and rewind?
So that I wouldn't have said that,
and maybe, we wouldn't have met in the first place.
It might save us from the trouble.
But they're Already Gone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DIANA :D. Enjoy your day ahead okay? :D. Your little junior is here for you xD!!

Stop giving me that look.
Just because I got first in class for CA2.
But it's like so what?
SA2 still counts right?
Yeah, you keep thinking that I'm smart.
And that if I make a mistake, you'll think that I shouldn't.
What type of nonsense is this?
And just because my physics is not good,
You don't have to call my name and give me that unbelievable look that I have SSP right?

I'm glad. Glad that everything's back to normal. We patched up. Started off with an apology letter. Quite cool yeah :D? Looks like letters are those who REALLY hold the sincerity of something. Sigh, bought tidbits, and smuggled sweets in class. I'm really getting naughty!!

Was really distracted today. But who cares. I'm not gonna do my gong han. Just played computer for a while to de-stress. But that would lead to today's and tomorrow's work collide together in a single day. But who the OMGness Cares?

Anyways, today Me, Quenton, Joy and Ying shun went to IT special room 3 to study. AT LEAST WE DID PAPERS :D. Real cool. Didnt really bother to check. But I will do so soon! :D. Had many talks about her, her, and her. Each 'her' refers to different people :D. And then walked on the rain. QUITE COOL. Its been so long since I last did that ever since the exam stress was burning the hell out of me! But nevermind, I'll still be sober D:.

HE test is tomorrow, and I didnt bring my HE TB home. Gah. I'm so gonna fail it especially with graphs to do and the BLOODY SHIT is that the topic is Diet Related Disease. It's so BIOLOGY which I can't stuff inside my head! Aw. But my focus is on academic this year. I did particularly well for Music in my two years. But who cares? I NEEDA get the combination I want.
I need the:

1) Desperation : Resorting into hard work and perserverance to get the things that I REALLY WANT.
2) Determination : Be motivated and that I would not be easily distracted. Work hard, play harder. But without work, no play. Need to really study! And must not be distracted or behind my homework nowadays!


Although we said sorry to each other,
I still can't get over the fact that it has been done.
The damages inflicted will remain as scars.
Scars in my heart.
It would never be healed,
But permanent.
Just hope that we'll be able to be happy.
And spend the last few weeks together.

Boo. I'm back. Real Tired! 2 Practice Papers in a single day! And oh boy, I'm not gonna do my Literature Homework today. Im gonna do it tmr. Just.Too.Tired.

Sigh. I talked to you today. Just one Sentence. And that counts loads to me :D. You won't read it. Cause I privated this blog :D. And oh yeah, Angel was sitting behind me during class! Damn cool :D. Was talking and talking and talking! I seem distracted :X. But who cares.

Anyways, was going through my drawer of letters and stuff. Its a bit messy. But managed to look through letters that both my angel and mortal sent to me :D. And this was really meaningful from my ANGEL ^^. ( One of the last few letters than she sent me :D )

YOOHOO Mortal~

Well its gonna be time to reveal our true identities. So I just thought that maybe its time to give you some God-Like Advice :D

So Here Goes Nothing :D

1) Dont let any moment pass you by!
Yes. Don't you know like Kris Allen's song ' Live Like You're Dying'
[ 86400 seconds in a day. To turn it all around or to throw it all away ]
The lyrics of the song speak for themself. We are taking for granted the many things that happen to us in a life-time. If you see an opportunity, grab it. STOP AT NOTHING Mortal~ Do anything and everything to better yourself in anyway whatsoever. Just remember to not ever lose yourself while doing so.
" There Comes A Time In Life, When You HAVE To let go of all the Pointless Drama & the People Who Created It & Surround Yourself (: with people who make you LAUGH SO HARD! :D that you forget the BAD and focus on the GOOD. "

(( AFTER ALL, life's just too short to be anything but HAPPY. ))

