You make me feel like a hummingbird.

Hello guys! Gosh, its been a tiring week! After common tests and now choir stuff has arrived at the top priority of my list! Choir camp! What can I say? Extremely tiring?

Sigh, many of us are breaking down now. Some for the right reasons, and some for things that can be avoided, but we could not do so. There has been too much stress. And that we three couldn't handle it. I just hope that we would be able to survive these tides of darkness, and help out each other as much as we can. But sometimes its just so hard, seeing that other people won't listen to you. Yet you know that you must do your part.

Showed Miss Tan the proposal for camp. It was quite okay I guess? Though she rejected a couple of ideas, but I think it can be a great success! Sigh. I think I would do the groupings sometime this week! :D. Anyway, Mr Ong said that Sops are having effective sectionals and are improving by leaps and bounds! :D. I feel extremely delighted, but I know I should not be over confident!

Gotta invent some new ways to guide my section this Wednesday! Wish me luck xD.

It seemed like just yesterday that I've just met you.
I missed the blur look in your face.
I missed everything.
Guess it's all gone now.

Looks like I've really done it this time.
You won't even talk to me.
Sometimes i wanna start a conversation,
but you would just answer back in a simple manner.
Why is it so hard to tell the truth?
Sometimes I wouldn't want to regret about what I've done.
But it's never that easy.
I want to tell you the truth,
But you've been avoiding me.
Including the times that we should be together doing stuff.

It's never gonna turn out alright.
It's not gonna be that easy.
Was it a bad decision that I've made?
To make myself suffer and face this?
I didn't want to,
but I guess Love was Blind.
I keep telling myself its just a crush.
But it's just not going away.

Everytime I think of you,
I would feel like everything is drained from me.
I suddenly become emotional,
no matter where I am or what am I doing.
Some have realised this problem in me.
I want to tell the truth,
but it still hurts whether its right or wrong.
I don't wanna be double-faced in school,
but I guess all the activities are forcing me to.
Please talk to me.
It may be one word, one sentence or a text message.
But it will brighten up my day.
I miss you.

I'm mentally exhausted,
yet Frustrated at myself.

Why does things have to go this way?
I'm just disappointed with myself.
Let's face some facts here.
I'm just a freaking coward.
I should get things right in the right way,
and not wrong in the right ways.
As though as I want to,
I guess its a mutual thing.
Forcing you won't help much either.

It was just a simple gift,
yet accompanied with something more sophisticated.
You won't even text me anymore.
Or even reply me sometimes T.T.
I don't want my workload to be affected by this.
But whenever I think of you,
it just really makes me really emotional.

How I wish time traveled back to January.
The time when I would tell myself not to fall for you.
And we would still have that playful conversation everytime we speak.
Now it's getting more and more awkward.
I feel like passing notes to you in secrecy.
But I guess there'll be no more opportunities left.

I want to call you now.
But I just don't have the courage to do so.
I wanna tell you how I feel,
but I'm afraid that I'll make things even worse.
If you're reading this,
I would say that I'm sorry for whatever I've done.
Including making you to trace that person down.

It was such an eruption

Got back my E Maths paper today. So glad that I got perfect score! I must keep it up :D. Haha!
Anyway, I felt that I did badly for the double papers today. Sigh. My Chem is gone! And I studied so hard for it! Hope that I can maintain an A2 at least?

And for Geography.
What should I say? That I expected a failure, or that I would do extremely badly.
My heart did not collapse when I saw the paper.
Guess I really predicted it right this time.

Anyway, Choir tomorrow, and me is going to buy present! :D

And!! Having Biology test tomorrow! Wish me luck xD. And Erm, getting back 3 papers tomorrow? All of which I have the least confidence for. Especially HCL. After hearing the scary news.

Guess what, A Hummingbird is only about 10cm! OMG SO CUTE! I want to raise one and measure its heartbeat rate! :D. ( Or maybe replace its heart with mine! ). It can really beat like some Disco drum~. Or EVEN FASTER!

Okay, gotta sleep now! Nights!

I Know You Know.
It was Awkward talking to you today.

It is all my fault.

Common test this week! All the killer papers are starting to really freak me out.
Just barely survived through the A Maths and HCL test today. And HCL was really difficult.
Like really difficult. I sorta ran out of time, and I did the cloze passage in a manner of what my instincts told me to.

Anyway, Aside from all the bad news, there's still more D:.
My Chemistry! Just checked through the answer key for the Topical Revision Exercise and realised that I have loads of errors! Gosh, really need to spend time in the morning and revise through it once again. And my macromolecular structures. Omg. I'm so getting freaked out right now.

Well, got back my physics paper! Should say that I'm extremely delighted because I got an A1!
But tomorrow I should be getting back my EL and E Maths papers.
Should say that I'm not anxiously waiting for the results,
As I'm not sure of the errors that I've done.
Oh well, just hope I don't fling it!

Choir Today! Quite okay! Valerene was quite good in singing, but Mr Ong keeps insisting that Gwen sang louder, which is like totally the opposite. Anyway, She has really good power! And I can't hear the sop 2!

And to my dear beloved daughter :

Don't be so stressed okay? :D. Must cheer up and make the best of the choir camp! Can't wait to put people under the vegetarian section for food preferences! :D

Well thats all I guess,
And off to bed I go (:

No One should be involved in this matter.
For those whom I have dragged in,
I'm sorry.
This incident has to end fast.

Please take away the pain from me.

I'm feeling like I'm less than Fucking Perfect.

