I don't know why terrible things happen to us sometimes,
but I have to believe that something good is going to come out of this.
- Carrie Underwood, Soul Surfer





You all should catch these movies in DVD if you haven't done so yet when they're screening in theaters. They're really meaningful and touching

Is this what dreams are made off?

Tattoo your name across my heart,


So that it will remain,


Not even death can do us part.


What kind of dream is this?

Because some days stay gold forever.

You know what, I think I'm a annoying person in everyone's eyes now. My only hope was to start a conversation, and all I receive back were just one word answers. I guess that maybe I should just shut up. I know that some of you are really nice to say that I'm not disturbing you, but it doesn't really hurt saying the truth out right? At least it's better than the things that people reply me nowadays.

I guess she was right. I need to seriously mind my own business, and do what I want to do. There shouldn't be anymore distractions around me. It's time for me to focus, as this is the final lap of this year's race. (not counting the 'O' levels) I should totally buck up right now. Look at me, I've just wasted a day of my weekend, knowing that I'll be going out tomorrow.

So, for once, Ima make a promise to myself. I will wake up at 6am tomorrow and start revising through my work, and this is my first time, excluding the times that I woke up early because of other official reasons.

Anyway, I was thinking about all the friendships that I have with others. Are they really genuine? Or are they just as transparent as water, fills you up but never stays, and that it's only good to wash away today. I really hope that people start making decisions more conscientiously and quickly. There's seriously no point dragging this when I know that you're going to turn me down already.

About all the things that I've mentioned earlier in my previous posts, I've pondered about them for a while. Maybe I was wrong to have wronged you in the past. Maybe you were truthful to me all these while, just that I was blinded by some obstacles that I face, or even worse, my personal emotions. I guess I've been manipulating myself too much, trying to avoid the emotions that I don't want to face any longer. I think they're all coming back to me right now.

Sigh. how I wished that there would be things like 'Right Here, Right Now', where we would abandon the universe, know that our world will change and that things would never be the same. I think I'm going to blow up like some maniac soon. The worse part? I can't even figure out the main reasons that caused my emotions to be like that. I can only recall the bits and pieces of the past, but not the entire scenario.

As what some people know by now, I wish to have long hair, so that I can cover my eyes and refrain myself from knowing things that I don't want to see at all. I want to be an ostrich, an animal that buries its head deep into the sand in hope of avoiding the situation that it's facing now.

I run, because I can't hide from the facts.
It felt so right, but it felt so wrong at the same time.
I feel so empty inside,
and it's going to be endless.

I've been giving up on people too easily.
If they don't call, if they don't try - then I don't.
It's not fair to lay the blame on them when I don't calling either.
I'm just as much at fault.
I've got a lot of resentment for old friends - for letting me go without a fight.
I just want someone to call and say,
'I missed you. How are you?'
I just want to call someone and say,
'I missed you. I'm sorry.'
I want to be brave enough to stay in one place.
-http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com

It sucks to be me right now. 

I, who have nothing.

Don't waste your time trying to fix,

What I need to erase,

what I need to forget.

Don't waste your time on me.

Because it's all over.

I don't want you here,

because you'll only pull me down.

So save your breath, 

don't waste your song on me.

Give me something good,
Don't wanna wait I want it now.


Hey guys! It's the end of the first week at school! Got to say I'm pretty stressed out right now, as I've not started on any serious form of revision yet. Hmm. Maybe I can spend the weekend wisely by doing so!

Anyway, school was pretty awesome today! I think I managed to understand Amaths for once in a long while! And I understood Physics too! Great, at least I know that I'm catching up (:.

And there's Emaths which was normal, and recess! Had to finish my HCL homework ><

Moving on, HCL lesson. I think it was brought quite a big shock to me, because I'd realized that I'm doing EXTREMELY badly. Out of three compositions, I only passed one ><. And out of three letter writing, I failed two. And guess what? My 'O's are in like barely 2 months away from today. Guess I really need to buck up! ):. Tried to understand the teacher's explanation, but had to use the Electronic Dictionary to find out the meanings of the phrases that she had used..

Yeah, that's the saddest part. Attending a class when you do not understand your teacher sometimes..

And there's Geography too (:. I think my results for the class test was pretty unexpected, because I was supposed to fail for not studying it thoroughly. Guess paying attention in class helped me tremendously!

Anyway, had lunch with Gracia, Charlotte and Rebekah! They're awesome 1e1'09/2e1'10 people! :D. But they had to go halfway to attend their SSP ):. Then, Hirotaka came and I managed to catch up with him! It's been too long since I last chatted with a 2e1'10, excluding those that are in my class now. Glad to know that they're doing fine.. Because I'm not ><.

Next was choir. I think I kinda humiliated myself. Last practice, I didn't exactly warm the choir up. And now, I took too long to warm them up. Sigh, ain't I such a failure? ):. Can tell that Mr Ong doesn't really like the new song, but at least I tried to make something different right? But the good part about it was talking loads of crap with Joyce ^^. AND THERE'S RUMORS ABOUT US. ): It's impossible between us. And Joyce, that is not gonna happen between us. You know who I'm referring to right? :D.