2) Spread the L.O.V.E
Far and wide, its GOOD KARMA :D
In the sense of young people's language, they have naturally become extremely sensitive to the word LOVE. So I'm telling you not to. LOVE is probably the most powerful thing that will ever be introduced into this world. Welcome it whole-heartedly. Love hopes all things, endures all things. LOVE never fails. Express your love in any possible way to any person. Whoever they may be. Even just a smile to a stranger can go a long way. NOW THATS GENUINE. <3 { To LOVE is to LOVE without conditions or an expiry date. To LOVE is to LOVE until it hurts so much, then you'll know that you've went way beyond yourself. } and after which joy at it's simplest and loveliest form. 3) Dont Ever Stop Being You. Feel Good About Yourself. Be Confident and Strong :D - > Your presence is a present to the world.
- > You're truly one of a kind.
- > Your life can be what you want it to be.
- > Take the days one @ a time.
- > Count your blessings. Not your Troubles.
- > You'll make it through whatever comes along.
- > Within you are so many answers.
- > Have COURAGE.
- > Be STRONG.

And don't you ever forget how very SPECIAL you are ((((:

A million & one people are behind you every step of the way. Shouldering your yoke and carrying your burden alongside you. They will never leave you as long as you keep going and never give up.

FROM ME TO YOU,

Your Angel :D

I'm sorry angel. I lost my specialty. Too many things happened to me. Maybe someday, somehow I would pick myself back onto the right track. But that would be someday. Someday when I Stop Loving You. I treat it whole-heartedly. And my blessings in an inverse proportion to my troubles. Sigh. I spent my time meaningfully though :D. That's something great.

I'm planning to revive the game. Between me and my angel/mortal. To spend the last bit of us being classmates even though we already know who we are. At least you would be able to wave our hands high in the air and say goodbye.

Everything's not gonna get right. But I have to overcome this obstacle.

I just realised what a pathetic friend I am. I can't even talk properly. Looking through my sms-es, they make no sense. My minds in a whirl right now. Someone just tell me to give up D:.

- Even when it's not, I'll tell everything's alright. -

Sigh. Just came back from swimming :D. Quite cool. My timing abit off today D:. Same with Jaz. But who the hell cares as I had that glamorous shot of me swimming backstroke and that tidal wave i made if I'm pissed while swimming :DDD.

Anyways, to you. Well, if you want it. I'm fine with it :D. But you have to think about him. So yeah =]. Things are always complicated. D:. But maybe we'll hang out after exams or something? Stuck at home is boring T.T.

My maths is horrible! And yes, I mean REAL horrible. I didn't expect myself to de-prove until this stage where I can't finish the paper in 2h! That serves my blindspot! More attitude, more determination! I have to show it! Triple Science, Here I come :D.

Currently sticking to my study plan! :D. Its really nice when you can strike them off once you're done with them. But thats REVISION PART 1. Next week is for the other subjects. And during the Advanced Paper week, its gonna be Hell. And so for Week 4. Oh well, I might as well just to be contented about what I'm doing :D.

And you, I just can't let you go D:.

Mortal : Thanks for being there whenever I needed advice :D. And that we talk practically everything under the sun :D
Angel: Thanks for the encouragements that you gave me and that you taught me a bit of theory ^^.

- The Sad Song Remains the Last Song I'm hearing. -

New Blogskin. It's based on the First Song of the Playlist by Kelly Clarkson. Really Cool and it totally describes me now.

New Playlist too :D. It is made of old songs that were in the previous playlists. It describes the theme really well. I might change my Blog URL once more. So yeah :D.

- Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson
- Sober by Kelly Clarkson
- My Hands by Leona Lewis
- Don't Forget To Remember Me by Carrie Underwood
- The Last Song by Rihanna
- When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne
- My Immortal by Evanescence

Oh yeah, the Playlist could be seen once more cause the blogskin allows it this time :D. Enjoy.

Today was okay i guess. You sat beside me. But we hardly exchanged words. That's at least a room for improvement :D.

My knee is still swollen ><. Grrr. I've confided stuff with loads of people. But this time, I'm not sure I can tell the right thing anymore. Justice is gone. Gone with the wind. Sigh, I wanna get rid of this mess, but I just know that I can't.

Me and ________________ are _________. Fill in the blanks :D. But still, I don't think its serious.

Went back home, studied physics and chem. I haven't really lost all my touch in chem equations :D. And that's a good thing. Physics is now down until next week. So more focus on Geog, Maths and Lit.

