You're some kind of fine.

Last day of holidays! And its 1l:11 pm now. So let's make a wish, take a chance, make a change. And Breakaway~.

I think I kinda procrastinated a lot for my holidays. At least I managed to understand Chemistry Metals better, and do a bit of Emaths revision. But what about Amaths? I'm only done with only a part of Linear Law, and apparently stuck with Ex 8.2. That is really terrible ><. And to top things off? I just realised that my class did not send the bag for Aces day on Friday. And there're still pairings to complete! I guess age has caught up with me, causing me to be forgetful nowadays.

Well, on the bright side! At least I managed to complete all my homework (:. And there's Chinese letter test tomorrow. Hope that doesn't pull my CA marks down. But I really don't know what to write for it. I hope that mental block doesn't catch me tomorrow!

Anyway, I'm planning to make a study table for myself. Like a personal organiser you know? And it helps me to keep track my dos and don'ts. I guess I'm really addicted to playing games on my computer once more. Gotta kick that habit off me. So I've decided to play maybe.. 2 games a day? And I hope I can really balance my gaming life and my studies ><.

Moving on, there's school tomorrow! And surprisingly, my bag's pretty light. Maybe that's because I don't need to bring any books for Chinese due to the test! And that's great! So.. My study plan starts effect from tomorrow. And one piece of bad news : I haven't prepared anything for Teacher's Day yet! And I remembered that I was supposed to save money T.T. Hmm. I'm trying to think of something simple. Any suggestions?

Oh yeah, went out with Jia Wei and Mei Ling to study together! Apparently, we've been asking each other chemistry and Amaths questions while I was doing my Chinese composition. I think my phrasing skills are really off the hook. Anyway, I LOVE KFC'S POPCORN CHICKEN! Starting to develop a craving now..

Self reminder : Need to buy sweets tomorrow!

Well, that's all for today! Trying to turn in early to make myself refreshed tomorrow. BYE!

And PS. My tagboard's a little dead right now, would love it if you leave something behind once in a while!

You don’t realize just how many things remind you of a person until they become someone you no longer wish to remember.

Sometimes you have to watch the broken pieces fall, no matter how much you want to fix them. And sometimes, you have to let someone walk away, even though all you want is for them to stay.

I'm lost here in this moment.
And time keeps slipping by.
And if I could have just one wish,
I'd have you by my side.

What if what we're looking for is just standing in front of us, waiting to be discovered?
I know I score for perfection, and am starting to look at those around me.
I'm trying to be understanding, and yet you won't let me to.
I wanna climb through this mountain, because I know that it's just a grain of sand.

For all we know, we might not have tomorrow.

It's like 2.45am in the morning and I'm still posting. Just completed my Chemistry and Emaths homework. Not really exhausted right now because I just had a cup of milk tea. Realized that there're some matters that I have to highlight to the choir and to myself, especially in the areas that I am missing in my academics. Hope that I'll be able to spend my time on Amaths and CL tomorrow, and I will be able to understand Linear Law better.

Played computer today. I guess I'm hooked once more. Oh great, but at least it serves as a good stress reliever? And managed to talk to friends on msn. Adeline smsed me, but it turned out to be Xinyi playing with her phone. But at least it was entertaining ^^. Thanks loads! Erm. And a big thank you to Elston for helping me in resolving my Emaths problems! I think I'm getting more stupid day by day, as I can't even solve Maths problems. Oh well. But I hate circles/trigonometry questions.. D:.

Anyway, VMA 2011 results are released. I was like practically cheering when Beyonce announced that she was pregnant, in awe looking at the tribute to Britney Spears! And guess what? Beyonce won the Best Chereography Video for 'Run the World (Girls)', Britney Won Best Pop Video for 'Till the World Ends', Nicki Minaj won Best Hip-Hop Video for 'Super Bass' and Katy took home 3 moon-mens last night, including Best Collaboration and Best Special Effects for 'E.T' (one of my favorite songs ^^) as well as the Crowned Video of the Year for 'Firework'! Okay, I'm going bonkers right now. To top that up, Britney Spears was awarded the Vanguard Award :D!

Congratulations to all my favorite artists and the other winners such as Adele and Lady Gaga! I think they all really deserved it!

For the best performance of the night, I don't think it was Lady Gaga, or Bruno Mars in his tribute to Amy Winehouse. Instead, I think that the most energetic performance was done by Beyonce for 'Love On Top' and the most emotional performance was done by Adele for 'Someone Like You'! Starting to love that song right now ^^. Brings out such a strong message in its lyrics!

