I thank God I didn't get for what I thought that I deserved.

Some Hearts.

But if we pack our bags and drive fast enough,

all our troubles will be just like us.

Long gone.

'Some Hearts' may be the best country album I've ever bought in my entire life. It has the full package, the entire set that every country album's supposed to have. But what makes it so special, is that there isn't any Auto-tune! And that makes it easy for die-hard country fans like me to recognize the vocalists and feel the emotions they portray in the lyrics. My favorite song off the set? Starts with Goodbye. Maybe it's just my attachment with the lyrics.. 'Before He Cheats' is a classic too (:. The song that paved the way for country music since 'Breathe' by Faith Hill.

Anyway, let's get back to life shall we? Two subjects down, and it's been alright. I know that there'll be mistakes, but there isn't exactly anything that I would change even if time can rewind. I still don't get why people choose to demoralize themselves during such a crucial period in their lives by taking a quick 'glance' at the leaked answers for the various papers online. As if any crying or bitterness will change anything right? Move on, and smile because it happened. Wow. This doesn't sound like me, filled with so much optimism! Maybe I'm being influenced by Keandra..

Well, I'm really grateful for the fact that I was inspired for my English composition. Fame. It hit me hard in the head initially because I didn't have any plots for it. And the personal recount was a bit too much for me to handle, especially about explaining the significance of my favorite childhood memory part. Maybe that's because I don't really have a memorable childhood, or I just can't remember much about it.. My STM's getting right back at me :/.

Hmm.. 'Red'. That album seems enticing. I really have this urge to purchase it, but I think it'll be better to get it after the 'O's, as it may be a form of inspiration to me! 'I Knew You Were Trouble' and the title cut are ADDICTIVE. Like honestly. They were replaying in my head while I was doing the Maths papers.

Sigh. I still have to touch my Combined Humanities. Gotta complete my revision soon, because I only have one humanities for my L1R5! Really hope that I'll have proper time management and no regrets upon stepping out of the examination hall, and just hope that my best would be sufficient. Even if it isn't, I've already done my best, so it won't be much of a disappointment anyway.. But I have to channel more time on it, since I have LOADS to catch up on Geography. 

Oh, and there's Biology too. Maybe I should just LOVE the theme on genetics. I think that factor makes me determines whether I manage to complete studying it. I really wanna get an A1 for it, and I have complete confidence with my teachers, since its distinction rate has been consistently high ( at 80% ) the last few years. But I got to work hard for it! Gotta complete all the past year 'O' level papers, at least until 2008 AND READ ALL THE COMMENTS FROM MY TEACHERS! I don't wanna let any of them down again, because I did pretty badly for Prelim 2 ):.

By the way, just a little pop quiz. What do you think is my favorite Rihanna album to date?
1) Music of the Sun
2) A Girl Like Me
3) Good Girl Gone Bad
4) Rated R
5) Loud
6) Talk That Talk

Anyway, I gotta go now, since it's like midnight. And I gotta have sufficient rest for the long study day tomorrow! I hope that it'll be productive, because the number of days I have left to prepare is diminishing. ): Bye!

Maybe I'm just expecting too much.

I wonder whether you'll turn up or not.

I really missed having you around,

and telling you practically everything under the sun.

If you're asking about him,
I really wish that I can do so to him too.
But he seems uninterested in talking to me.
I feel guilty saying this,
but sometimes I really doubt whether I'm his friend or not.
Maybe I'm the one being fooled here.
So please, turn up.

State of Grace.

First time using a picture to start a post. I have to admit that I was initially slightly disappointed with Rihanna's new lead single, but after repeating it a few times, I'm starting to get crazy over it. And the lyrics are extremely meaningful!

Anyway, it's about 2 days to 'O's and I'll be lying if I say that I'm prepared, especially for English. But I'm trying my best to squeeze out time to write a few more compositions and answer more comprehension questions so that I'll be able to overcome the English Paper on Monday, hopefully.

Attempted to write a few compositions today, and I feel blessed to have a brother around me, especially when his English standard is much better than mine. Went through with him a few compositions that I wrote, and I'm quite contented with my performance so far, but there are MANY AFIs to look into, which was quite shocking since I just got to know them today.

Did 2 Amaths Papers today as well! Maybe because I felt sleepy after flipping through the Textbook on the topic of 'Rivers', and Maths makes me HAPPY (:. I love the feeling whenever I manage to complete questions on Geometrical Proofs and Trigo Proof because it's really based on your luck, whether you manage to use the suitable formula to solve the question! And it can be disheartening at times, especially when you stare at the question and are dumbfounded by the diagrams the question offers, or even the number of marks it weighs.. But if one can persevere and solve it, the feeling of achievement is PRICELESS (:.

Argh. I'm having this odd feeling that my sentence structures for this post are going haywire. It feels weird typing them out.. Sigh, gotta try to type in proper English! 2 more days ):.