After that, went Gongcha with Joyce, Yijie and Sean! Talked and joked a lot, and watched how Joyce shrieked in front of Mr Ong. That's gonna be etched in my head for a very long time~ And Milk Tea w Pearl at 30% sugar rocks.

PS. I like being fat ^^. I like it. If you don't, then if you seek you. ^^.

And I'm kinda childish these days. Forgive me if I'd offended anyone. Apparently, I'm at the other side of sanity now..

I don't know why but,
I smile whenever I see your face.
The words that I say,
are filled with irony.
I can't speak now for once,
Because I'm starting to see sparks fly whenever you smile.
This shouldn't develop at all.

All those crazy things we did.


Hello! It's been a long time since I've last posted. Hmm, as you all might have noticed, I just changed my blog song! An emotional song that touches the heart once one hear the lyrics (:. Actually, I had 4 songs to select from, and they're :


1) What you want - Evanessence (below)
2) In the Dark - Dev
3) S&M - Rihanna feat. Britney Spears
4) Wish You Were Here - Avril Lavigne


Anyway, back to my post. Schooling life's been busy for me. There're like mountains of homework to overcome, along with the almighty touch of the End of Year Examinations.. Speaking of which, I just completed only an Amaths paper today, and I'm lacking behind my study plan D; . I got to buck up, like seriously! Got countless things to catch up~

Hmm, and school was normal these few days. The only exception was that I hanged out with Jue Ying after Bio SSP today! We tried the new bubble tea store in Nex ( it can be located at Toa Payoh too )! I think that the standard of the milk tea kinda crashed compared to the one in Toa Payoh.. Sigh, quite disappointing! But the fun part of today was that we managed to buy loads of chocolates (:. I think I'll need them to survive my study sessions!

Today's gonna be a short post.. I'm sorry, as it's quite late in the night already. Oh yeah, I received the most shocking news I've ever heard in months after Bio SSP. Maybe you all will find out tomorrow? This can't be happening to me T.T.

To compensate slightly, I'ma post a song! It's been ages since I last did that.

First and foremost, the mighty rock band a.k.a Evanessence is back with a sizzling new single :D.



Okay, nights everyone! :D.


I remember all the crazy things we did,
and it's just my wild imagination fooling me.
This can't be happening.

Even if I did cry you a river, you'd just pollute it anyway.


Hey guys! It's like midnight now, and I'm not really sure why I'm posting in such a late hour. Just completed most of my homework, except for HCL, and I'll save that bit for tomorrow morning! :D. I'll go through the poems and try to memorize the authors as soon as I can! Anyway, about the previous post, Joy was correct! The unknown iconic woman was actually Christina Aguilera, a female artist that has one of the best vocals in the world, and that she's one of the 4 judges for 'The Voice'!

Anyway, school officially re-opened today.. Was quite happy to see my friends once again, after a well-deserved break! But was kinda reluctant to get off my bed, but still, things worked out right in the end eh? Lessons were alright, and I'd made an extra effort not to fall asleep during physics, even though I failed terribly and got teased by Kah Wai... And Miss Ong's not here today for SSP because of her course! So Mr Ong took over (:. I think Chemistry SSP today was more of a recap than a new lesson, and maybe that's because we've learnt the information covered in 'The Periodic Table' earlier in the year already.

Oh, you've seen what happened in 3e4 during recess time. It was awesomely memorable ^^. Thanks Dad for it! :D. I knew that you could do it! (:. AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR DAUGHTER <3.

And there's choir today. Tried to teach choir a new song, but i only had like 10 minutes to do so? And Mr Ong was like saying straight in my face, ' You're not warmed up yet. '. ARGH. Super sad about that! D:. Was quite sharp, and Valerene was like telling me to be cautious. Oh well, I think that's because it's been ages since I last sang properly.

One good/bad news : CCA's suspended from next week onwards. Good news is, I can study hard for my EOYs, but the bad news is, I doubt we can even finish preparing for the concert. 6 songs to learn plus one combined song ><. Oh well.

Was feeling exhausted when I went back home! Rested for like 30 min before completing Biology! Managed to finish it at 10.45pm. The reason why I took so long is because I read through and tried to understand 'Excretion'. Afterwards, I was talking to Dad, and CHEER UP, even though you don't really read my blog. D:

Managed to compose a study plan for myself this week! Hope that I'll be able to stick to it and focus my time and energy onto my studies, as well as maintaining the balance between work and play! All the best to everyone in their preparations for EOYs! :D.


Time to me to go now, feeling awfully tired now. My eyelids are disappointing me T.T. Nights!


It was quite obvious today.
Hoped that I managed to help, 
even though I made things worse for you.
And no,
This can't be happening.
I guess it's just my wild imagination/hearing that leads me into thinking this way.

Don't forget about us.

Ahh. Schools starting in just a matter of hours and I'm still awake blogging. Nothing much occured recently ):. So sad right? Anyway, just finished writing a card for my daughter! Hope she likes it (:.

It's gonna be a short post today, gotta catch my slumber~ Bye :D

Going to post some pictures for a while to compensate~

Isn't she pretty with bangs? Leona Lewis FTW! :D

Can you guess who this iconic woman is? Hint : She's below the age of 30! :D.


I'm particularly happy today,
and only mortal knows why (:.
Thanks for giving me a second chance!