Well, I think that's all for today! It's near 3am now. Gotta sleep. Nights!

Hope that it serves them well.

I Remember Me.

Hey guys, I've been a really bad boy recently. Supposed to be doing homework/studying but have been playing comp recently ^^. Anyway, I hope I'm not addicted to it yet!

Hmm. Went to have lunch with my family in Chinatown, but played with Kinect before that for like.. 45 minutes? Anyway, went there to eat Beef Noodles and I ordered Beef Balls but they gave me tender meat. Oh well. Moving on, went back home and tried to start with my Emaths Homework. Apparently, I'm stuck with the last 2 questions ><.

Then, continued playing computer again and revised Chemistry (Metals) until now. Left TYS questions to do. Guess I'll leave it for tomorrow eh? At least I'm done with the Workbook!

I think I'm rotting myself away at home.. Anyone wants to hang out or something? Anyone?!

Glad that this is solved (:.
Thank you.

I can't see so I can't drive.

It's like 4.30am in the morning now? Just woke up after nap starting at 8pm? Was really tired last night.. And I think I skipped my dinner. Oh well~..

Nothing much to blog now, just wanting to share some quotes/ pictures..

Have you just, not been able to get someone out of your head? I mean you know it’s over, but I walk around with this pit in my stomach and everyone tells me I’ll get over it. All I’m asking is when.
— Kissing A Fool

It was an infatuation once again.
No more, no less.

It was the night things changed.
I can feel it right now.

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Had been very busy especially in the preparation of tests and DOING HOMEWORK D:. But there's one piece of good news (:. I have an extended weekend due to the Presidential Elections and Hari Raya~

Anyway, I think I flunk my Chemistry test. Oh well. Hmm. School had been typically normal and awesome as always due to the people around me.. But there's this part of me that doesn't want myself to attend school. The biggest problem? It's not because of laziness or homework/examinations, it's because of the stuff I'm facing now.

But the good thing is, CHEERS TO THE FREAKING WEEKEND, WE DRINK TO THAT :D.

Been accompanying my cousin around in Singapore to eat and do a bit of shopping? And went to Kbox with her yesterday.. Sang many songs and I think I have a sore throat now and I'm losing my falsetto. But I think I was really emotional at some songs that I sung on that day, like 'White Horse', 'Mama's Song' and 'Thinking Of You'.

Hmm. My cousin's going back to HK today, and I'm gonna fetch her off in the airport! It's been a crazy week! And I'ma plan to start on my studying for End-of-Years. But I'ma plan a sleepover/hang-out too! OH AND I ORDERED + PAID Katy Perry's And Britney Spear's posters today! Can't wait to collect it next week (:.

Sorry for the short post today. Suffering from Mental-Block right now, Bye :D.

I was the one who initiated this.
There's no point looking back now.
I'd go back in time and change it,
But I can't.
So if the chain's on your door,
I'll understand.

Glad to know that you're moving on from this incident.
Because I'm certainly not.
I shouldn't have caused this to end.
Even if I changed it,
it would never be the way it was before.

I guess the only option left is to move on eh?

I hope you understand.

To the guy that I've known for at least a year, and spent awesome times together. I hope that you'll still remember all those memories, even if they're about to fade away now.

I know that you might face a dilemma now. You might question yourself and think about the possible mistakes that you've made. But honestly, I would say that you've made mistakes, but not that significant that they'll lead to what happened today. You didn't do anything wrong, and I want you to know that it was never your fault. Blame it on my selfishness. Blame it all on me. Maybe I wanna run away from reality, but I guess that this would be a better option for both of us?

You asked why and I replied that I wasn't able to phrase my answers. If you ever read this blog, and I hope you will, I guess that you'll find the reasons here.

You had too many connections in my life. People might think that that is an extremely good reason why this should stay on. However, you're connected for all the wrong reasons. Do you still remember how I met you? It was through someone right? And we both know the reason why we would've met. Then, we became close friends as we communicated more over the holidays. But this wasn't the only connection you had. I was in love last year. And you know who I was in love with. Maybe it's because of jealousy? But I've always heard rumors about you two being together, and I've never believed in them. You two were good friends. That's all I had to say. Then, something bad happened during August. And I believe that you can still recall what happened? That incident was one of my main reasons for making this blog a private one, ever since it's first anniversary.