TMR I have to sit down on my table for two hours. No phones, no toilet breaks, no food, no music, no games. T.T. I will finish that Maths Paper and realise what standard am I in now. I will cram up some notable information and just attempt that paper. Practice makes Permanent. And I tend to make a good one out of it.

- Everytime I look at you, It's like the first time. -

I just can't get over you. No matter what you did to me. But still, I can't do anything. You said " Peace Out " after all those things you said. Glad you knew the other side of me then.

Thanks to those who really helped me emotionally :D. Even you, yes you. But for now, I can't trust anyway around me.

I gotta find where is it. Gotta finish that composition by today. Gotta finish what I'm supposed to do. Why is Term 4 so screwed up D:.

Sigh. I privated my blog because of one reason. You. Glad that we straightened things out. I guess I really know what's your perspective on me. Freaking Gay, Stalker and etc. Yeah, I cried just now. In the afternoon. While studying. I admitted to you that I was that. A jerk, retard, gay, stalker. I now know why you are giving me the cold shoulder. But the feeling is still within me.

As for you who told her, don't ask me to forgive you. Guess I was wrong- to give second chances, for my heart to melt and to let you off. But I was knocked hard at the back. That seriously hurts.

Both of you, I had the thought of the difference if I'm dead or alive. No one cares anymore. I'm back as lonely. Well, although there were pages turned, some bridges burned, but there were lessons learned. I just realized that I can only trust one person: And that is myself. No more secrets. Its time to forget the past and look at the present. I cant confide to you all anymore. I'm sorry Angel, Mortal and all my other friends that I trusted in. I just can't do it anymore.

Sorry.

Hey guys :D.
I'm back and I shall say I'm done studying with GEOG And some of physics along with CHINESE FORMAL LETTER :D. WOOTS!

Now doing Art, and I still do EL compo. WHY TERM 4 SO STRESSEED D:.

Gonna make this post short, not supposed to post anyways :D.

If I can't have you, then I don't want anyone.

Hey Guys :D. Here is the playlist updates :D. Anyways, I might not change my playlist so often because of school stuff already. So do enjoy yourself =].

Legend : * means a MUST LISTEN.

1) That's Where It Is - Carrie Underwood*
2) E.T - Katy Perry*
3) Permanent December - Miley Cyrus
4) Knock You Down - Keri Hilson feat. Kanye West and Neyo*
5) If I Can't Have You - Kelly Clarkson
6) Commander - Kelly Rowland feat David Guetta
7) Acting Out - Ashley Tisdale
8) Hard - Rihanna feat. Jeezy
9) Take it Off - Kesha*
10) Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce*

:D.

Sigh, September Holidays seemed fast. LIKE REALLY FAST. It seemed that yesterday was still Monday! Argh. I'm not really upset over that. I only studied physics and Geog and a bit of Chinese D:. My MATHS. MY POOR POOR MATHS! When am I gonna sit somewhere and start doing it like there's no tomorrow. Gah, I really need assessment books for Maths as the TB seems pretty easy :D.

Well, I've been playing comp LOADS LOADS LOADS and that I didnt have enough time to sleep. Its so hard to set my biological clock back to the start. But the good thing about this holiday :

- Met New Friends :D
- Sms-ed and Talked More :D.
- DESTRESS BY LOADS.

Once today finishes, I dont think I can use the computer that much already! Maybe 1h a day? Well, I should be content compared to some other people who maybe cant touch the comp forever. BUT IM WORRIED ABOUT THE STRESS LOAD D:. It seems like its gonna multiply by 2 per second D:. I have to really buck up. I remember Miss Lin told me, 2 weeks still can make it de :D. So i shall start from TMR. I shall resist all the temptations, including you my dear blog D:.

Toodles.

Its September Holidays.

- If stars don't align, If it doesn't stop time. If you can't see the sign, Wait For It. -

I just like that song :D. Although my blog's playlist had a screwed up version at the end. Oh well :D. Listen to the official one though.

Sigh, I don't really know what to blog about. Nothing seems to matter, or weigh anything since you're gone =]. Oh well, I was totally having a different mood for choir. Looks like my singing style depends on my mood. Sighh. But yeah, tomorrow's canceled off. Oh well.