Things were in a rush today. I don't know why but my homework is really stacking up.
Sigh, common tests were okay. But the killers are really on Monday. Why? Cause there is A Maths and HCL. Both of which I am extremely nervous for.

How I wished that this controversy would end.

Long live the walls that crashed through.
All the kingdom lights shine,
For me and you.
All the magic that we did,
But I did not want to just pretend.
I want all these dreams become reality.
To fight dragons and witches.

Will I be remembered?
That should be our song with my name in there.
All the things that we held,
Please tell her I'm sorry.
I wanted to rule the world with you.

Dreams.
Ambitions.
Reality.
Some people would know the difference.
But for people like me who are delusional,
I am trapped in this emotional cage.
Locked with chains of guilt and anger,
With this thing called ' _ _ _ _ '.

Perspectives and Illusions.
I thought you would come,
But you did not.
I thought you know,
But you did not.
I thought it will come someday,
but I'm still waiting for time.
Tell me when the clouds went wild.
Tell me how to hold back time.

Although you may not remember me,
You know he won't,
And so do I.
Dear _________,
Seeing that now you're gone,
Don't you think that they were so bad now you're gone?
Maybe we are too young to be perfect at all.

'Cause In Your Eyes, I'll Like To Stay.

Total Defense Day today! :D. Had this assembly programme, which was quite boring, but the videos are nice! :D. Anyway, Don't know why ( perhaps I slept late last night ), I was super tired and Fell asleep in class X:. Not exactly, but going in and out of sleeping mode is really quite unintentional. SORRY MR TEO ><.


Anyway, continuing on to the Assembly, after the presentation, we were supposed to have this Rap competition, but Mr Chong said that there were time constraints and so it will be postponed. This is like a contradiction to the skit! Do we have the "I WILL" spirit! So now he's like indirectly saying that studies come first, and we shouldn't have this competition??


Common Test starts Tomorrow! I have to say, I am extremely nervous for both my SS and EL papers. There's always a first time in Sec 3! And Chemistry Class we learn 'A' level topics which was quite cool! And Mr Lim's Voice and Accent is SUPER NICE! Not that I'm gay or anything, but REALLY! IT'S NICE~~~~~~~~~~~.


HCL was okay, but I cant copy that fast cause I'm sleepy :/.
And EL! Went through my Situational Writing. Got like C6. OMG. Lucky it isnt the test! So I bucked up today and spent time revising it!


Spent like 6 hours studying SS and EL, after postponing my Chinese tuition. And I did some of my Maths HWK :D.


Well, I Got to Go! Needa Sleep! It's quite late! Nights!


I don't know what's happening.
But I just hope that you won't think of him instead of me.
Maybe it's just a crush.
Or just an infatuation.
But I'll see how.
I dragged too many people into this.
And I'm sorry to those people ):.

Trying to hold on,
Despite being afraid to see you today.
Maybe you haven't figure it all out yet.
But one day I know you will.
Me <3 You.

It's February 14, I'm feeling sad and lonely.
Nobody here wants to hold me.

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you! :D And Thanks to those who gave me presents! All the best for this year. :D

How I wished that you would never found out who I was.
Or to even give you that.
But all I can hope now is that you won't find out who is it from.

Loads of homework, and common tests are on this wednesday! Gosh, I'm seriously behind my homework pile, Especially Chemistry and A Maths! And I have not even studied in detail for my SS! Gosh, I hope I can have an A1 from this test! But I must set my targets straight for myself.

Everyone has their own breaking point.

Anyways, something on the meaningful side! There are Grammys today! :D

Lady Antebellum walked home with 6 awards tonight! And that is like not bad, from only one song and one album of the same name :DD. NOT BAD! :D.

And 'Empire State of Mind' seemed to be triumphant over 'Love the Way you Lie', beating it in both categories for Best Rap Song and Best Rap Sung Collaboration.

Meanwhile, Rihanna walks home with the Best Dance Recording for...

YOU CAN MAKE ME FEEL, LIKE I'M THE ONLY ONE IN THE WORLD~!

And guess what, who won the Best New Artist?

Not Justin Bieber NOR Drake! OMG. I'm like so sad that Drake didn't win! D::

Oh and there's this really nice performance which was PITCH PERFECT by Lady Antebellum,
Touching Story and Song by Katy Perry,
And the Emotional song of Masochists by Rihanna and Eminem for 'Love the Way you Lie PART II'
With a part of " I need a doctor " by Enimem, Dr Dre and Skylar Grey.

Omg, I really love both songs. Sigh.

If only time can revert, and change whatever I have done.

There would be no more illusions,
Less Confusions,
No Worrying or Guilt.

Guess it is all over now.
What I didn't want to be affected,
Is involved in the process.
Just Hoping,
That you won't find out.
But you seem like you know already.

Hey Guys! Changed the playlist to one of the Hottest songs this year :D.

Anyway, Class Test had just passed and I would admit that I did not do that well compared to last year, but I really must buck up for Common Test!

Gah, been chosen for V.I.C for Choir Camp! Anyway, Do expect some fun! But not sure if Miss Tan accepts our proposal!

Valentine's Day is coming = GRAMMYS :D.

Do buy something for your loved ones!

If I Said My Heart Was Beating Loud,
If We Could Escape the Crowd Somehow.
Just Hold It Against Me.

I'm living in sin right now.
Things that I should not do is already done.
I just can't believe what happened.
Hoping that time would just revert and change everything,
But I Know It Wouldn't.

This may seem like a confession,
Me <3 You.