And then I met this person before the end-of-year examinations and started to study with her. You should know who is it and you should also know what happened. But I treated it like nothing had happened, because it didn't really involve me at that moment of time. However, as we transited into our packed Secondary 3 lives, you could tell that we were drifting quite far apart from one another. And then, BOOM! Something happened again this year. Something that I should've never done in February. Something that I should've have given to anybody at that moment of time. Trying to cover my tracks, I used you. You complained, but still gave in to me. For that, I offer my sincere appreciation. We still became close friends as the months flew past, until I was knocked hard by the fact that the girl I like might actually like you.

I might have never told you much about this this year, but I guess it's time to shed some light now eh? She's been avoiding me, ever since that February incident. She thinks that I stalk her, just because I tried to give her a birthday present. And now she claims that she is trying to protect herself from stalkers like me that had brought her harm to her mental well-being and life. This is also another sign of jealousy. I don't know why, but whenever I think of her, the next person that comes to my mind is you. And things were expected to head this way, but it's just that I didn't want it to occur at all..

Next, have you ever regarded me as a good friend? I hope you know that ever since I met you, I've always treated you like the present that I've given you on both of our birthdays. Thank you for all the encouragements and advices that you've given me throughout the months, but I keep having this feeling that you just treat me something lesser than a friend, like you've been avoiding me. Maybe those are just my feelings, but it really sucks when you treat someone as an extremely good friend but get something lesser as a friend in return right? I know that we had awesome times together, such as the Teacher's Day celebrations and the OBS camp, as well as the heart-to-heart talks that we had. However, those talks that we had, most of them were solely about me, and not about you. This is one of the reasons why I think this way..

Moving on, you kinda betrayed me. Ever since you've stepped up as an EXCO member. I know that this might be inappropriate to post this kind of stuff in blogs, but I thought that EXCO members were assholes. I thought, maybe if you became one, you would change my perspective. Many of my close friends crumbled because they became an EXCO, and unfortunately, you were one of them too. I told you my CCA stuff, and I know that I should be thankful that you've offered my generous advices and help in those areas, but you told them, during the council interviews. Maybe it was just a slip, but it was all it took to destroy my trust in you. I nearly told you everything, and this really led me to doubt whether you've ever told what I've confided in you to anyone else.

I know that it may seem a little childish that I'm doing all this online. I know that you might want to talk to me personally, but I hope you won't. I hope that all your questions would be answered in this post.

Other than that, you were an extremely good friend to me. You've entirely deserved the present that I gave you. I hope that even if we both disagree/agree to this, I hope that you'll be able to move on and continue to strive with your fullest potential and live your life just the way it was before.

For me, I would try to move on, but please do not worry about this anymore. It's been a fun yet crazy ride with you. And I guess it's time that I depart from the train and move on with my life, just like the times when I've never met you.

So for the first time, and for the last time,

Here comes goodbye.

I wish you all the best for your future endeavors.

- Your kid that fell from some bird.

Thanks for guiding and teaching me invaluable/valuable lessons and characteristics during this fun and crazy ride together.

I'm complete.

As you all have noticed, I have put up a new blogskin for this blog! I kinda like it <3. And I don't think you can stop the music unless you find the magic box! I just love this song <3. It's addictive!

Anyway, today was quite average. But I need to start on my homework ASAP. I think I'm going to fail my humanities tests on Monday. Oh well..

Can't wait for Universal Studios tomorrow :D. It's been quite a while since I've last visited there.. I hope it's gonna be memorable and that the weather would be in our favor! (:.

Had Chinese Tuition today.. Was quite useful for me as they were going through the Summary Practices. And I think I did quite badly for the last one, because I didn't even understand the passage itself, let alone finding the points for the summary! D:.

But managed to finish it and went back home before editing the blogskin! Going to head down to Suntec later for dinner! :D.

It's like I've checked in a rehab.
And you're my disease.

I own it.

Woke up quite early today with a sore throat and flu! And had to bring Strepsils to school. Anyway, tried my best to study for Chinese spelling once I reached school, but there were too many distractions! Carrying on, went for morning assembly before starting the day with A maths!

Was quite alright, just that I wasn't really paying attention to Mr Lee! Target for the weekend : Try to complete his homework that are overdue! Anyway, I think I understand Trigonometry.. But it's just a speculation..

Then had physics. Received back our AA results. Matthew, Cheer up okay? You're like making me worried T.T There's always SA2 (:. Then, Miss Ting wanted to teach Ray Diagrams which I didn't understand at all ... But she realised it when I asked my questions and she started to go through it right from the start again!

E Maths was next.. And we went to the computer lab! Mrs Ng taught a new chapter and wanted us to do a quiz in ace-learning. But she didn't want to bring us there anymore, because she thought that people cheated in the quiz as they're all MCQ questions, but they're relatively simple. So she was quite shocked and she went out to take the worksheets for that chapter..