I've been playing real loads these few days. I should really control myself. People are going to school to study tomorrow. But I'm not sure whether I should or not. Cuz they might be a distraction being the hyperactive type. Or would I stay at home and complete all my assigned homework? Sigh, in a dilemma now. Nah, I think my mind's decided long ago. And I really like my msn font =]. Small but nice :D.

Made real good friends. But I'm afraid that things might turn out to be like me and him. From talking everyday like non-stop until becoming silent the whole time. I didn't even say hi to him anymore. Maybe Its time to let go. Oh well, I have to put my love and friendship problems to one side, as Streaming Exams are coming and I MUST. devote the time I have in this holiday to buck up and to take a good break. My parents said my Science need a little help. So I should focus on that.

Things to study by tomorrow :
- Light
- Act 1 Scene 7
- Electricity
- Agriculture
- Population

That seems decent =]. At least to me. But I'm nearly done with Agriculture, and my notes for population are done :D. So I think tomorrow is just purely physics then :D.

I.Just.Realised.That.Many.Duets.Are.Nice :D. Shall post them in the playlist soon..

* I'm wishing that things would go back to square one between me and you when school re-opens, but I know it would be like wishing on a wishing star, without making it come true. *

Mortal was right, I care too much. Sigh, I shouldn't like have too much concern on people's doing now. Listening to the First song, one of the songs of Carrie Underwood that made me REALLY cry.

- You said you'll come, But I know you.
You said you're coming home, But I know you.
You said you'll call, But I know you won't.
You said you're coming home, But I know you won't. -

The fact that she totally bombarded the song with her amazing vocals, and especially after that live performance at the 35th People's Choice Awards, being the favorite star under 35. That was really brilliant. The people voted for the right person. she could just stand up and hit those notes like nobody's business and DELIVER the emotions inside the song. And to make them last forever. Standing Ovation, I would really give it to her :D.

Anyways, I know that you wouldn't want me to ____ you. So I guess, I have to withdraw. It didn't fit, It just wasn't right. Too bad I didn't feel the Fairy Tale Feeling. I don't know what to do exactly. You're the one, yet come undone. My world would just start spinning. Sighhh. But if you really said yes, I think that it isn't the right time, maybe after the outing, we both need to focus for our exams 100%.

When school reopens, or the next time you see me. You'll see a different me.

Hey, Its been like so long since I last made a playlist. So I decided to make one =].

The songs are in this order :

1) I Know You Won't - Carrie Underwood <33
2) Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry :D
3) Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys :D
4) If No One Will Listen - Kelly Clarkson :DD
5) Stay - Miley Cyrus :D
6) What If - Ashley Tisdale <33
7) Don't Let Me Down - Leona Lewis :D
8) Animal - Ke$ha :D
9) Forever and Always - Taylor Swift
10) When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne :DD

Hope you all like it :D

It's been a week since I last posted. Missed me eh?

Teacher's Day concert was okay bah =]. Since many people said I sang sweetly which I think they were just trying to cheer me up. Oh well. The Teacher's Day concert was appropriate this year :D. Especially 3e5's dance. Really fabulous. Blown away, just blown away :D.

Nothing much to post nowadays. All I know that the school term's over. That's all I know. Was going through a tiring yet fun term. Maybe I'm really depressed. I'm tired. Streaming Exams are like in 4-5 weeks? I have to forget you and focus on them during the holidays. Just hoping that you'll give me a chance. But alright, I love the Way You Lie.
Sorry if I broke my promise to play with you ytd, I fell asleep. Was emotional angry. Angry at myself. For doing such stupid things. For doing things that I shouldn't do.

And Last Night, For the many times I thought, Once again, I felt like dying >.<. Lying on my bed, it was already like 1am. I flashbacked about the things that happened between June and now. Many sad memories. Many bitter Memories. And I had a bit of a seizure last night. I was shaking vigorously for the first time in my life. IDK what had happened. And I sensed something behind me. I only whispered, 'Je t'aime'. I had survived through the night. The tides of temporary Darkness. But I doubt I would again. Something's out there is trying to get me. I think I'm possessed temporarily.

I'm still Sober.