Anyway, the clock strikes twelve now, and that means that I have to sleep! Goodnight, and to the Sec 4s who're reading this post, ALL THE BEST FOR 'O's! It's either now, or never (:

Maybe I'm just being over-sensitive.
But I'm starting to not understand you anymore.

Catch My Breath.

The scariest thing about distance,
is that you don't know whether they'll miss you,
or simply forget you.

Prom night was on Friday, and I've been asking a girl out for it (:. Well, please don't be mistaken, I don't have a crush on her or something :x. We're just going there as friends.. I thought that she (Sarah) looked stunning,  with her simple, yet elegant, blue dress!

Anyway, I'm just hoping that I didn't give her the wrong impression, especially with all those messages. Because it really can lead one to think that way ):. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, or thinking too much. But who knows? I really don't want this friendship to go, because she's like a sister to me (:.

So, we had to assemble at the Auditorium to have a briefing about the day's itenary and we got the latest issue of 'Expressions'! Sigh, it really tears me up to know that it'll be our last issue, after 4 years of receiving it. Can really tell that the cohort's English standard has improved by leaps and bounds since the very first issue! And yeah, there was Randy's one inside ( in the 1st issue ), which I thought was mediocre, but his latest essay on disappointment was quite nicely written! Sigh, time really flies eh?

We headed towards the hall next, where we were greeted by the teachers and the staff of the school! Felt extremely emotional because it's really an honor for them to be applauding for us, yet saddening to know that that'll be the one of the last few times we'll ever get to see them in our Secondary school lives.. I know I'll miss Mr Lawrence Tang and Mr Ong Kai Kun, especially when they've been my Science teachers for 3 years now (:. And Jiang Lao Shi too, because she didn't belittle me when I started HCL in Sec 3, and her constant encouragements spurs me to do better! (:. I hope that I can clinch that distinction in HCL, even though it'll be tough, since there're like so many people out there with good language skills, especially the scholars..

Moving on, we had some performances from the alumni, which I thought was really sweet of them to take the time off to perform on our graduation day (:, even though it may seem a little _________. But still, it's the thought that counts right? And the games that were organised were COOL! Joel's dancing is (Y)! Oh, and Mr Ang's one as well!!

After our dinner, the hall was suddenly converted into something like a disco, where the 'DJs' started to blast a few popular songs for us to dance~. Totally loved their song choices! It makes people high. Since I can't dance and didn't want to jump around like a crazy barbarian, I started to snap pictures with other people! :D.

Went home with Louis afterwards! Miss Rozi's cupcakes were delectable and it was heartwarming to see teachers giving us farewell gifts! ):.

Anyway, how's your mugging? I think mine has been pretty slack since prom night, but I managed to complete my topical revision for the three sciences (:. Gotta start my humanities soon! Argh, it really irks me to know that I have to study Rivers&Coasts because Cambridge is coming out with hybrid questions ):. Forgot all the content and the drawings already ):.

And I really need to start on more essays! I gotta retrieve more inspiration for writing! I think my brother's been pretty good to me, since he's been vetting all of my essays (:.

Anyway, sorry for the abrupt ending. Gotta go for dinner now ):. BYE!

P.S. Please forgive my grammatical errors ):

Sandwiched.

Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping,

when you look at me like that.

And so, it's the end of my 4 years in ZHSS. Sigh, it's really funny when you've been whining about various aspects of the school and start to treasure every single bit of your last moments there. Maybe I'll miss my friends there, especially those who've been with me for a while ( even if they've made me irritated MANY times ) like Randy, Ikhmah, Adeline, Clare, Gracia, Chang Jie, Jue Ying, Ying Shun etc, just to name a few.

Well, this means that the Study Break has officially commenced. It has been quite productive for me during the weekend. Managed to complete the entire Secondary 3 syllabus for Biology (:. Feeling extremely accomplished now! I'd initially planned to complete the Secondary 4's one, but I figured out that I should start with my Physics since I'll be having tuition on Tuesday!

Anyway, did you guys know that there's a Study Room at the Community Club? Been heading there during the weekend after Keandra's introduction! It really provides a suitable environment to study in, especially when it's MUCH MORE quiet as compared to the school's library or even the public ones.. But the flip side of it is that I get restless WAY too easily and I have to control my urge of doing random stuff to let go of my emotions, especially when I listen to an up-tempo song!

Moving on, I've recently updated my blog's playlist! It consists of 12 songs, and they're all shuffled! In addition, I've added a few up-tempo songs to lighten up the mood while reading this blog! 

Got to go now! Bye (:

If only I can go back to December,

and change all the events that occurred that month.

Maybe it'll make things be the way they were before,

and I still had you.

I know that no matter what I do to repent,

you'll still be unwilling to face me for what happened.

Perhaps you'll be the only regret I'll have once I leave this school.

9 months, 

and it's still there.