Had recess! And totally went to the canteen! I'm like totally in love with the school's muslim stall! I LOVE THEIR FISHCAKE :D.

Went back to class to continue studying my chinese spelling, but to no avail once again.. Kept thinking of English songs. Hence, I wasn't able to concentrate T.T.

Proceeding on, we had HCL lesson! Double Period! Went through the textbook chapter, but it was quite difficult to understand because as what I've told you, it's like Literature in Chinese! Can't say its Chinese Literature because it can mean an entirely different thing. OH AND I GOT BACK MY LETTER! For the first time, it was quite.. CLEAN! Not that many red scribbles on my paper anymore :D. I think that certainly showed a stage of improvement in HCL :D.

Then, we had Geog! It was particularly normal, but talked to Rebecca for a bit!

Before heading to HCL SSP, bought some stuff to support 1N1 because my juniors wanted me to.. And you know as a supportive president *coughs*, I bought some stuff from them! And I bought Roses, and I don't even know what to do with them T.T

Had choir afterwards, and had sectionals! Sorry Altos for chasing you away from the Music Room! But I think that the combined Sectionals was not bad.. Just that my sops never really pay attention to me. And I was giving them the pissed off face..

Apologized to them later, and walked home with Sean discussing some matters (:

Anyway, Jennifer Lopez got me hooked into one of her songs. Totally love it! <3




I love the way that you're moving.
And I'm listening to how you're grooving.
So if you need me, just call on the cruise.
We can be whatever that you want in the news.

And i realised I slept quite early with my computer switched on.. Oh well. Time to sleep! Bye!

Guess it's that obvious now eh?
I still can't get over it,
no matter how many times I try to convince myself to do so.

I think I've totally lost the respect from my juniors..
And I can't really set a clear boundary from friendships and authority.
Guess that happens when you have responsibilities.
Just like you, f*cking backstabber.

You won the battle but you lost the war.

It's been a packed week! Loads of homework, and hanging out with friends!

Went out with Matthew and Esmonde after committee meeting, and they had to wait for me for a long period of time. My apologies! Anyway, managed to decide what card for Matthew! Haha!

And then we stocked up our sweets supply! All ready to be used effectively on Friday! Crapped loads of stuff on that day, and we've bought milk tea in Nex too! Mango Milk Tea!

I think I've been hanging out with Matthew for the past 4 days! It's been great having a friend like you (:. And thanks for the post that you've made recently, it totally cheered me up after seeing what's happening nowadays. Hoped your mum liked the poem I made for you :D.

Bought Aunt's present on Tuesday!

And went out with Jue Ying on Wednesday. We had Magnum, Milk Tea and Riceballs! Haha (:. I think we walked around the entire Nex like 3-4 times? And then we sat on a bench to talk! Was quite surprised about some stuff though. JY, if you ever read this, must learn how to destress okay? Don't aim higher, you're giving both of us unnecessary peer pressure :X. BUT ITS COOL TO HANG OUT WITH HER!

Today, we had HCL excursion. Was quite average for me, and I managed to catch some points of what the exhibitor was talking about. Well, for the video screening, which was apparently 30 minutes, I kinda fell asleep. AND GUESS WHAT? I'm sick. Down with Flu and Sore Throat. Oh well.

And people saw me nodding my head away throughout the entire video! Thanks Shermaine and Yan Yeng for picking up that worksheet that I had dropped while dozing off! And I just realised that there are only about 5 guys in 3e6 that takes HCL. That's kinda scary..

Well, to round up the lessons :

- Chemistry : Miss Ong was a bit rushy nowadays.. She's like emphasizing that we need to complete until the chapter on Periodic Table, which is quite scary. Especially after she booked every single SSP Slot which is going to be available for the next two weeks.. But still, I don't know why I'm sleeping in her classes nowadays. 3 times in a single hour! I don't even think that I'm even paying attention! Gotta do my own self revision!

- Physics : I think Miss Ting really improved her method on teaching especially on the chapter of Light! I can understand some parts now.. I guess! And my physics mark was horrible, as expected! But glad that my Alternative Assessment marks pulled me up! I think I still have some misconceptions here and there and I DONT UNDERSTAND LENS AT ALL D:. Maybe that's because I'm not quite settled with Refraction, hence causing this problem. Heard that she's really good in teaching smaller groups. Maybe should ask her for help!

- E Maths : One of the most enjoyable lessons in my entire Sec 3 life! Mrs Ng is like a 3rd form teacher to us <3. Anyway, she showed us the video of our class dance that she recorded down on that day. And it was quite... NICE YET HUMILIATING! But still, we managed to get 2nd place and I know that the dance team had tried their best! :D. All those hours of practice totally paid off! She managed to complete one chapter this week, and the quiz was quite challenging, but I don't know why I still managed to get the questions correct even after copying some answers for homework from Matthew :X. But at least I understand better!


- A Maths : Thanks goodness for Trigo! BUT WE WERE BACK AT GRAPHS D:. I hate that the most! Anyway, Mr Lee was quite nice to us.. And i think I've been paying attention in his class, as well as picnic-ing at the same time too! I don't understand Linear Law though, and I owe him excessive amounts of homework :X.


- English : The trainee teacher was quite okay.. Went through comprehension with us. Managed to bond better with Clare! And I think my EL mark was totally unexpected. Was expecting a C5 or 6, but I got an A2.. I think it's the language part that pulled me up, as I was thinking more of vocabulary instead of content this time round.. And we got BBC knowledge! I love their vocabulary questions, but despise their comprehension ones..


- Combined Humanities : I think both were quite okay, especially for Geography. FOOD! I think Mr Teo teaches better for Human Geog as compared to physical Geog. Oh well, but Miss Suba lessons are getting more interesting as there are more hands-on activities for us to do! Totally reminds me of Miss Rajinder Kaur, my Literature teacher last year <3. Anyway, I think I can decently understand the context of both chapters.. But the tests will be on Monday! And I haven't started studying!!


- Biology : Miss Rozi was quite fun and entertaining this week! Respiration! And all those diagrams! I think that's a strong point of her. Always manages to deliver extra information and summarizes the entire part in one diagram! Anyway, some says that she is teaching way too fast, but on the other hand, I think she's teaching with extreme detail and I find it quite slow, yet effective! But bad news is.. I got second last in my bio band. And my grade was an A2 T.T. Totally disappointed in myself. But I hope this won't diminish the interest I have for Biology!


- Higher Chinese : Managed to get high marks for phrases test! :D. That's a good sign.. But I don't really understand the textbook chapters that Jiang Lao Shi teaches nowadays.. It reminds me of Literature, as she teaches the different methods of Lit Devices. But it's in chinese.. And the words are like quite complicated! Anyway, I think Higher Chinese really boosted my standard and interest in Chinese. And she was like super nice to her Sec 4 class, yet fierce to us.. Oh well! But at least she manages to teach well! :D.


Well, that's all for this week's recap! It's like 1am now and I should be sleeping. Nights!


you and your friends can say i am cruel, what break your heart. But how about yourself? did you even think of why ppl do this? its because of YOUR ACTIONS. you are the one who didnt respect others, you are the one who snatched away ppl's privacy, and you still can say that i broke your heart. seriously, whats wrong with protecting myself from being stalked by someone like you in school and on facebook? dont you think that you have done enough damage to my life and my mental?


I think that was directed straight at my face. I know I've done many mistakes in the past, but I'm just hoping for your forgiveness. I've never done most of what you accused me of. Yes, I know that I've done a significant damage to your life, but I've never stalked you. Whenever I wanted to clarify with you, you'll just walk away and avoid me. I didn't even snatch your privacy, unless you consider attempting to give you a birthday present as one. And you rejected it. I still have it lying on my table, with the present and the card wrapped in wrapping paper. In fact, in the letter, I wanted to offer my apologies. I know that I shouldn't have liked you in the first place. I know that I've landed myself into this fiasco. I know that you may not even offer me a second chance. Many of my friends have already told me to forget you, but I just can't. I can't get myself out of this mess. That is because whenever I try to do so, things get rough all over once again.


Guess what? I wished that I didn't have a heart at all.
And sometimes I wished that I wouldn't be alive in the first place.


I long ago knew that you were a back stabber.
But what I didn't know was that you didn't change a single bit since that incident.
At all.

Thank you to those who tried to cheer me up whenever I needed you all..

It could collide.

I'm not sure anymore. I know it isn't fair for you. But it's not fair for me either. You stopped sms-ing. Can't say that I wasn't expecting it to, but I don't really know what made you do that. Guess my life's back to normal eh? Back to where it all began. Before I was introduced to you.

Thanks for the memories for the past year.

I'm not sorry that it's over.
But for the way I let it end.
I couldn't find the words to say.

Stop thinking about what you can't change and worrying about what you can't do.

It's time to really buck up on my studies.
This was just the common test.
I need to work harder.

I guess that the teacher's day auditions would be my last for the year? But I hope for the best definitely! Today was the practice, and was quite glad that we managed to wrap it up in 3 hours, as compared to last year of course.

Anyway, yesterday had choir. I think I'm running out of means to help them. Tried to bring in an innovative idea to help them, but was greeted with such negative feedback. And guess what? I keep saying that I would wash my hands off my CCA, but I just can't.

Being a chairperson and a president is not a joke. I somehow feel more connected to my class than CCA.. Maybe it's because of the number of close friends that I have? Or that they'll at least co-operate with me? And I just realised, I don't really have close friends in choir. Good, but not close.

And that idea just distorted a friendship with one of my good friends. Oh well. It really sucks.

Hmm. On the bright side, managed to complete my long-overdue physics homework and submit it to Miss Ting. Well, she looked through them and keep pointing out my mistakes. Kinda understood the chapter better after she explained the chapter to me, and Matthew joined in too! :D. But I still have loads of doubts about Light T.T. Hmm. Maybe I should have a personal session with her, since I've heard that she teaches quite well in smaller numbers.

And then, went to buy bubble tea with Matthew! But had to wait for him for like AGES. T.T. He said it was 10 minutes, but it kept dragging ><. Anyway, tried to start on my HCL homework, and I at least managed to write the hanyu pinyin for those phrases. After that, I bought watermelon ice blend! And it reminds me of someone.. You know, I kinda miss her. She's like my niece, and we shared lockers for like 2 years. Hope that she's doing well now. After that, we went home and I facebook-ed a while before going to sleep. Just a song to recommend you all. One of my favorite band's latest singles. :D That's one typical example why I <3 country over the rest. It's because of their tunes and lyrics :D.



I try to smile, and live it up.
But I fail everytime.

And today, it was just the practice and I slept like a log. Well, that's all! I gotta wake up early tomorrow to do my homework! Bye!

I guess it's how hard it is to make it look easy.
I don't wanna express my true emotions everyday,
cause I know that they'll be weaknesses to your eyes.

The truth is,
I was jealous over this past week.
How did he managed to click with you so well?
I know you two may seem like classmates,
But I am too.
Just that you're blocking me out of your life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BLOG :D.

Thanks for being there for me always! :D. Thanks for allowing me to post really sensitive stuff in the posts :D. Thanks for cheering me up at times with the pictures that you have! :D.

Time really flies eh? It's already 2 years.

It's flawless, really something.
It's fearless.

Went to Adeline's Birthday Party on Wednesday! It was AWESOME! (:. I was lost on my way there.. Anyway, we played at the perimeter of the pool and started to push people down. And before we knew it, the security guard chased us out. ):.

Went to the BBQ pit and started to talk with those who were there. It was like 90% 1e1'09 or 2e1'10. I totally miss them loads D:. Hmm. And when the security guard disappears, we sneaked back into the swimming pool and started to play once more.

And guess what? We were caught again T.T. But we first managed to swim to the deeper part of the pool and play! AND I WON CLARE in the piggyback race! After that, we started to make water bombs and threw them at each other. And some of the girls had this cute idea of filling the entire icebox with water, before pouring the water inside at their targets!

Then, I played Volleyball with Rebecca, Louis and Zongyou! Haha, and the ball was stuck on a tree. So we threw pebbles at it.. Pretty cool eh? And Shaz threw waterbombs while playing D:. Anyway, after we retrieved the ball, we continued playing! Afterwards, I managed to eat some food before talking to Mortal! Gosh, I miss her loads.

I HOPE YOU SEE THIS MORTAL :D. There're like loads of things I wanna tell you.

Anyway, I think they went to the pool again. So i continued playing volleyball with Rebecca and the other guys started the fire! After playing for a while, I've decided to help them out by fanning the fire. I kinda forgot that I wasn't supposed to fan the fire while wearing contacts. But oh well! And the fire was finally starting to become bigger before we discovered that we ran out of fire-starters D:.

So Adeline went to purchase them! Hmm. WE managed to maintain the fire though.. Anyway, I was like walking around and talking to people, or helping to manage the fire. So it was quite alright! And soon it was 7! We then started the BBQ! Hehe. Started with the satays first~, and then the other food.

ROASTED MARSHMELLOWS ARE (Y)!

Anyway, I was then talking to my faithful neighbour! Gosh, it's like 8 months already, and we were sitting next to each other for the past 2 years before being separated this year. I was really glad that we managed to catch up with one another.

Hmm. Then we both went into the pool and started to jump into the water like crazy people! And then we gazed at the STAR. ( Note the singular form ) And soon, it was cake time! AND apparently, they've bought two cakes. We covered adeline's eyes when she came, but i think she knew what was going on and started to flee. But too bad, Elston smashed her face with the cake, and she started to go berserk! HAHA. It was fun! And she started to throw cake everywhere! (:.

After that, we changed and cleared up the mess before officially having the cake-cutting ceremony. MY GRANDMA IS OLDER BY ANOTHER YEAR <3. Then, Clare, Louis, Shaz and me homed together. Thank you to Louis' father for driving us home! Really appreciate it! Talked to Shaz about loads of stuff on the way home! After she alighted, I was surprised that Louis' father remembered where I live! I mean, he drove the three of us to my house for project in April, and that was only once! Went back to my house and bathed, before starting to do my remaining homework.. Today : Woke up slightly earlier so that I wouldn't miss my bus after receiving someone's message! Anyway, reached school and practised dancing at the classroom next door! :D. After that, we went for assembly and then got back our common test results.

I think I was pretty happy for some. But really disappointed with my sciences. I thought that Biology and Chemistry was okay, as compared to my physics. But both were such a letdown to me. Maybe this proves that I was too proud this term? It's time to travel down to earth once again.


Booked the auditorium for recess and started to practice in it! It was quite warm, but at least we managed to familiarize ourselves with the stage! Thanks Mr Goh :D.


Then, went for the remaining classes before eating lunch together with the dance team and going to the Dance Studio for a final practice! Pretty cool eh? And I think the girls look pretty cool in their attire. I LOVE THEIR CAP! And some of them reminds me of the term 'alter-ego'. Anyway, managed to practice for a bit before heading for a break.


Afterwards, we went to the Auditorium. Was quite shocked that 3e4 was dancing already. I was like 20 minutes earlier than reporting time? Anyway, i think the Sec 3s totally owned the house today! We were cheering like crazy for every single class that we saw :D. I think that all the Sec 3 participants did an extremely good job in their dance! And soon, it was our turn to go up onstage. Was quite nervous, but I think that as most of our dancesteps are done as a group, so there was not many things to worry about.


Anyway, I thought that the 3 dances that we performed were extremely well-done! And I think I'm gonna get teased tomorrow.. Oh well. It's all for 3E6 <3!

Well, that enlightened my day entirely. Homed after watching the Sec 2 classes dance and taking loads of group snapshots!


There's HCL Phrases test tomorrow. And i just studied it today. Oh well, wish me luck. But I think my physics would need more luck than it.


Well, that's all! (:. It's like midnight now. So I'ma sleep now! Nights (:


That was pretty unexpected.
But why didn't you show up earlier?
Why must it be now?
I don't know what to do now.
You seem different.


If you're reading this,
I don't really know if this is a wise decision to fix this matter once more.

What if it's lost behind,
Words we could never find.

Today was average for me. Maybe it's because of the disappointing performance, but the awesome appointments today? Okay, first and foremost, I think NDP is quite screwed. Oh well, guess my predictions were right anyway. I don't really know what to do. I guess I'm tired trying to change things for the better. Maybe I'll just stick with the status quo then.

Anyway, my cousin came from HK. Never seen her for like... 6 years? Yeah, that's such a long period of time. But I'm glad that we managed to meet one another again! So I had lunch with Yijie and Kaychyn, and managed to buy some presents! (:. Rotted myself at home by playing some computer games before leaving for dinner!

Talked loads of stuff with my cousin! I know I can't speak fluent cantonese, but I can at least understand it! And my bro keeps insisting that he can teach well, something that I beg to differ. I mean, his alright with his studies, but teaching is not referring to how well you did for your studies or how well you understand your syllabus. It's about passing your knowledge to another student right?

BUT STILL, MANAGED TO BUY ONE ALBUM FOR MYSELF! Okay, I gotta control myself again D:.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST ADELINE <3. GRANDMAA! I CAN'T WAIT TO PUSH YOU DOWN THE SWIMMING POOL ON WEDNESDAY ^^. ALL THE BEST FOR THIS YEAR ALRIGHTS?

Dang, I'm craving for some ice-cream now. And it's midnight.. Oh well.

Moving on, Happy National Day everyone! I will be using this day to do my homework and tidy my school bag (hopefully for once)! Hmm. And I wanna have some sleep too!

I gotta thank mortal for talking to me until around 2-3am in the morning? And you even had Singapore River trail on that same day! Hope that you had fun down there (:. Thanks for cheering and standing up for me today!

Here's a nice song to brighten up your day!



I just love its chorus! Bombastic vocals!

Well, it's a long (homework) day tomorrow. Gotta get some rest. Bye!

The sun's on my side and takes me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright.

Maybe he didn't mean it.

Gosh, it's like near midnight now. I should be sleeping. There's a national day concert AND prize giving tomorrow. But I'm kinda afraid in the inside. I'm anticipating that things would go wrong tomorrow. I'm scared that I'll screw up and embarrass myself in front of other people. Oh well. And seeing how the seniors are supporting us, I feel so ashamed of myself. Maybe it's my responsibility and fault that I didn't prepare the choir well.

Anyway, yesterday was awesome then sad, then AWESOME AGAIN! Maybe he just did it by accident. Moving on, I had Magnum ice-cream! It's like my first in three years! Kinda shared the deal with Adeline at 7-11! Then went to KFC for lunch, before meeting my junior on the way to the MRT station and meeting Sarah!

And we approached the destination! It's kinda cool that we managed to complete our parts for it (:. Anyway, had Gong Cha after that! And thanks Matthew for accompanying me to buy my dinner and the egg tarts ( They are horrible by the way, such a total letdown from Crystal Jade. ) We crapped a lot of stuff! And then I homed (:.

Today, the new furniture for my room came! YAY! I kinda like my new arrangement for my bed, and my new table + mini cabinets. But I'm kinda upset having to throw my old desk away. I think it's the memories that it had shared with me that made me miss it..

Had Koi today! 25% Milk tea! Wanted to try the quarter sugar thing ( PS. I usually take half. ) And it was like tasteless, until I let it stay in my mouth for a longer period of time before swallowing? But the pearls're good! Hmm. Maybe that's because I have a sweet tooth <3. Anyway, it's gonna be a slack yet long holiday ahead! There's concert + Prize giving tomorrow, need to complete hwk by Tuesday, CELEBRATE ADELINE'S BIRTHDAY :D on Wednesday. Totally looking forward to the last one, so that I can push her into the swimming pool. Hehe. Me ish evil. Okay, that's all. It's like currently midnight now. BYE!

No point making promises that you can't fulfil at all.
If once upon a time,
I could rewind back in time,
I wouldn't have trusted you.

I wanna walk in the rain.
And let the raindrops wash my pain away.
But I guess it's too late now.

Please forgive me.

This week was a terrible disaster for me. Was practically trying to hold on to the Common Test week. I guess I flunked most of them, especially physics. I thought I could do better, but I think I know better right now.

I'm starting to head towards the wrong direction. These problems knock me straight on my face and I can't seem to solve them. Instead, I've just screwed someone's life upside down just because I told somebody something. I hate these situations when you cannot do anything you want to. I just have to live with the fact that I'm supposed to tell people stuff, even if that means betrayal. It all started from a simple misunderstand, and it just ended with a big bang. Like stone hearts and hand grenades.

And then there's you. When I thought everything was going to be okay, you just show up suddenly. And it always occur at the wrong times. I wanted to tell you something so badly, but I guess I didn't have the courage to do so. And when I could just get over and done with you, you just had to start a conversation with me. I think it's just a detour in whatever I'm currently doing now. Maybe there'll be times when I'd completely forget about you and would finally realize that I didn't have a friend like you. It's time to move on, but I'm flying without any wings.

Stop avoiding me. I know what I did was completely insane and wrong. But you're like ignoring me in every single way possible. I'm not implying that it's your fault, but can you just think about me for a second? Whenever I ask you a question, you'll just reply with some one-word answers which usually end the conversation. I'm not trying to do anything here. Can we still be friends? Even after what I've did to you? Guess the answer is obvious enough right now.

Today, it was supposed to be awesome. But somebody who was close to me kinda turned my day upside down. I don't really know what's going on, but based on his reaction, I guess I'm losing my confidence in myself. I really wanted to back out today. And there you are laughing like it's no one's business, especially when I'm trying my best to do whatever that I can do. Guess I'm not being appreciated huh? You know, this proved me wrong all along. I thought I could like trust you and treat you as a good friend, but now you've destroyed my confidence. What are you going to do about it?

Well, now the only thing I'm looking forward to is Adeline's birthday. Not even NDP performance can make me feel better. Oh well, I'm starting to lose hope and give up.

I guess this song would be able to describe my emotions right now.



Yes, I did that already. I needed the pain.

Didn't thought that I would succumb to this stage.